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Chapter 41 – Heartache
The entire trip, by Portkey may I add, was like an eternity to me. Was my father ok, would he be sitting up and would he smile when I came through the door?
Sirius stayed beside me, keeping his promise and coming with me to my father's said once again. So afraid was I of my father's condition.
It was when I arrived that I discovered my life would ultimately be changed, an unforgiving curse that haunts me and that for me the War was finally very real.
I could no longer hide from the facts any longer.
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(1976)
The Portkey once again threw both teenaged boys into the strange carpark style entrance to St Mungo's Hospital and they both broke into run towards the entrance doors.
They whistled past the receptionist to the elevators where they slammed in the button for their required floor before the doors slipped shut with a resounding ring. Their breath was slightly laboured, painful almost to breathe in as it tingled the nerves in their teeth with shooting stings.
Remus, still panting lightly, looked over at Sirius who to was trying to catch his breath as he stared ahead at the doors. Feeling the weight of the werewolf's eyes on him the animagus turned and looked at his boyfriend before holding a hand out to him.
Remus took it and Sirius pulled him into a tight hug before the door slid open once more. With one last shared look they stepped out and into the waiting room. They walked slowly down the hall after pushing past a pair of swing doors until they finally stopped outside Remus's father's room.
Sirius raised a hand to knock lightly.
They waited a few moments and then the doors opened to reveal a teary eyed Brigit Lupin. Both Lupins looked at one another before hugging tightly.
Remus then pulled away from his mother and looked into the room where he found his father propped up slightly against white pillows. Instantly he rushed over to the man and was engulfed in a tight embrace, trying to ignore the various tubes sticking out of his father's arms.
"Hello son." Ethan croaked out as he stroked the boy's hair, hugging him tighter when he felt his son tremble with surpressed emotion.
"Daddy." Remus muttered as he returned the tightening hold on the man he'd thought he had lost.
Sirius watched on silently as Mrs Lupin moved to the two men, going to Ethan's free side and then too being pulled into the tight hug, the family now spoke tearfully to one another as they whispered greetings.
Smiling gently he backed out of the door and pulled it quietly shut behind him.
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Remus pulled back and wiped any tears from his face with his shirtsleeve, chuckling and feeling a little embarrassed at his little break down. Ethan smiled at him with glassy eyes as he ran a hand through his son's hair again, just looking at him before pulling him back into a hug as Remus laughed lightly.
Brigit reached two hands up to her face to cup around her mouth as more tears leaked out of her eyes. She didn't want to tell her son what they had to tell him, she didn't want to take away the smile on his face.
Ethan closed his eyes tightly as he held his only child to his chest. He rocked him softly like he would a young toddler, as he let his fingers trace through his son's hair, so like his mothers.
Remus felt a tension in the air and he pulled away slightly to look at the older man then at his mother. Both seemed to be crying and his father was holding him like they had been reunited after many years apart.
"Mum, Dad...what's going on?" He asked slowly and Brigit sobbed as she moved to sit on the bed with them, her hand reaching up to tuck his hair behind his ears. Ethan took one of Remus's hands in his own and squeezed it tightly.
"Remus, how much were you told?" Ethan said, his voice scratchy from tears.
Quickly the happiness that Remus felt was deteriorating and he felt an awful anxiety twist up his stomach.
"Only that you were awake." He said quietly, as though if he spoke loudly that this would be a dream and he would wake up.
Ethan rubbed a hand down his face as he looked at his son again, reaching up to brush his thumb over the boy's cheek and he smiled sadly at him.
"So they did not tell you what the Healers told us?" He asked and slowly Remus shook his head, looking at his silent mother then back at his father.
His father took in a deep shaky breath, his hand that gripped Remus's now shaking as he looked at the boy once more with a pain in his eyes.
"Remus...the spell I was hit with caused more damage then the Healers thought..."
The werewolf could feel his body numbing already and he instinctively crawled closer to his father as the man continued.
"...Although it didn't out right kill me it did...leave after affects...It's hard to explain and I'm not really good at pronouncing it the way Wizards do but there is a simpler name that muggles use."
Remus was shaking by now and he could hear his mother stifle terrible sobs as she leant against her husband's shoulder, an arm reaching out for her son.
"Dad?" Remus asked in a voice reminiscent to a frightened child.
"Remus...The spell messed up some thing in my body...They aren't sure how the spell works really but it creates an imperfection...
