AN:Ta-Da! Here's Chapter Four of Use To Love You. Once again, sorry chapters are so short. I don't really get tons of time to work on the chapters. Sorry! Another note: I do plan on adding the other characters in like Kikyou, Kagura, Kanna, Naraku, Kouga, Rin, and Jaken...it just takes time though. Which I'm guessing is probably why my fic might be long...And the characters will probably be introduced in a different way, than from the manga/anime. And as always, sorry for grammar/spelling mistakes.
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Use To Love You
Chapter Four: The Moon's Always There
Kagome lay awake that night, wondering what her future would be like. Her mind raced to what Inuyasha and the others were doing. Were they worried? Did they know she died? Did they still think she was dead? This was too much for her. She needed to see them. And poor, little Shippou! Kagome felt the guilt begin to form. The poor kitsune was probably worried sick about her. Kagome turned on her side, and shifted around uncomfortably.
'Was I really that selfish? To turn around without a second thought and leave them?' With those thoughts that she felt would never be answered, she closed her eyes, and fell into a dreamless sleep.
"Get up, girl."
Kagome's eyes slowly began to open and adjust to the sun's blinding rays. Getting up slowly, she turned her head to the right, and saw Sesshoumaru standing across from her. The look on his face seemed to be the closest thing to annoyed. The sun seemed pretty high in the sky, so she figured she must have slept more than she needed to.
"Are you ever going to move, or are you waiting for someone else to pick you up", Sesshoumaru asked in his simple, monotone voice. Kagome quickly got up, seeing that Sesshoumaru was a 'no-nonsense' type of guy. Kagome patted down her ruffled up hair a little, thinking that Sesshoumaru would probably not let her travel around with him looking like that.
"I'm ready to go now"
Sesshoumaru simply nodded, and set off down the dirt path. Kagome gave a quiet sigh, and followed him.
"So...where are we going to go anyways", Kagome asked, trying to strike up a conversation.
"To get Tetsusaiga."
Kagome froze in her spot.
"Does that mean...does that mean I'll see Inuyasha and the others again" Sesshoumaru didn't stop walking, but gave a reply. "Who else has the Tetsusaiga in their possession", he stated, rather than asked.
Kagome let a smile shine through. A true smile for the first time in a while. "I can see Sango, Miroku, and Shippou again" Sesshoumaru turned around and raised his eyebrow. "You know I won't allow you to stay with them." Kagome's face fell and hit rock bottom. "But...you don't even like me anyways! For crying outloud, you tried to kill me before" Sesshoumaru glared at her with his bright, golden eyes. "If I let you go, Hakumei will take my soul. I've already told you that and don't make me repeat it again."
Kagome's anger began to rise. How dare he just keep her there for his own soul. She could be with the others right now and having fun, rather than having to stay around with the ice block.
"I personally don't care what you tell me to do! I'm leaving for them anyways" Kagome broke into a run, not really knowing which way she was going. Her feeling of being useless was dawning on her again. 'I should have just stayed dead if this is what my future is going to be like!'
Pausing at a tree, Kagome leaned against it, catching her breath. Even if Sesshoumaru's senses and speed were good, she didn't think he would actually bother to come near her until later. Sighing, she began to think about what she just did. She just took off running, without even knowing where she was going. For all she knew, she was probably lost!
"Your senses are so dull. I've been sitting up in this tree since you got here.", a voice rang out.
Kagome whirled around, and looked up at the tree. There sat Sesshoumaru with a bored look on his face. Kagome glared at him, still angry from what happened previously. "Oh, came back to save your own ass" In a flash, Sesshoumaru held Kagome's neck in one clawed hand. "Speak to me like that again, and you will regret it." Kagome just snorted. "You can't kill me! If you do, your life goes out the window and you know that" Sesshoumaru glared at her, and dropped her rather violently on the ground. She rubbed her sore back, and got up. "I can't believe my future is going to be with you", she screamed out in frustration. "My killer becomes my PROTECTOR! And here he is, giving me threats like there's no tomorrow"
Sesshoumaru turned around sharply with a glare worse than all his others. "Will you just shut up for one moment? My ears are about to burst with your shrieking"
Kagome shot back an icy glare of her own. "I don't have to listen to you" Kagome stomped ahead of him, not wanting to deal with his lecturing on her.
