Beyond Recollection ~ A Sonny & Skye FanFiction
Chapter Seven ~ To Belong
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She had thanked him.
Why-he didn't know. He was the one that should be thanking her. Waking to a world he did not know or understand she has been the only consistent these days. For the past few days she had not left his side, with one exception. He didn't know the Skye that was now sleeping beside him, but he didn't want to let her go.
The events that had occurred over the last year and a half came to him as he slept. Images and words mixed together and blurred in his dreams. Places and emotions lost when he awakes. Stolen from his memory just like so many other things from his past.
A mother, Lily, his unborn children.
All of them have been stolen before their time was finished, stolen from him.
Looking down at the woman asleep beside him a growing pain spreads around his heart. Blinded by the image of a man he no longer can be, she stays by him. Faithful to what they had once shared. Devoted to the Sonny she has shared her life with. Loyal to the love she feels for him, the love he witnesses every time he looks into her eyes.
She loves him. She is honest, faithful, devoted and loyal. Isn't that everything he had always hoped for? Why has it come now with such a high price? Why has this punishment been placed on his shoulders?
Engulfed by the sadness of his thoughts he pulls her body closer, thinking of the love he wished he felt for her.
"What's wrong?" she asked turning her heavy eyes to his. The pull they created draining Sonny of his breath.
"How-why do you think something is wrong?" he asked cherishing the warmth her breath created against his chest.
"I just know. It's hard to explain I guess," she replied taking his hand and intertwining it with her own. "What's wrong, Sonny?"
"I've caused you a lot of pain, haven't I?" he asked, eyes burning with guilt and remorse.
"Do I look like I'm in pain, Sonny?" she spoke with gentle a smile. "You haven't caused me any pain, you never could."
"What about all the things I've said to you in the past? What about this whole situation?"
"Sonny, please stop being so hard on yourself. The way you do this to yourself is what is painful for me. It's so hard to look into your eyes and see the war waging inside of you. Don't be worried about me. You could never hurt me."
"How can you be so faithful to a man like me?" His eyes bore into her own as a warm tear trailed his cheek.
"Because I love you," she spoke softly. "I know you can't remember but maybe knowing that will help you. Maybe it will help you find your way back to me."
The knot in the pit of his stomach lurched at her confession. She spoke her feelings with a strength that weakened his heart. She loved him. He only wished he could give her something in return.
"Skye," he paused unsure of how so ask.
"Hmm," she seemed to purr giving a small squeeze to their enjoined hands.
"Do you want to kiss me?" His eyes lowered as she took in his question. The wait for her reply seeming like eternity.
"No."
"Oh-," his voice choking with defeat. He looked away from her quickly, contemplating moving away from her altogether. She didn't want him, her words actions had just been those of pity.
"I want 'you' to kiss me," her calm voice interrupting his thoughts. He looked at her then, his eyes meeting the soft smile that was slowly drawing him towards her lips. He moved deliberately slow, giving Skye the chance to change her mind and pull back but also giving him the time to comprehend reality.
His hand on her lower back rubbing gently - reality
Her body leaning into his - reality
And the lips now pressed against his own - reality
It was all real and it was heaven.
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Skye was in pure bliss with Sonny's lips against her own. She'd been longing for this for what seemed like an eternity. Never would she have imagined that he would be kissing her this soon. She had been expecting a long and painful reformation of their relationship.
Soft moans of pleasure escaped from deep within her throat, building Sonny's courage to be more confident with his actions. Slowly he went from kissing her gently to running his tongue across her bottom lip, asking permission. Skye didn't hesitate to open her mouth to the warmth of his tongue and the sensation it created dancing with her own.
Convinced that she still wasn't close enough, Sonny grasped onto her thigh pulling her up against his own body. His hands ran trails across her thighs and back and she moaned her delight. His mouth now began to explore her neck as she moved to straddle his uninjured leg. Her neck was her weakness and slowly she began to lightly thrust her hips, causing a groan from Sonny.
Breathless he pulled his lips from her, cradling her face in his palms. They lay still for some moments, just staring into the others eyes before he began placing a few soft kisses on her mouth. Not wanting to move ahead to quickly he pulled her head against his chest, wrapping his arms around her and she did likewise.
"That's a pretty sharp necklace you got on," he joked after a few minutes of silence, pretending to be injured. "It stabbed me."
