GOMEN NASAI TO THOSE WHO HAD ALREADY READ THIS CHAPTER. IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE JULY 7, NOT FEBRUARY 14. ACK! WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! ANYWAY, I HAVE ALREADY EDITED IT SO GO ON...
DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN ANY OF THE RURUOUNI KENSHIN CHARACTERS AND PLACES…ONLY TAKA IN CHAPTER 1, MR. SAKURAGI AND THE SNOOTY LADIES AND THE YOUNG BOY IN CHAPTER TWO, NOTHING MORE…YET. CHAPTER 5
(A DIARY ENTRY OF KAMIYA KAORU)
P.s. But I included the story after the entry…anyway…
Like they say, a Jasmine is just a Jasmine. But if you appreciate its inner beauty and sweetness, it is more that a mere flower that you just look at. My life, when you look at it, it seems to be only made up of pieces of ordinary puzzle. The life just like any average twenty-four- year old has. Actually, it is more than that. The day Kenshin Himura came into my life, the once colorless life of a hopeless girl became so much vivid now. To end her life was the last thing she could think of when she showed her light, and how grateful she was to have met him.
For the past five months, Kenshin stayed with us in the dojo and since Yahiko has nowhere to go, sighs I finally agreed to let him live with us provided that he help in the chores and he has to do good in Kendo. Sanosuke visits us almost everyday. I thought that was quite sweet of him, only that he became somehow a pain in the behind since he ALWAYS eats at our house. Somehow you can call him already a good for nothing freeloader, but he can be really handy at times though.
Suzi and Yumi grew fonder and fonder of Kenshin each day. Of how he treated the children, it's as if they were like his very own siblings. He would play with them or tell them a story. He is a kindred spirit that I was praying to have in my life.
If you'll ask me about how I feel for Kenshin, all I could say is that my heart stopped it's longing for him. It is because that he's already in my heart, and whatever might happen it will never fade. Each day that passes, I fall more and more for him. It was his good nature that made me fall for him. Though he may not know about my feelings for him, I know that someday he will love me too, not as a friend but as something else. I love him for him and nothing else will take that love away. Though you might think that I'm nothing but a sentimental loser who hopes and dreams that this man, who only sees me as a dear friend, will love me back and will never leave me, you're wrong. I maybe a sentimental schmuck but I'm not a loser. Losers are those who give up easily and are not willing to fight for their beliefs and their hearts. I believe that Kenshin will never leave me and will love me for me. I love him as Kenshin Himura and even though he may not be perfect, for me he is. I don't care about his devious past, what I want is the Kenshin Himura I met who gave me light and inspiration when I thought the world was against me. I have, at last, found my kindred spirit…
"But Kaoru, have you fallen not only for Kenshin Himura but for Battousai as well?"
END OF DIARY ENTRY
July 7, it's been five months since Kaoru had met Kenshin. It's been five months since her heart became alive again, or so she thought. But truth be told, Kaoru seemed to get livelier and rosier each day since Kenshin stayed with them in the dojo. Never a day wasn't she inspired passed.
"Oi, Yahiko! Help me here, would'ya?" grumbled Sano as he was fixing the door that he accidentally knocked down a while ago when he was trying to throw a stone at Yahiko. That was quite a heavy blow.
"You do it yourself! And why should I help you? You were the one who destroyed it," said Yahiko snobbishly.
"Well, it was all your darn fault! You shouldn't have stolen my rice ball in the first place. I was really hungry. None of these would have happened."
Yahiko just gave him a snob.
"You're always hungry and you shouldn't have thrown that stone in the first place, ne?"
Sano glared at him, "oh you insufferable lazy goat!"
"And you're a piggy freeloader!"
"Ha!" snorted Sanosuke, "and what do you call yourself? You're a worse freeloader than I am, Yoshi-boy!"
Yahiko was a bit offended, "well at least I'm somehow making myself useful than you are. All you do is eat and eat and eat. I bet deep inside you're a fan of dogface's cooking. Only pigs eat her food, well, I bet even pigs can't stand her cooking. You're a PIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG, Sano!" Yahiko chuckled.
"WHY YOU!" and before he could throw the hammer at Yahiko's face, Yahiko immediately ran for it, laughing his heart out.
Just as Yahiko managed to escape Sano's attempt to de-face him, a woman appeared at their doorstep. He looked up. It was Megumi Takani.
When Megumi saw the battered door, she scornfully made a shocked face.
"Not as surprising as it should be. If ever there were destruction made in the house, fingers would only point to one person. Don't tell me you didn't do this, Sanosuke Sagara! Tsk, tsk, tsk," pitied Megumi sardonically.
"Are you trying to mock me, woman?" retorted Sano.
"I thought that you wouldn't even know. Honestly, Sano, you desperately need brains to live. I assure you it would make you more useful," and she gave her signature laugh.
Sano gave her a snob.
"What are you doing here, anyway? It's as if there's not enough troubles in this house to deal with."
"And you would count yourself there (Sano threw her dagger looks). I'm here to deliver my homemade rice balls and curry."
"Did you say food?" Sano's face brightened. "Well, actually Megumi, you are mostly welcomed to the Kamiya dojo. Come on in and I'll escort you to the kitchen," said Sano. He stood up and bowed to her, forcing a smile.
Megumi rolled her eyes, "Oh! You are such a ravenous pig! And by the way, I know the way to the kitchen. I'm not an ignorant moron like you," and she made her way towards the kitchen, leaving Sano mumbling, "You good for nothing woman! I wish you would trip."
Kaoru glanced at the door.
"Oh, Megumi-chan, you're here."
Megumi entered the kitchen and handed her the food.
"Here, I brought rice balls and curry for lunch."
