Chapter 11

Emma opened her eyes surprised to find herself in her own bed in her appartment. Sitting up she carefully slipped out of bed and made her way out of the bedroom. Looking in the living room there was no sign of anyone. Walking into the kitchen she was relieved to see Shalimar.

"Hey. How you feeling?" The feral asked upon seeing the redhead walk in.

"Okay I guess. What happened?" The psionic asked. The last thing she remembered was trying to grip onto the wall after using her powers.

"Well after you went all black-eyed-beauty on us you passed out so we brought you home. Jesse and Bren left a few hours ago."

"Oh." Emma said sitting down.

"So I guess your powers really developed in the year that we spent apart. Those guys couldn't even remember their own names." Shalimar said sitting down next to Emma.

Emma turned her gaze away from Shalimar for a few second then looked back up at her, "I could easily lie and say yes but no. I knew that I had this kind of power before all of this; before Adam's death, before mutant x split up, I knew."

Shalimar stood back quickly, clearly shocked and hurt. Emma flinched at hearing the harsh tone of her voice, "You knew and you never told us."

"I'm sorry. It scared the shit out of me and I just wanted to ingnore it." Emma said. She reached out for Shalimar's hand but the blonde pulled back.

"You lied to me Emma. Why didn't you come to us we could have helped you." Shalimar shouted.

"I didn't lie I just never told you. And I couldn't even accept that I had this kind of power. How was I suppost to let you accept it if I didn't." Emma said, tears in her eyes.

"You should have trusted us. We could have help you through it. I could have helped you." Shalimar said still angry.

"And when was I supposed to tell you huh? While you were busy flirting with Brennan or when you were trying to kill me?" Emma shot back and regreted it instantly.

Shalimar stepped back, her face looking even more hurt. "Don't you dare try to turn this around and blame it on me." She said firmly before trying to walk past Emma and out of the kitchen.

Emma grabbed her arm, "Shal, i'm sorry I didn't mean that. Please can we forget I said that." She pleaded, the tears now rolling down her face.

Shalimar shrugged Emma's arm off her and turned to face her. "It doesn't matter Emma. You didn't trust me and we weren't even together then. How am I supoosed to trust you now?" The feral said softly. It was killing her just thinking the words, how she was managing to say them she had no idea.

"Shalimar, please, before you make any decisions, just please let me explain."

Shalimar hesitated for a moment before agreeing. Making their way over to the couch they both sat down.

"The main reason of why I never told you was I was so scared. I thought that you guys would think I was getting too powerful and make me leave mutant x. It wasn't that I didn't trust you Shalimar, I was...I am so scared of what I am capable of." Emma said truthfully, fresh tears now streaming their way down her face.

Shalimar couldn't take it any longer, she moved forward and pulled Emma into a comforting embrace. She knew now that it wasn't her that Emma didn't trust, it was herself. She could feel Emma's grip tighten instantly, her body shaking as the sobs shook her.

Once the sobs turned into gasps for breath Shalimar pulled back. She cupped Emma's face and wiped the remaining tears from her face. Emma's eyes were red and puffy and Shalimar could tell that she was tired. Leading her to the bedroom she pulled the covers back and helped Emma in before lying down next to her.

Emma lifted her head slightly to look at Shalimar, "Im so sorry." She said quietly her voice still trembling.

Shalimar shook her head then leaned in to kiss her lovingly, "It's okay we'll get through this."

Emma put her head back down and smiled at the words.