Ana's hands were shaking as she fumbled for the small ring of keys that she had to dig deep into her jeans' pocket for. Her breath came out in tiny huffs, it was pitch black outside, the only light that she was able to see from was the thin harvest moon light that shinned down on the swamps and woods around the fenced in area of the base.
It took her fifteen minuets to find the missile silo through the dark tunnels underground, at first she was scared out of her mind, as her sneakers crunched on the gravel and pebbles that were laid out on the damp cold ground each time she ran past a conner.
Bats flew over her head, and the low stiff groan of zombies were all around her, only twice did she see that close enough to be scared, but she didn't have time to worry or fight, she had to get out of there, as soon as possible.
Once she did so, she found the silo, she started up the ladder, and a small feeling of hope filled her heart, the same feeling she got when the whole group was escaping the mall. Fate had placed her here...and maybe even tried to let her start over and be happy, but she couldn't pretend she could move on with a new guy and a new child and just brush off the fact that her five year old son could still somewhere be alive out there looking for her.
It was hard to leave everyone, over the past couple of months she had grown all so close to them, but she could remember one rainy gray day that her and John were able to sneak up top while the rest of the men were all in a meeting.
Each time they had this chance, John would practice with her, on how to fly the chopper. At first Ana was uneasy about it...really questioning herself on if she could really do this, but John was her rock and stayed by her side the whole time. Somehow Ana felt close with John, something about the way he looked at things made her feel better.
She was in the middle of circling around the base with John, when he turned to her and asked a question, that threw her off guard.
"What about the baby?" Ana looked at him and raised an eyebrow.
"What?"
"The baby, Rhodes'."
This was hard, in fact John and Dr. Logan were the only people that knew about it...and with all this planning to return to her first son, she hadn't even took a second to think about the one she was carrying. She cared about Rhodes, he treated her good and she seemed to be the only one that made him smile and keep him from falling into that deep abyss full of pain and hate. But did she love Rhodes...no, to her she was only sleeping with him, in fact she didn't even know why she took the ring from him, it somehow wasn't the same as it was with Michael...the man who had been dead over five years.
She didn't want this child.
She looked at John, a sad tried look spread over her face as she shifted and the chopper lowered a little...in just a matter of weeks she had started to get the hang of this right away.
"I don't want another baby, I had mine."
"Then are you gonna get rid of it?"
"When could I?" "I mean...look, we have to sneak around as it is just to go up top...even if we got Sara or Fisher, or even Logan to do it, Rhodes would find out, It would take weeks to recover, and I don't have weeks."
"Then what are you gonna do?"
Sara looked forward as they flew around the base again.
"I don't know yet...but I shouldn't have a child that I won't love, right?"
John nodded.
"Do you think this is all a mistake, I mean...all of you have been such good friends to me, Rhodes loves me, and I'm gonna have his child, isn't this showing me all the signs to stay?"
"But you don't want to...and you would live in regret the rest of your life, anyways Ana girl...I think you smart for leaving, somehow I don't see this thing lasting to much longer, as you know were all ready about to kill each other."
"You could come with me?" Ana said with a hopeful look.
John smiled
"There is nothing I would like better...to escape to that island you have been talking about, being able to make babies, lay in the sun all day, and watch it set sitting on the beach, never having to look over your shoulders, knowing that it was over for good."
"Then?"
"I need to stay for Sara daddy, like you she's still blind to the fact of her own heart...she'll come around soon enough, and when she does, we're all gonna find that island and live the rest of your life in peace."
Ana smiled
"That sounds nice." Ana said with a warm smile as she now started to lower to chopper for good.
"And when it's over...you can find your son's daddy, I'm sure you have been waiting for that for some time."
Ana smiled and then killed the engine, she looked at John.
"More then you know."
John then looked at the rain drops hitting the windshield, and told her, that one day...it would be raining on their island.
Just then Sara unlocked the gate, and closed it behind her, she then took a deep breath and started to run to the second chopper.
She opened the door and threw her bag to the side seat, then started the engine, and started to slowly rise up.
Before going out into the unknown darkness, she took once last look at the base, and said how sorry she was, and then flew off into the night.