...Remus, I have a brain tumour."
The boy sat there unmoving as a cold liquid like feeling spread throughout his body. His lips felt cold and he blinked, as his eyes grew itchy with moisture. Then he slowly began to shake his head, his lips moving soundlessly before croaked emotion filled words left his mouth.
"No, no..." He said, his head shaking more rapidly which seemed to send his mother into more hysterics and his father reached out to pull him to him.
"No, no no no..." Remus's words turned into sobs as he shook violently, his body heaving as he let the grief tumble out and his mother began to cry again. He could feel his father's tears land on his cheek as both parents drew him in tighter to them.
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Sirius flipped through the magazine again, sighing when he found nothing in it and then put it one his lap closed where he began to tap an out of tune beat on it. He stopped only when an old man next to him coughed obviously as he scowled at the teenager.
He looked at the closed door of the room again before leaning back in his chair, leg crossed over it as he let it bounce in the air.
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Remus, still shaking and occasionally a sob leaving him, wiped his face with a trembling hand before looking at his father who had tear tracks lining his wise face. He reached up to cup his father's face as he beat down another wail of despair.
"Did," He swallowed to try and get rid of the scratchy feeling, "Did the Healers say how long..." He looked down again closing his eyes. He couldn't say the words and he didn't want to.
"Two years at the very most," Ethan said answering his unfinished question, "My health will probably begin to drop after a year or so."
Brigit sobbed again as she reached over to pull her son close to both parents again, her fingers stroking through his hair lovingly as his father cradled him to his chest.
"They expect I'll feel tired a lot for now and headaches are to be expected."
Remus's eyes clenched shut again as he bit back the tears and he wrapped an arm around his father's waist as he squeezed him tightly.
"Why?" He sobbed out and Ethan Lupin kissed the top of his head.
"Because not all Wizards are good little cub." He whispered and he pulled both of his most beloved people to rest their heads' on his shoulders.
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Sirius let his head drop back as he sighed once again, beginning to feel more then a little worried for the Lupins behind the door. He felt too rude to butt in on their reunion but he also felt insignificantly useless out here with no one but a rather grumpy old man as company.
He had just made the decision to go get a coffee when the door clicked open and opened with a slight whine of the hinges. He set a smile on his face but it quickly left when he saw the pained look on his boyfriend's face. He stood slowly as he walked over to the boy, who quietly clicked the door shut behind him, but not before Sirius caught a glimpse of Brigit and Ethan Lupin hugging as though they were about to be ripped apart.
"What's going on?" He whispered fearfully and Remus looked up at him with his amber eyes red from the tears that still slid out occasionally. Before Sirius knew what was happening Remus was curled up against his chest, his screwed up in intense emotional pain as he silently cried. Bewildered Sirius held him tightly and they both slowly drifted to the floor where the werewolf continued to cry.
Remus's arms held him strongly around his neck as he cried, the only sound coming from his silent mourning being when he sucked in a breath before crying silently again. Shaken and afraid Sirius rocked him, ignoring the startled faces of staff members and patients.
"Remus, Moony what's wrong?" He asked, his voice tripping as he found himself affected by his lover's state.
Remus shook his head as he continued to cry and Sirius found his chest tightening as some unexplainable grief began to take hold of him.
"Remus please!" He asked as his voice hitched and he continued to rock despite that he now had a misty vision from building tears.
"T-They killed h-him," Remus sobbed out as he hiccuped on the sentence, "It's a t-tumour."
Sirius closed his eyes as the words sunk in, hope leaving him as the drifting closing of his eyes cause a tear to slip down his cheek.
"H-He has T-Two years at the most." Remus continued as his chest began to hurt from the crying and laboured breathing.
"Oh Moony." Sirius whispered his voice lush with tears as he intensified the rocking and mourned with his mate.
They remained on the sterile cold floor of the hallway, Remus clutching to his lover as he let out all his grief and Sirius held him, never letting go as he silently soothed his lover. No one in the waiting room moved or spoke a word as they watched saddened as a boy no more then sixteen years old let in the fact that his father would never see him grow up.
And a respect for one's own family was felt in all their hearts.
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The boys had come back in about an hour before and Ethan sat awake that night as he held his sleeping wife and his sleeping son against him. Sirius had drifted off on the chair by the wall as he let the family have their precious moments together.