"You big baby," Skye teased averting her eyes from his own. Not wanting him to see the ring yet, she slowly began to sit up, trying to put distance between them.
"Where are you going?" Sonny asked sounding almost worried.
"Nowhere," she assured with a smile, placing a quick kiss to his mouth. "You just reminded me of something I wanted to give you?" she finished rising from the bed. Sonny watched, with a smile, as she padded barefoot across the floor to the small bag she had brought the day before. Retrieving something from its pockets she turned towards him with her hands behind her back.
"What have you got there?" Sonny asked with a grin, dimples full blown. "A present?"
She laughed at his childish expression. "Yes," she spoke as she came to kneel beside him on the bed. "Open your hand and close your eyes," she commanded with a glow in her eyes.
Sonny immediately obeyed and after a moment he felt her place, what he thought was a chain, into his hand. She closed his fingers around it, letting him feel the cool metal and the hard edges of a charm or pendant. Something was familiar-very familiar about what he held.
"Open your eyes, Sonny."
A choked sob filled the room as he looked to the object he held. Skye watched as Sonny stared motionless at the cross she that had placed in his hand. She felt almost blessed to witness his heartfelt reaction twice in one lifetime. Like the first time, tears began to form and then fall down his face.
"H-how?" was all Sonny could manage as he looked up to her, tears continuing to fall.
"You described it perfectly in your stories of your mother," she began as she moved closer to him. "I just started my search with that. I went to a local jeweler and had him sketch it out, using your description exactly. Finding the store took the most amount of time but after that," she trailed off with a small shrug.
Leaning forward she brushed away Sonny's remaining tears and placed a soft kiss on his forehead. She then lifted his hand and slowly took the necklace from it, unclasping it and placing it around his neck letting it fall against his chest.
"It belongs here," she spoke softly running her fingers over the cross. "With you." Before she backed away this time he stopped her. Bringing his hands to rest on her face he kissed her slowly.
"So do you," he spoke voice thick with emotion. "You belong here, with me." **
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~ TBC ~
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** A/N ~ yeah sorry for the wait - I have exams this week and then I start my summer job. Oh goody! But I already got some ideas for the next chapter- so hopefully it won't be that long until I update. Get ready from some Jasper Jacks & to find out what happened to AJ!
Chapter Seven ~ To Belong
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She had thanked him.
Why-he didn't know. He was the one that should be thanking her. Waking to a world he did not know or understand she has been the only consistent these days. For the past few days she had not left his side, with one exception. He didn't know the Skye that was now sleeping beside him, but he didn't want to let her go.
The events that had occurred over the last year and a half came to him as he slept. Images and words mixed together and blurred in his dreams. Places and emotions lost when he awakes. Stolen from his memory just like so many other things from his past.
A mother, Lily, his unborn children.
All of them have been stolen before their time was finished, stolen from him.
Looking down at the woman asleep beside him a growing pain spreads around his heart. Blinded by the image of a man he no longer can be, she stays by him. Faithful to what they had once shared. Devoted to the Sonny she has shared her life with. Loyal to the love she feels for him, the love he witnesses every time he looks into her eyes.
She loves him. She is honest, faithful, devoted and loyal. Isn't that everything he had always hoped for? Why has it come now with such a high price? Why has this punishment been placed on his shoulders?
Engulfed by the sadness of his thoughts he pulls her body closer, thinking of the love he wished he felt for her.
"What's wrong?" she asked turning her heavy eyes to his. The pull they created draining Sonny of his breath.
"How-why do you think something is wrong?" he asked cherishing the warmth her breath created against his chest.
"I just know. It's hard to explain I guess," she replied taking his hand and intertwining it with her own. "What's wrong, Sonny?"
"I've caused you a lot of pain, haven't I?" he asked, eyes burning with guilt and remorse.
"Do I look like I'm in pain, Sonny?" she spoke with gentle a smile. "You haven't caused me any pain, you never could."
"What about all the things I've said to you in the past? What about this whole situation?"
"Sonny, please stop being so hard on yourself. The way you do this to yourself is what is painful for me. It's so hard to look into your eyes and see the war waging inside of you. Don't be worried about me. You could never hurt me."
"How can you be so faithful to a man like me?" His eyes bore into her own as a warm tear trailed his cheek.
"Because I love you," she spoke softly. "I know you can't remember but maybe knowing that will help you. Maybe it will help you find your way back to me."
