Disclaimer: I make no claim to any of the HP characters.

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Chapter 21 – Shame

I don't think Sirius ever really forgave me for inventing that method of punishment because believe me, that wasn't the only time I was forced to us it! Can't say I found it much fun either.

Oh Harry do stop wincing in the corner, it's sex, not a disease.

...Cara's laughing now.

Anyway, our fifth year was now over basically which is when Sirius's family seemed to have reached impossible levels of arrogance. Slowly they were laying the boundaries to the reason for my mate's swift exit out of their lives.

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(1976)

"Crank it up Patil for Merlin's sake! This is a Gryffindor party not a menopausal woman's meeting!" Sirius bellowed over to the Indian boy crouched by the Wizard wireless in the Gryffindor Common room.

Several people laughed as the third year chuckled and waved his hand in a dismissive manner at the tall fifth year student. The volume became louder and several people moved to carry the coffee table in the centre of the room away to one side to create a dance floor.

"Better!" Sirius said winking at the self-appointed DJ of the night as several Gryffindor's stood and started moving to the lively music filtering into the room.

If there was one thing Gryffindor's did best, it was throwing the –best- parties.

James sat on the arm of the chair that a guy, Frank Longbottom, was sat in and laughed at something the boy said.

Peter was pouring himself another drink that someone had conjured up as a girl nattered animatedly with him.

Sirius had his fingers laced with Remus's as they swayed lively on the make- shift dance floor, both laughing as every now and again Sirius twirled Remus making the werewolf laugh.

Girls danced in groups, singing loudly together as they whisked willing boys up every now and again to dance with them.

"Black! Dance with me!" Some attractive blonde haired girl called across the room and still smiling Sirius shook his head.

"Already got my partner for the night!" He called back before he twirled the giggling Remus again, much to the girl's amusement.

"Well don't hog him to yourself, let us have a go!" She called and Remus gave a sharp embarrassed laugh.

The night continued like that, happy banter between the students, laughter and generally an overall good feeling as everyone celebrated the end of terms and exams.

After another half an hour's dancing Remus and Sirius collapsed on the sofa, Sirius purposely squashing Lily Evans who squeaked as she was sat on.

"Gerrof you great lummox!" She said with a laugh and smirking Sirius rolled over to sit in Remus's lap.

"Bloody Blacks." She said with a swift slap to the animagi's arm.

James made his way over which made the atmosphere turn that little bit colder as Lily suddenly became a little serious. She still hadn't forgiven him for what he had done to Snape.

"Evans." James said with a hint of nervousness in his voice.

"Potter." She replied curtly as the Sirius and Remus looked between them both.

"Can I...?" James indicated a space next to Remus on his other side and it was this that drew the tiniest smirk from Lily.

"I'm not stopping you from sitting with your friends just because I'm on the sofa Potter." She said and the atmosphere seemed to heat up again...just a little.

With a grin James flew into the space beside Remus making the sofa bounce a little much to Sirius's pleasure.

"Ooh, do that again, I'm in just the right spot." He said from his place in Remus's lap and everyone on the couch gave a gasp of shock at such a comment before the laughing animagi received three separate slaps on various body parts.

"Just saying." He said happily.

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Sirius stared solemnly out of the carriage window of the Hogwarts Express as it rocked lightly on its way back to Platform nine and three quarters. Remus held one of his hands in his own where he soothingly rubbed a thumb over the taut knuckles of his subdued lover.

"Listen, Padfoot mate, I can try and see if you can come round over the holidays at some point. Don't worry." Said James leaning forward to grasp his best friend's shoulder in a brotherly manner.

The smallest smile pulled at Sirius's lips.

"Thanks." He said quietly and returned the grasp with his free hand.

"I'll even ask if Remus can stay for bonus points." James teased with a wink at the werewolf who laughed before lightly swatting at his messy- haired friend.

The rest of the journey was spent like this, trying to make Sirius feel better at the thought of returning home to Grimmauld Place.

Finally, the much-dreaded end of the track arrived and slowly, reluctantly, the Marauders stood to retrieve their cases.

Walking off the train the three other Marauders seemed to form a protective shield around Sirius, Remus to his left James his right and Peter flanking at the back slightly. Sirius could feel all his good feelings leaving his body as though a Dementor was around until finally he spotted the harsh looking family at the back.