He brushed the hair off of his wife's forehead and kissed it lightly as he stroked the long tawny coloured hair. He remembered when he first met her, all those years back in University when she had been looking for the Literature classes, shyly asking him for directions and instead ended up in the cafeteria with him laughing as they sipped on cappuccinos.
He smiled with a very slightly shaking lower lip as he kissed her forehead again. She had and still was a free spirit, intelligent and kind...just like her son.
He looked then at his only child, his cursed son and brushed his thick hair lovingly. Remus looked so much like his mother, even if others did tell him that the boy looked like a smaller version of him. As far as he was considered Remus Lupin was as beautiful as his mother, inside and out.
He thought back on the day that the Healers had handed his baby son to him and the way he had gingerly held the boy close to him. A mop of light brown hair adorned his head and the baby had yawned with a tiny squeak as Ethan, nervous new father, laughed lightly as he leant over to kiss the baby's brow.
He remembered holding his terrified little boy after the werewolf had bitten him, rocking him as the boy cried at the pain that the wound inflicted upon him by the wolf seeped through his body reminiscent to the way poison does. How he himself had vowed to help his baby boy in any way that he could.
Finally he looked over at the sleeping teenager that had won his Remus's heart and he smiled at him gratefully even if the boy couldn't see it.
He knew that Sirius would protect his family like he himself would. Brigit had told him how the boy hadn't left Remus's side and how he had offered comfort to her also.
Yes, he thought as he let his eyes flicker shut in fatigue, Sirius Black was the one who would do the best job of looking after his family in his passing.
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AN: I have a really big urge to go hug my mum and dad now.
Thanks to:
Mirale nic Draco: Sorry, didn't mean to make it a cliffy, I didn't know how else to end it!
Legolas19: Lol Thanks!
Kynny: Wow what a lovely review, 'Enchant you with ever word', what a way to big up my ego lol! And if you're anything like me then this chapter was one of your fears when your mother fell ill.
Malfoyscutie: And again I say 'Thank you' lol!
Passionflower: Why do I have a gut feeling you may not forgive me for this (cringes). And as for the Letter questions (answered in order): Sent a letter to her, Last Week, Basically 'Thanks for writing and that she's working hard on book six'. Plus...ew at nosebleed deal, I could've lived without that lol!
Kittie Kat: Aye, some storied you just never want to end! Nice to see you like my humour and thanks on the J/L thing, it's nice to make them friends first! Ah don't worry if you haven't read my other fics yet, as long as you enjoy yourself I don't mind. I know what you mean though, My father had been hit by a lorry once but he didn't collapse there but actually stumbled home. He didn't even know he had this horrific head injury until he came through the door and my mum ran to get something to stop his face from bleeding. It was scary. And my mum too suffered a low iron count, it was terrifying to see such a strong woman suddenly just...ugh, I don't know, I hated it. But I'm glad you like the S/R moments.
White-Winged Sidhe: Mate, I suck at anything that involves numbers lol!
Avain: I have a feeling too that you may never forgive me! But I hope I got the emotions right in this, I did try to imagine what it must be like to hear that and so I guess that hopefully the scene above doesn't seem, I dunno, cheesy. Thanks for the hopes by the way, that was really nice. And tell me about it, half my friends (actually only one knows) that I write slash fiction.
Sidhelady: How's this for a plot enhancement? I agree, smut be good but only with a plot lol. And lets just pretend that the boys follow the safety rules lol!
Yaoi-is-gay-13: (Cringes) A lot of you had 'Yah Ethan's awake'...Now I feel really bad.
Haunted-Shadows: (Grins) Hey my first comedian fan lol! And does this mean I have to duck from your extensive artillery?
Marble: Thank you, all sex scenes are on the house lol! But I agree, Remus has suffered a lot and unfortunately I'm writing in a time when that suffering occurred. And tell me about it, rain is so funny, Do you splash in the puddles? I do, and my friend usually joins me lol! Good fun!
Adhara1: Ah I suppose, at least I didn't live it like "Remus, it's your father..." and then end it there. That would've been cruel. But this is the compromise up there, Ethan lives but I'm afraid that reality won out on me.
Toshide: Thank you and I know, sometimes reality is a bitch with an attitude.
Guu-Sama: Hmm Sleeping Beauty, what a strange twist that would've been lol. (Grins) Nice to hear I'm not just dragging this out.
Hp-Azn: Admit it, you LOVED Ethan's fate lol! This enough angst?