Inuyasha and the others had decided it was time to move on. They would have to eventually get over Kagome's death. Besides, moping around, wishing they would have done something to protect sure didn't help the situation. She was dead and that was the final fact. Even though they had set this in their mind, they sure weren't believing it. Little Shippou even had hope that his surrogate mother was somewhere alive. Yet, when he tried to find facts to prove that statement, all hope vanished.
A strong gust of wind came blowing through the land. Inuyasha's silver hair blowed violently in the wind. The wind had sent some strange, yet familiar scent towards him
'Almost like...Kagome!'
Without any warning, Inuyasha picked up the pace, and made a dash toward the heart of the forest. His heart was racing quickly, almost like it would jump right out of his body. Never stopping once for a breath, he finally made it deep into the forest where Kagome's scent was the strongest. Inuyasha pricked his ears forward, trying to hear anything that moved. A rustle came from behind one of the bushes. Quickly, he turned around and his golden eyes widened.
"Kagome" Kagome looked up from pushing the bushes aside, and let her jaw drop. There stood Inuyasha right in front of her. She had to rub her eyes to be convinced. He'd actually come back for her. With a cry of joy, she ran forwards towards Inuyasha and hugged him tightly. Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her, letting a small smile shine through.
"I was so worried about you Kagome...I...I thought you were dead." Kagome embraced him tighter, not wanting to worry him or tell him about how she was dead before. It'd only make him feel worse. She was about to reassure him that everything would be okay, when a growl erupted from him.
"Sesshoumaru..." Kagome turned around, and saw Sesshoumaru standing there with his emotionless face.
"What did you do to Kagome" Sesshoumaru simply snorted, looking away. "I have done nothing to the girl. Furthermore, I want nothing but for her to go away." Inuyasha gave another growl. "I'd happily get her away from you" "But you cannot." Inuyasha's jaw dropped so far down, it could have reached the dirt. "Whaddya mean 'But you cannot'! It's not like you actually WANT Kagome to be around! Besides, she'd be safer with me than with some cold-blooded killer like you"
Sesshoumaru just gave a snort again. "Dear little brother...how dense can you possibly be? If I had a choice in the matter, I would have killed her already. Yet, there are certain circumstances that do not allow me in doing so." Inuyasha snarled and whipped out his Tetsusaiga, ready to fight. "I bet you're making up some plan right now, aren't you"
Kagome tugged at his arm with a pleading look on her face. "Inuyasha! Stop it! What he says is true" Inuyasha looked at Kagome, his golden eyes questioning her. Kagome took a deep breath and decided that it was now or never to tell the story.
"I did die, Inuyasha. I went to the crossroads and met Hakumei, guardian of the crossroads. She sent me back to the world of the living again...assigning Sesshoumaru as my protector...since he did kill me...and if I die because he failed to protect me...he will die." Inuyasha was furious by this point.
"YOU KILLED KAGOME" Sesshoumaru simply nodded his head as if it were nothing. Inuyasha held his Tetsusaiga high in the air, getting ready to preform the windscar.
Kagome let out a tiny scream, and pulled Inuyasha back. Inuyasha was startled by her actions and dropped the Tetsusaiga.
"What's the matter with you, Kagome? He's your killer! I'LL GET RID OF HIM FOR YOU" Kagome shook her head no. "Inuyasha...it's just that...it wouldn't seem right to take away someone else's life...", she said softly. Sesshoumaru raised an eyebrow, a little surprised by her speech. 'I would kill her if I had the chance...yet she would not kill me...she's proving to be a more loyal woman than I thought.'