"Right." He said quietly and with a final squeeze of Remus's hand he turned to place a brief chaste kiss on his boyfriend's lips then turned to hug his best mate.

"See you both soon if I'm not disembowelled before then." He said lightly joking but Remus seemed pained.

"Please don't say things like that." He whispered as he gave Sirius a final hug.

"Sorry, Love you."

Breathing in he turned back to find the restrained anger in his mother's face. Holding his chin high he proudly made his way towards the Black family.

"Mother, Father." He said curtly as they both glared at him.

"We'll discuss this at home." His mother said dangerously calm until she finally caught sight of Regulus who came up a few minutes later. She grasped the younger boys shoulder in an almost loving manner...almost.

"Regulus, we received a letter about your performance in class this year, I must say it's nice to see we've raised one of you right."

Sirius resisted the urge to roll his eyes as with a final glare his father led them out towards the large Black car outside in the parking lot with a smartly dressed driver behind the wheel.

"In." His mother said sharply and both boys climbed into the back without question. The senior Blacks moved to sit more up at the front.

A black screen separated the boys from their parents, which left them quite alone in the back. Their mother had never felt the need to talk to them in the car and so privacy windows seemed appropriate.

"I told you she'd be upset." Regulus said calmly and Sirius pointedly stared out the window leaning his chin in his palm.

"She's going to bring all hell down upon you Sirius, why put yourself in such a situation?" Regulus said frustrated but still Sirius ignored him.

"Fine, be childish but don't say I didn't warn you."

"Ok," Sirius said in a bored voice, "I won't."

"Sirius! For Merlin's sake don't you understand? This is worse then any ridiculous prank you and your idiotic friends pull! She's going to have your hide!" Regulus said suddenly in a low hiss causing Sirius to turn to him sharply.

"Why do you care anyway? You're the favourite son now, what've you got to lose?" He hissed back but Regulus didn't answer and instead settled for turning his gaze to the window with a slight shake of his head.

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"You...You..." Mrs Black still stuttered on the words angrily as Sirius stood in the kitchen, hands clasped together behind his back his head held high and a set look on his face...the typical stance either boy was to take when being punished.

"How dare you defy me!" She managed to growl out as she looked down upon her eldest son. Sirius remained silent...he knew that she didn't want the question answered, merely needed to state it.

"I brought you into this world, I raised you, clothed you and this is how you –repay- me! Fraternising with some, some..."

"Half blood." Sirius quipped suddenly letting his sharp blue eyes meet his mothers dark uncaring ones. Her face whitened as her anger grew once more.

"SILENCE! When I am talking you will –listen-!"

He snapped his jaw shut once more and averted his gaze once more back to the wall behind her.

"Half-blood, male and –poor-! What are you trying to prove Sirius?" She hissed as she began to pace like a caged animal.

"If anyone heard of this then the Black family name would be dragged through the dirt and it will be entirely –your- fault."

/"Good."/ Sirius thought bitterly but kept his mouth shut.

"You will finish this, this –thing- between you two and you will marry a pure-blood –witch-!" She barked and finally Sirius let his gaze settle back on hers, face just as white as hers.

"No." He said clearly and Mrs Black's nostrils flared angrily.

"-What- did you say?" She said dangerously and Sirius answered her in the same tone.

"I will –not- break up with him."

"If you wish to remain in this house you will." She barked back and Sirius unclasped his hands to clench them into fists either side of him.

"You don't control me, I love him and nothing you do will change that!" He said back just as angrily.

"You may have Regulus on a leash but I won't allow you to control me!"

It happened so fast he never had time to brace himself.

His mother's hand connected sharply with his cheek, the slap throwing him off and knocking him into the table. His cheek throbbed but still he held a hard gaze on his mother.

"How –dare- you!" She said angrily raising her hand again but this time Sirius blocked it, shoving it away viciously.

"I dare!" He said back lowly and again she quickly slapped his still stinging cheek.

"YOU'RE AN ABOMINATION TO THIS FAMILY! I'M ASHAMED YOU CARRY THE NAME BLACK!"

"I'M ASHAMED I CAME OUT OF YOUR FILTHY BODY!"

Mrs Black picked up a milk jug and threw it, Sirius managing to duck just in time causing it to smash loudly against the wall behind him.