Venilia: Again I say, EVIL person! I was well chuffed for coming up with the 'terminal illness' idea and then you send your review LMAO! I was like "AH I wanted it to be a surprise" Lol! Ah well. Unfortunately it seems that British books and TV programmes are more prone to killing off heros in stories. We tend to work with the reality of a situation whereas most films end with a happily ever after. That'' what JK was going for I think, remember she likes to deal with real situations coated in a fictional story so by killing Sirius she was showing us that death can come for those you love every day. So next time you go out, give your mum or someone a quick kiss or smile...you never know what might happen. Morbid but sadly true. A girl I knew enrolled for college on a Monday and was so excited...but on Tuesday she had died after having an epileptic fit. I don't want to sound like I'm preaching but please, and this is to everyone, NEVER take family for granted! ...and now I'm crying lol, bloody wonderful!
Happo: You're going to hate me aren't you? Please don't, I like you guys!
Lilastar: I liked that bit too, Sirius just being all cryptic and such. And lol at Bush comment, do you think they both know their countries hate them?
Charlatan: Lol why thank you, and nice to see you joined us lol.
Obviously Oblivious: The Beatles rule and thank you. ("Hey Jude, don't make it bad, take a sad song and make it better").
Elrohir Lover: Look at you guys all talking nicely to one another, that's so nice to see! And please don't you hate me too, I've come to know you as one of the reviewers that's followed me through all three stories (offers a hug). And thank you, no ones ever described my name as beautiful (Although in Greek that's what it means, my daddy picked it for me).
Pippinsmyhobbit: I didn't upset you too much have you? Stupid question, If I'm crying writing it then that can't be good. But Lol, aye I saw your review and I think someone's nicked him from you.
Falling night: Lol good to hear it.
Sexy Pancake: Well then you should like the twist up there then. I think it's a lot more painful to see someone who is in every word one of your pillars slowly become weaker.
Catherine Drake: In answer to your review points...
1)Can't go wrong with that!
2)That man is a poetic genius!
3)LMAO See above!
4)Honey, he's hot all by himself!
5)Why thank you lol!
But now you have another 39 chapters, yikes!
Venilia: DAMMIT, I thought I had had an original idea then! Stop thinking like me LMAO!
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Chapter 41 – Heartache
The entire trip, by Portkey may I add, was like an eternity to me. Was my father ok, would he be sitting up and would he smile when I came through the door?
Sirius stayed beside me, keeping his promise and coming with me to my father's said once again. So afraid was I of my father's condition.
It was when I arrived that I discovered my life would ultimately be changed, an unforgiving curse that haunts me and that for me the War was finally very real.
I could no longer hide from the facts any longer.
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(1976)
The Portkey once again threw both teenaged boys into the strange carpark style entrance to St Mungo's Hospital and they both broke into run towards the entrance doors.
They whistled past the receptionist to the elevators where they slammed in the button for their required floor before the doors slipped shut with a resounding ring. Their breath was slightly laboured, painful almost to breathe in as it tingled the nerves in their teeth with shooting stings.
Remus, still panting lightly, looked over at Sirius who to was trying to catch his breath as he stared ahead at the doors. Feeling the weight of the werewolf's eyes on him the animagus turned and looked at his boyfriend before holding a hand out to him.
Remus took it and Sirius pulled him into a tight hug before the door slid open once more. With one last shared look they stepped out and into the waiting room. They walked slowly down the hall after pushing past a pair of swing doors until they finally stopped outside Remus's father's room.
Sirius raised a hand to knock lightly.
They waited a few moments and then the doors opened to reveal a teary eyed Brigit Lupin. Both Lupins looked at one another before hugging tightly.
Remus then pulled away from his mother and looked into the room where he found his father propped up slightly against white pillows. Instantly he rushed over to the man and was engulfed in a tight embrace, trying to ignore the various tubes sticking out of his father's arms.
"Hello son." Ethan croaked out as he stroked the boy's hair, hugging him tighter when he felt his son tremble with surpressed emotion.
"Daddy." Remus muttered as he returned the tightening hold on the man he'd thought he had lost.
Sirius watched on silently as Mrs Lupin moved to the two men, going to Ethan's free side and then too being pulled into the tight hug, the family now spoke tearfully to one another as they whispered greetings.
Smiling gently he backed out of the door and pulled it quietly shut behind him.