Inuyasha gave Sesshoumaru a steely glare, but did not make any notion of attacking him. For Kagome, Inuyasha would do anything. Kagome threw Inuyasha a small smile of gratitude. "Thank you...Inuyasha." Inuyasha nodded his head, but still continued giving Sesshoumaru cold looks.
Just then, Sango, Miroku, and Shippou came running in, huffing and trying to catch their breaths. Upon seeing Sesshoumaru, Sango and Miroku immeadiatly went into battle stance. Sesshoumaru just gave a 'There's no way you could hope to win against me' look. Sango was about to let her Hiraikotsu go whizzing at Sesshoumaru's head, when Kagome stepped in.
"It's okay guys...in a sense...we sort of have an alliance going on." Sango and Miroku lowered their weapons a bit, shocked by the news. Why would Sesshoumaru choose to form an alliance with creatures he thought were below him?
"Kagome, I don't understand...", Miroku began to say. "It's a long story.", Kagome cut in, not wanting to start any fights.
After talking things over with the other three, they all just lingered around, not sure of what to say. It was an awkward situation, having one of your enemies right in front of you. Inuyasha prefered to stay as far away from Sesshoumaru as possible, while Sango and Miroku sat not too far away from him. Needless to say, the group was still a little wary of him.
Night approached quickly. Inuyasha had taken sleeping quarters in a tree, keeping a watchful eye on the group. His feelings about the whole situation had left him worn out. Thoughts were jumping this way and that, leaving him hanging. And Kagome was making things all the more difficult by not allowing him to kill Sesshoumaru. Just by that small movement, Inuyasha couldn't help but feel suspicious. Like she had begun to develop some feelings for his older brother. He snorted in anger, and brushed off the fact. There was no way Kagome would fall for someone like that. With that final thought, Inuyasha closed his eyes, and tried to force himself to sleep. Yet, it was not working. This was one of those rare moments that he was feeling truely scared. Losing Kagome to someone like his brother was like being stabbed over a hundred times. But, how could Kagome even have feelings for the guy? He never showed her an ounce of kindness. Inuyasha's eyes widened. What had happened between the two before he came!
Inuyasha was about to check over on Kagome and ask a few questions, but was saved trouble of doing so.
"Inuyasha? Are you asleep", Kagome's soft voice rang out. Inuyasha looked down at Kagome. "I'm still awake Kagome. What is it" Kagome shook her head. "Nothing...it's just that I couldn't sleep and well...", she trailed off, feeling stupid. Inuyasha jumped down from the tree, and landed beside Kagome.
"Can I ask you something, Kagome" Kagome nodded her head. "Sure. Ask away" Inuyasha took in a deep breath.
"Did anything...happen...between you and Sesshoumaru" Kagome looked alarmed.
"What do you mean by that" Kagome was clearly startled by his question. Even a little hurt. Hurt that seemed to not trust her. Inuyasha flattened his ears against his head, feeling ashamed that he had the nerve to not even trust Kagome. He knew her better than that. But, he was so worried. He just couldn't help it!
"Kagome, I'm sorry! It's not that I don't trust you or anything! It's just that...well...I was so worried about you...and...I couldn't help but feel scared." Kagome's face immeadiatly softened after he said that. He was just worried about her and that made her feel touched. It seemed she was wrong to think that Inuyasha harbored no feelings for her.
"Inuyasha...I'm glad you were worried about me." Inuyasha hugged her tightly, with the moon shining down upon them.
Sesshoumaru had seen the whole thing. To be honest, he did feel a little spark of jealousy flow through him. Of course, he berated himself for even bothering to care. She was Inuyasha's wench, and that's how it always was, and always would be. Or...was that really true? Sesshoumaru was becoming frustrated with himself.
'It must be that damn Hakumei's fault...she put a curse on me...to fall in love with her...but...' Sesshoumaru knew he was kidding himself. Deep inside, he knew he was free of all curses. He just didn't want to admit that he actually cared, if just a little, for someone. Especially for that someone being a human girl nonetheless. Pushing his thoughts away, he began to fall asleep. One with dreams that would haunt him forever.