"GET OUT!" She screamed as Sirius manovered his way around her, glaring at her the whole time.

"GLADLY!"

He slammed the kitchen door behind him loudly, cheek now red as he charged up the stairs to his bedroom. He slammed that shut behind him too and began harshly gathering his most important stuff (which wasn't a lot) into his unpacked School trunk.

When everything of significance was gathered he crashed his way down the stairs, trunk banging as it hit each step behind him to finally he lurched forwards and pulled the door open as he stepped out of Grimmauld Place into the still sunny street.

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"James get the door will you?" Sarah Potter said from the kitchen as James pulled himself up off the sofa and still munching on his biscuit pulled the door open.

He blanched at the site before him.

Sirius stood there breathing harshly like he had just run a marathon, clothes askew and a small red bruise forming on his cheek. His trunk was at his feet and had gathered a lot of dirt after being dragged for miles.

They both stood in silence until finally Sirius's face screwed up in pain and he sobbed. James stepped forewords and embraced his friend tightly.

"You're staying here." He said simply.

(TBC)

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AN:

Thanks to:

Sidhelady: Oh sorry, I didn't explain that bit very well, James and Peter left the room when Remus was giving Sirius the silent treatment.

Legolas19: Ah the days of homework, thank god I'm freeeeeeeee!

Avain: Lmao, oops sorry! Hmm death by lack of sex, it could happen (giggle giggle snort). And tell me about it man, I love that film despite a small number of people who hated the movie. And I will defend David Thewlis with my life, he may not be how I pictured Lupin but I've always loved him as an actor!

Marauder: Oh thank you so much, what lovely comments. And I agree, you just get this...this –vibe- between Remus and Sirius don't you lol! Maybe JK is sitting at home reading a bunch of these stories and thinking 'Bugger, that was never intentional' lol! The third wheel thing is –so- annoying man, I've had it done to me and you're trying not to wince at the sloppy smacking noises as they make out, yugh!

Akuma Malick: Lmao, again, I don't think they were intended but if you're looking for slashy moments then you will pick up on them.

Tigris-lex: (bows head in shame) I'm sorry, I was just so tired after work that that was all I could manage. But I've got the whole day off today so we're good lol!

Obviously oblivious: Lol, ah happy places are good!

Adhara1: Aye, naughty Sirius. When I read that chapter in OotP I felt bad because I was thinking 'James, what a git' and I don't want to think of my precious Marauders like that (pouts).

Passionflower: Lmao sorry, I've been a very busy girl with maths re-sits (screams at the 'M' word)!

Firesong-05: Ah blessed be! You're a breath of fresh air; the amount of wannabe Wicca's you see is enough to drive you insane. I had this one girl in school who said she was a witch and that they drank one another's blood at a group meeting, vampire style...WTF! After that everyone thought that was what Wiccans were until they'd spot my pentacle and go 'but she's not so weird' so I'd try my best to fix the damage wannawitch caused. Grr lol. But you appear genuine so 'YAH' finally! Merry Meet, Merry Part and Merry Meet again!

Yaoi-is-gay-13: Lmao, bad dog, must be punished!

Happo: LMAO you are a very much adored loony my dear!

Shinosu: I know what you mean, I just wanted to write them so that it –could've- been possible even if JK never intended it to happen.

Mira Black: (waves at Prongs and Snivellious) allo! Lmao, as for you your story is very good; I liked it very mucha!

Arigazi: Lmao, glad you liked it!

Super yam: No way is this the end LMAO! And no no, I don't mind. I don't mind if people don't review but I just like to know if people are enjoying the ride. But please, don't feel guilty, more often or not we've all been guilty of not reviewing. As for the Siri/Rem fics, I'll look into it. I'm planning an AU so that both the R/S shippers are happy as well as my Harry/Cara shippers!

Amari Sfalas: Lmao, sure why not. Glad I could give you something to do other a few days lol!

Aphrodite's dragon: Aye, you'll find 'Little Wolf' is the worst for grammar (and –one- day I will go fix that lol) but other then that I'm happy as to how this is turning out. As for your comment, you flatter me (blushes).

Elvencherry07: Lmao, because that's how Sod's law works.

Angelcrawler: oh believe me, that's how I started. Next you'll be checking out the Azkaban's Lair sit for Siri/Rem stories LMAO!