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Remus pulled back and wiped any tears from his face with his shirtsleeve, chuckling and feeling a little embarrassed at his little break down. Ethan smiled at him with glassy eyes as he ran a hand through his son's hair again, just looking at him before pulling him back into a hug as Remus laughed lightly.
Brigit reached two hands up to her face to cup around her mouth as more tears leaked out of her eyes. She didn't want to tell her son what they had to tell him, she didn't want to take away the smile on his face.
Ethan closed his eyes tightly as he held his only child to his chest. He rocked him softly like he would a young toddler, as he let his fingers trace through his son's hair, so like his mothers.
Remus felt a tension in the air and he pulled away slightly to look at the older man then at his mother. Both seemed to be crying and his father was holding him like they had been reunited after many years apart.
"Mum, Dad...what's going on?" He asked slowly and Brigit sobbed as she moved to sit on the bed with them, her hand reaching up to tuck his hair behind his ears. Ethan took one of Remus's hands in his own and squeezed it tightly.
"Remus, how much were you told?" Ethan said, his voice scratchy from tears.
Quickly the happiness that Remus felt was deteriorating and he felt an awful anxiety twist up his stomach.
"Only that you were awake." He said quietly, as though if he spoke loudly that this would be a dream and he would wake up.
Ethan rubbed a hand down his face as he looked at his son again, reaching up to brush his thumb over the boy's cheek and he smiled sadly at him.
"So they did not tell you what the Healers told us?" He asked and slowly Remus shook his head, looking at his silent mother then back at his father.
His father took in a deep shaky breath, his hand that gripped Remus's now shaking as he looked at the boy once more with a pain in his eyes.
"Remus...the spell I was hit with caused more damage then the Healers thought..."
The werewolf could feel his body numbing already and he instinctively crawled closer to his father as the man continued.
"...Although it didn't out right kill me it did...leave after affects...It's hard to explain and I'm not really good at pronouncing it the way Wizards do but there is a simpler name that muggles use."
Remus was shaking by now and he could hear his mother stifle terrible sobs as she leant against her husband's shoulder, an arm reaching out for her son.
"Dad?" Remus asked in a voice reminiscent to a frightened child.
"Remus...The spell messed up some thing in my body...They aren't sure how the spell works really but it creates an imperfection...
...Remus, I have a brain tumour."
The boy sat there unmoving as a cold liquid like feeling spread throughout his body. His lips felt cold and he blinked, as his eyes grew itchy with moisture. Then he slowly began to shake his head, his lips moving soundlessly before croaked emotion filled words left his mouth.
"No, no..." He said, his head shaking more rapidly which seemed to send his mother into more hysterics and his father reached out to pull him to him.
"No, no no no..." Remus's words turned into sobs as he shook violently, his body heaving as he let the grief tumble out and his mother began to cry again. He could feel his father's tears land on his cheek as both parents drew him in tighter to them.
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Sirius flipped through the magazine again, sighing when he found nothing in it and then put it one his lap closed where he began to tap an out of tune beat on it. He stopped only when an old man next to him coughed obviously as he scowled at the teenager.
He looked at the closed door of the room again before leaning back in his chair, leg crossed over it as he let it bounce in the air.
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Remus, still shaking and occasionally a sob leaving him, wiped his face with a trembling hand before looking at his father who had tear tracks lining his wise face. He reached up to cup his father's face as he beat down another wail of despair.
"Did," He swallowed to try and get rid of the scratchy feeling, "Did the Healers say how long..." He looked down again closing his eyes. He couldn't say the words and he didn't want to.
"Two years at the very most," Ethan said answering his unfinished question, "My health will probably begin to drop after a year or so."
Brigit sobbed again as she reached over to pull her son close to both parents again, her fingers stroking through his hair lovingly as his father cradled him to his chest.
"They expect I'll feel tired a lot for now and headaches are to be expected."
Remus's eyes clenched shut again as he bit back the tears and he wrapped an arm around his father's waist as he squeezed him tightly.
"Why?" He sobbed out and Ethan Lupin kissed the top of his head.
"Because not all Wizards are good little cub." He whispered and he pulled both of his most beloved people to rest their heads' on his shoulders.
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Sirius let his head drop back as he sighed once again, beginning to feel more then a little worried for the Lupins behind the door. He felt too rude to butt in on their reunion but he also felt insignificantly useless out here with no one but a rather grumpy old man as company.