The knot in the pit of his stomach lurched at her confession. She spoke her feelings with a strength that weakened his heart. She loved him. He only wished he could give her something in return.
"Skye," he paused unsure of how so ask.
"Hmm," she seemed to purr giving a small squeeze to their enjoined hands.
"Do you want to kiss me?" His eyes lowered as she took in his question. The wait for her reply seeming like eternity.
"No."
"Oh-," his voice choking with defeat. He looked away from her quickly, contemplating moving away from her altogether. She didn't want him, her words actions had just been those of pity.
"I want 'you' to kiss me," her calm voice interrupting his thoughts. He looked at her then, his eyes meeting the soft smile that was slowly drawing him towards her lips. He moved deliberately slow, giving Skye the chance to change her mind and pull back but also giving him the time to comprehend reality.
His hand on her lower back rubbing gently - reality
Her body leaning into his - reality
And the lips now pressed against his own - reality
It was all real and it was heaven.
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Skye was in pure bliss with Sonny's lips against her own. She'd been longing for this for what seemed like an eternity. Never would she have imagined that he would be kissing her this soon. She had been expecting a long and painful reformation of their relationship.
Soft moans of pleasure escaped from deep within her throat, building Sonny's courage to be more confident with his actions. Slowly he went from kissing her gently to running his tongue across her bottom lip, asking permission. Skye didn't hesitate to open her mouth to the warmth of his tongue and the sensation it created dancing with her own.
Convinced that she still wasn't close enough, Sonny grasped onto her thigh pulling her up against his own body. His hands ran trails across her thighs and back and she moaned her delight. His mouth now began to explore her neck as she moved to straddle his uninjured leg. Her neck was her weakness and slowly she began to lightly thrust her hips, causing a groan from Sonny.
Breathless he pulled his lips from her, cradling her face in his palms. They lay still for some moments, just staring into the others eyes before he began placing a few soft kisses on her mouth. Not wanting to move ahead to quickly he pulled her head against his chest, wrapping his arms around her and she did likewise.
"That's a pretty sharp necklace you got on," he joked after a few minutes of silence, pretending to be injured. "It stabbed me."
"You big baby," Skye teased averting her eyes from his own. Not wanting him to see the ring yet, she slowly began to sit up, trying to put distance between them.
"Where are you going?" Sonny asked sounding almost worried.
"Nowhere," she assured with a smile, placing a quick kiss to his mouth. "You just reminded me of something I wanted to give you?" she finished rising from the bed. Sonny watched, with a smile, as she padded barefoot across the floor to the small bag she had brought the day before. Retrieving something from its pockets she turned towards him with her hands behind her back.
"What have you got there?" Sonny asked with a grin, dimples full blown. "A present?"
She laughed at his childish expression. "Yes," she spoke as she came to kneel beside him on the bed. "Open your hand and close your eyes," she commanded with a glow in her eyes.
Sonny immediately obeyed and after a moment he felt her place, what he thought was a chain, into his hand. She closed his fingers around it, letting him feel the cool metal and the hard edges of a charm or pendant. Something was familiar-very familiar about what he held.
"Open your eyes, Sonny."
A choked sob filled the room as he looked to the object he held. Skye watched as Sonny stared motionless at the cross she that had placed in his hand. She felt almost blessed to witness his heartfelt reaction twice in one lifetime. Like the first time, tears began to form and then fall down his face.
"H-how?" was all Sonny could manage as he looked up to her, tears continuing to fall.
"You described it perfectly in your stories of your mother," she began as she moved closer to him. "I just started my search with that. I went to a local jeweler and had him sketch it out, using your description exactly. Finding the store took the most amount of time but after that," she trailed off with a small shrug.
Leaning forward she brushed away Sonny's remaining tears and placed a soft kiss on his forehead. She then lifted his hand and slowly took the necklace from it, unclasping it and placing it around his neck letting it fall against his chest.
"It belongs here," she spoke softly running her fingers over the cross. "With you." Before she backed away this time he stopped her. Bringing his hands to rest on her face he kissed her slowly.
"So do you," he spoke voice thick with emotion. "You belong here, with me." **
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~ TBC ~
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** A/N ~ yeah sorry for the wait - I have exams this week and then I start my summer job. Oh goody! But I already got some ideas for the next chapter- so hopefully it won't be that long until I update. Get ready from some Jasper Jacks & to find out what happened to AJ!