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Dream Sequence
A waterfall ran quietly, surrounded by flowers of all different types and colors. A sweet smell assaulted Sesshoumaru's nose, as he stood there. The scent was a mix of flowers, vanilla, jasmine, and lavender. Possibly the best scent he had ever come across. Somehow, in the back of his mind, he felt that he knew this scent. So familiar, yet he could not pinpoint who it belonged to.
Being curious, he followed the scent, to where it was strongest. Beside the waterfall, was the figure of a young woman. Black hair poured down, past her shoulders. It looked as soft as silk, and as black as the nightsky. He felt so tempted to touch it, and see if it would feel as soft as it looked. Trying to stay as quiet as possible, he crept up behind the girl.
"I know you're there, Sesshoumaru." Sesshoumaru stepped back, a little startled she knew he was there. He was as silent as a butterfly flapping its wings! How could she hear him? The girl giggled and turned around, revealing her face to him. Kagome!
Her sapphire eyes seem to sparkle more than any diamond ever could.
"Oh Sesshoumaru! Of course I knew you were there, don't act surprised" Sesshoumaru looked confused for a moment, not understanding why she was so happy to see HIM of all people. She gave him a huge smile, holding out her hand for him to take. Hesitantly, he took it, not understanding WHY he took it. Kagome was a human. He was a youkai. They could never cross the line, but it seemed he was now.
Somehow, Sesshoumaru felt less uptight than he use to. It was wrong. He tried to get rid of these feelings in his heart, but they wouldn't leave. Kagome gave him another encouraging smile, oblivious to the fact that he was debating over what to do. Follow her, or get away from her. In the end, he really couldn't leave her. Her scent was so alluring.
She led him to a meadow, full of beauitful flowers, sitting under the bright, blue, sky. Everything seemed perfect in this world. Kagome plopped down in the soft grass, enjoying the breeze that swept over them. Sesshoumaru decided to lay down too, seeing as it would look strange for him to stand up, looking like an idiot.
They had stayed like that for an hour, just talking, staring at the wide open sky. Things seemed so peaceful. Kagome sighed happily, and closed her eyes.
"I love you, Sesshoumaru."
End Dream Sequence
Sesshoumaru jolted up, after remembering the dream he had had. Kagome and him...together in a meadow. Although that was downright unusual, the part with her saying she loved him, puzzled him the most. Why would he dream about that? It's not like he even cared for her. At least, he wanted to think that.
He sighed, and got up, deciding to take a walk. Walks could usually clear one's mind. Yet, his mind seemed so jumbled up, he didn't know what to do. He sat down near a stream that flowed through the forest. Closing his eyes, he took a deep breath, and tried to clear his mind. Something, or rather, someone interrupted him.
"What are you doing all the way down here"
Sesshoumaru didn't even turn around. Just gave a 'hn', and tried to resume what he was doing earlier.
"I know you can talk more than that. It's because you hate me, right" Sesshoumaru opened his eyes, feeling just a little sorry for the girl. He had to admit, Kagome had done nothing wrong to make him hate her. Just by the fact that she was a human bothered him. But, he could overlook that, couldn't he?
"I do not hate you." He could just tell that Kagome rolled her eyes. "Don't tell me that. I know it's not the truth." Sesshoumaru turned around and got up. "Believe what you want to." Walking past her, Kagome swore she heard him say 'It's impossible to not like you.' She felt a warm feeling inside her, knowing that Sesshoumaru actually tolerated her.
She smiled to herself, and ran quickly to catch up with him.
"Sesshoumaru" He turned around, his golden eyes glowing. Giving a questioning glance, Kagome smiled.
"I'm glad."
With that said, Kagome walked away, heading towards the camp.
Sesshoumaru inwardly smiled.
'So she did hear it...'
AN:Okay, yeah I know, short chapter. But it's rare that I have enough time to work on chapters! So forgive me please! And thanks to people who do review!