He had just made the decision to go get a coffee when the door clicked open and opened with a slight whine of the hinges. He set a smile on his face but it quickly left when he saw the pained look on his boyfriend's face. He stood slowly as he walked over to the boy, who quietly clicked the door shut behind him, but not before Sirius caught a glimpse of Brigit and Ethan Lupin hugging as though they were about to be ripped apart.
"What's going on?" He whispered fearfully and Remus looked up at him with his amber eyes red from the tears that still slid out occasionally. Before Sirius knew what was happening Remus was curled up against his chest, his screwed up in intense emotional pain as he silently cried. Bewildered Sirius held him tightly and they both slowly drifted to the floor where the werewolf continued to cry.
Remus's arms held him strongly around his neck as he cried, the only sound coming from his silent mourning being when he sucked in a breath before crying silently again. Shaken and afraid Sirius rocked him, ignoring the startled faces of staff members and patients.
"Remus, Moony what's wrong?" He asked, his voice tripping as he found himself affected by his lover's state.
Remus shook his head as he continued to cry and Sirius found his chest tightening as some unexplainable grief began to take hold of him.
"Remus please!" He asked as his voice hitched and he continued to rock despite that he now had a misty vision from building tears.
"T-They killed h-him," Remus sobbed out as he hiccuped on the sentence, "It's a t-tumour."
Sirius closed his eyes as the words sunk in, hope leaving him as the drifting closing of his eyes cause a tear to slip down his cheek.
"H-He has T-Two years at the most." Remus continued as his chest began to hurt from the crying and laboured breathing.
"Oh Moony." Sirius whispered his voice lush with tears as he intensified the rocking and mourned with his mate.
They remained on the sterile cold floor of the hallway, Remus clutching to his lover as he let out all his grief and Sirius held him, never letting go as he silently soothed his lover. No one in the waiting room moved or spoke a word as they watched saddened as a boy no more then sixteen years old let in the fact that his father would never see him grow up.
And a respect for one's own family was felt in all their hearts.
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The boys had come back in about an hour before and Ethan sat awake that night as he held his sleeping wife and his sleeping son against him. Sirius had drifted off on the chair by the wall as he let the family have their precious moments together.
He brushed the hair off of his wife's forehead and kissed it lightly as he stroked the long tawny coloured hair. He remembered when he first met her, all those years back in University when she had been looking for the Literature classes, shyly asking him for directions and instead ended up in the cafeteria with him laughing as they sipped on cappuccinos.
He smiled with a very slightly shaking lower lip as he kissed her forehead again. She had and still was a free spirit, intelligent and kind...just like her son.
He looked then at his only child, his cursed son and brushed his thick hair lovingly. Remus looked so much like his mother, even if others did tell him that the boy looked like a smaller version of him. As far as he was considered Remus Lupin was as beautiful as his mother, inside and out.
He thought back on the day that the Healers had handed his baby son to him and the way he had gingerly held the boy close to him. A mop of light brown hair adorned his head and the baby had yawned with a tiny squeak as Ethan, nervous new father, laughed lightly as he leant over to kiss the baby's brow.
He remembered holding his terrified little boy after the werewolf had bitten him, rocking him as the boy cried at the pain that the wound inflicted upon him by the wolf seeped through his body reminiscent to the way poison does. How he himself had vowed to help his baby boy in any way that he could.
Finally he looked over at the sleeping teenager that had won his Remus's heart and he smiled at him gratefully even if the boy couldn't see it.
He knew that Sirius would protect his family like he himself would. Brigit had told him how the boy hadn't left Remus's side and how he had offered comfort to her also.
Yes, he thought as he let his eyes flicker shut in fatigue, Sirius Black was the one who would do the best job of looking after his family in his passing.
(TBC)
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AN: I have a really big urge to go hug my mum and dad now.
Thanks to:
Mirale nic Draco: Sorry, didn't mean to make it a cliffy, I didn't know how else to end it!
Legolas19: Lol Thanks!
Kynny: Wow what a lovely review, 'Enchant you with ever word', what a way to big up my ego lol! And if you're anything like me then this chapter was one of your fears when your mother fell ill.
Malfoyscutie: And again I say 'Thank you' lol!
Passionflower: Why do I have a gut feeling you may not forgive me for this (cringes). And as for the Letter questions (answered in order): Sent a letter to her, Last Week, Basically 'Thanks for writing and that she's working hard on book six'. Plus...ew at nosebleed deal, I could've lived without that lol!