"Curry? That was really nice of you. Arigato," smiled Kaoru, "I was just making lunch."
Megumi winced. Wonder how Kenshin could stand her cooking? Megumi marveled.
"Kaoru, why won't you let Kenshin cook lunch instead?"
"Oh, he's not here. I asked him to buy tofu."
"Then, er, cancel the cooking. Anyway, I brought lunch."
"Megumi-chan, I can't. This food is especially for…for HIM," giggled Kaoru and returned to her carrots.
Megumi silenced for a while then a wide grin appeared on her face.
"Kaoru, you do realize what day it is?"
"Megumi-chan, if you're trying to embarrass me that would never happen. And I do realize what day it is, thank you."
Megumi was still grinning.
"You know, Kaoru, today's the perfect opportunity to 'fess up your love for him. You may never know when he'll be gone in your life and I know you wouldn't let that happen, right?" winked Megumi.
Kaoru stopped peeling her carrots and lowered her head.
"He wouldn't understand. Even if he ever does, he will just see me as a dear friend. Even worse, as a sister."
"Humph! Who wouldn't? You act like a ten-year old."
Kaoru cast her a glare.
"And you look like one," added Megumi.
Kaoru gripped the knife tightly. "For your information, Megumi-chan, I'm already twenty-four years old."
Megumi flipped her hair snobbishly as always and said, " Whatever! A real twenty-four – year old faces responsibility at any cause, at anytime. I don't think you can even handle it. You're just a silly, sweaty little girl."
Kaoru had had enough. Why, Megumi was being so insensitive and has no clue of what's going on between Kaoru and Kenshin, Kaoru thought so.
"You just don't understand, do you? All my life, I wanted Kenshin to know how much I love him, but to tell him straight to his face seems to be the hardest thing to do. What would you do if the man you love tells you that he only sees you as a dear friend and nothing more after you have just confessed your deepest affections for him? Wouldn't be that hard to swallow, Megumi-chan? But I know you'll never understand because you never had somebody to love."
But that was a mistake Kaoru had to say. Megumi was enraged when she heard this. Suddenly, she felt her hand trembling with anger and was acting by itself – towards Kaoru's shocked face. But then she hesitated, and for a while tears started to fill her eyes, but she tried hard not to give in.
Megumi sighed heavily and said, "You know, Kaoru, after you had said that, I just wanted to slap you hard to the ground and make sure you eat what you had just said but I refrained myself from doing so. I know it would just do more damage to the both of us especially to you. I, too, experienced such fear that you are afraid of now, but I dealt it womanly and maturely. Kaoru, if you really love Kenshin, you have to try before jumping into conclusions. If you really love him, fight for it. You have to prove yourself worthy for him if you think he's worthy enough for you. Besides, that's what love is about, isn't it?" and with that Megumi left the kitchen without another word.
"M-Megumi-chan…"
Kaoru just stood there, staring blankly at the spot where Megumi had once been. If she really does love Kenshin, would she do it? Would she finally tell him how much her heart ached for him?
If I told him I love him, would he really understand? But knowing Kenshin, he is always an understanding and thoughtful person. Would it be the right time to tell him so? But what's really hindering me from telling him so? Am I really afraid of loving again or being left alone again?
What Megumi told her a while ago made her reflect for a while. Somehow her words seem powerful enough to push Kaoru to do it. But it wasn't only how she told me, there's something else. She wasn't that kind to Kaoru always but…
There was full emotion and concern.
Megumi full of emotion and concern? For me? Kaoru can't seem to believe it. Megumi, no matter how you look at it, will always be that scornful and snobby lady to those she knew, especially to Kaoru, with exception to her patients. But she helped Kaoru this time, and that was nicely odd of her.
But was that a trick? Was she trying to be ironic?
But Kaoru shook her head and softly scolded herself. Megumi was really thoughtful and concerned for her. Even though at times she may appear to be disdainful and a stuck-up lady, deep inside she really cares for her friends. Kaoru highly appreciated it.
"Oi! Kenshin!" Kaoru's thoughts were taken away by Sano's grungy voice. She looked at the window and saw Kenshin coming towards the kitchen, carrying in his hand a bucket of tofu.
But of course, it wouldn't hurt to tell him so, right? After all, she may never know if Kenshin feels that way for her too.
"Kaoru-dono, I already have the tofu!" she could hear his voice coming from the hallway. Perhaps the right time it is, thought Kaoru. She's not a little girl anymore, and Kenshin's way different from Taka. Of course Kenshin would never leave her, even if he cannot return the love Kaoru had always dreamt of.
Perhaps the right time it is.
"Kenshin…"
OHAYO! : How did you like the chapter so far? Gomen nasai, I was kind of slow in updating this chapter. My schedule's packed with so many curricular and extra-curricular activities! I think I have three projects in line, waiting to get started and all of them involve computer work and I even got sick and was two days absent-already! So many lessons, missed! Anyway, I think I can multi-task…hopefully. So please the next chapter takes a little while to show up but I already finished it, just need to type it. Anyway…thank you to those who reviewed! Keep on reading and reviewing! I would really appreciate that!
P.s. some reviewers were asking me if Kenshin's Battousai side would appear… uh-just keep on reading…
Some reviewers were also asking me if I would insert a character like Tomoe. Actually I already did in chapter 1, but his role wasn't that emphasized enough but anyway, as I have said, keep on reading…sentimental butterfly
by the way, many thanks to evilteddybear, maureen and neko no chaos for the reviews. welcome aboard! i hope you keep on reading my fanfic! as for everyone else, many thanks also. keep on reading and reviewing. SAMURAI X RULES TO THE INFINITY!!!!!!!!! hehehehe