Kittie Kat: Aye, some storied you just never want to end! Nice to see you like my humour and thanks on the J/L thing, it's nice to make them friends first! Ah don't worry if you haven't read my other fics yet, as long as you enjoy yourself I don't mind. I know what you mean though, My father had been hit by a lorry once but he didn't collapse there but actually stumbled home. He didn't even know he had this horrific head injury until he came through the door and my mum ran to get something to stop his face from bleeding. It was scary. And my mum too suffered a low iron count, it was terrifying to see such a strong woman suddenly just...ugh, I don't know, I hated it. But I'm glad you like the S/R moments.
White-Winged Sidhe: Mate, I suck at anything that involves numbers lol!
Avain: I have a feeling too that you may never forgive me! But I hope I got the emotions right in this, I did try to imagine what it must be like to hear that and so I guess that hopefully the scene above doesn't seem, I dunno, cheesy. Thanks for the hopes by the way, that was really nice. And tell me about it, half my friends (actually only one knows) that I write slash fiction.
Sidhelady: How's this for a plot enhancement? I agree, smut be good but only with a plot lol. And lets just pretend that the boys follow the safety rules lol!
Yaoi-is-gay-13: (Cringes) A lot of you had 'Yah Ethan's awake'...Now I feel really bad.
Haunted-Shadows: (Grins) Hey my first comedian fan lol! And does this mean I have to duck from your extensive artillery?
Marble: Thank you, all sex scenes are on the house lol! But I agree, Remus has suffered a lot and unfortunately I'm writing in a time when that suffering occurred. And tell me about it, rain is so funny, Do you splash in the puddles? I do, and my friend usually joins me lol! Good fun!
Adhara1: Ah I suppose, at least I didn't live it like "Remus, it's your father..." and then end it there. That would've been cruel. But this is the compromise up there, Ethan lives but I'm afraid that reality won out on me.
Toshide: Thank you and I know, sometimes reality is a bitch with an attitude.
Guu-Sama: Hmm Sleeping Beauty, what a strange twist that would've been lol. (Grins) Nice to hear I'm not just dragging this out.
Hp-Azn: Admit it, you LOVED Ethan's fate lol! This enough angst?
Venilia: Again I say, EVIL person! I was well chuffed for coming up with the 'terminal illness' idea and then you send your review LMAO! I was like "AH I wanted it to be a surprise" Lol! Ah well. Unfortunately it seems that British books and TV programmes are more prone to killing off heros in stories. We tend to work with the reality of a situation whereas most films end with a happily ever after. That'' what JK was going for I think, remember she likes to deal with real situations coated in a fictional story so by killing Sirius she was showing us that death can come for those you love every day. So next time you go out, give your mum or someone a quick kiss or smile...you never know what might happen. Morbid but sadly true. A girl I knew enrolled for college on a Monday and was so excited...but on Tuesday she had died after having an epileptic fit. I don't want to sound like I'm preaching but please, and this is to everyone, NEVER take family for granted! ...and now I'm crying lol, bloody wonderful!
Happo: You're going to hate me aren't you? Please don't, I like you guys!
Lilastar: I liked that bit too, Sirius just being all cryptic and such. And lol at Bush comment, do you think they both know their countries hate them?
Charlatan: Lol why thank you, and nice to see you joined us lol.
Obviously Oblivious: The Beatles rule and thank you. ("Hey Jude, don't make it bad, take a sad song and make it better").
Elrohir Lover: Look at you guys all talking nicely to one another, that's so nice to see! And please don't you hate me too, I've come to know you as one of the reviewers that's followed me through all three stories (offers a hug). And thank you, no ones ever described my name as beautiful (Although in Greek that's what it means, my daddy picked it for me).
Pippinsmyhobbit: I didn't upset you too much have you? Stupid question, If I'm crying writing it then that can't be good. But Lol, aye I saw your review and I think someone's nicked him from you.
Falling night: Lol good to hear it.
Sexy Pancake: Well then you should like the twist up there then. I think it's a lot more painful to see someone who is in every word one of your pillars slowly become weaker.
Catherine Drake: In answer to your review points...
1)Can't go wrong with that!
2)That man is a poetic genius!
3)LMAO See above!
4)Honey, he's hot all by himself!
5)Why thank you lol!
But now you have another 39 chapters, yikes!