Dragonball Z- Broken trust
Author- Luna P aka Nikki
Editor- QX aka Steph
Rating- RRRRRRRRRRRRRR I said it once and I'll say it again RRRRRRRRRRR yes this fanfiction is an R rated fic if you are fearful it is time for you to leave otherwise enjoy…
Warning- Um lets see uh there was something…yaoi, rape basically mature content if you are immature and such situations offend you or repulse you I think it would be best for you if you leave before I damage your fragile psyche n.n
Summary- Truten Trunks has wronged Goten but he has no memory of it, Goten decides to suffer in silence rather than burden his best friend. Will he be ok or will it slowly tear him apart and will Trunks notice before it's too late?
Disclaimer- (Sniffs) No sadly the characters are not mine if they were there would be an entire series devoted to the relationship between Trunks and Goten and then perhaps another series devoted to the relationship between Goku and Vegeta but alas twas not meant to be (sniffs.)
Nikki: Wow, six reviews, I didn't even think I'd get one thank you all soo much it means soo much to me that you read and liked my work. Anyway there were a few questions and comments that need answering so here are the review replies, once again thanks…
Kurama's Kitsune- Thanks for your review, you were my first reviewer n.n, I hope you keep with it. And I do watch Yami no Matsuei and I love it as much as DBZ so I guess I may have gotten certain idea's from there. Cough blood moon, rape cough n.n, I hope you stay with fanfiction it's great I've read a lot of amazing stories but I guess I'm biased. Anyway thanks and I hope I don't let you down with this chapter.
BlackTigerG2- I never thought of that, how thick can I get? I've been wanting to write that for ages but the opportunity never presented itself, then I read your review and everything just clicked and I saw that the opportunity had been presented in this fic. So yes I think this fic will be going in that direction, when I get to that chapter I shall devote it to you. Thanks again hon and I hope you don't leave in disgust after reading the junk I wrote here n. oh, thanks a million for the idea I can't wait to type it up.
LoveKakarot- Thanks for your review I'm really glad to see so many people liked it, I hope you stick with it regardless of this chapter. I think it's a bit jumpy in places then again my mum says I'm my own worst critique. I've just read so many great fics that mine can't even touch anyway I'm babbling thanks for the positive review it meant a lot to me. Hope to hear from you soon n.n
White Destiny- My forth reviewer, thank you so much I'm really happy to see that you're enjoying my work and I hope that this chapter doesn't disappoint you and that you continue to read the fic. As far as I know there's going to be at least one major event that is sure to make heads spin. Mine already is and I haven't even put the idea into words yet. Thanks again n.n
Kiko Cat- When I checked this and saw that I had five reviews I was over the moon, was that just a really bad pun? I was so sure I wasn't going to get any for this and I've worked really hard on developing the plot so I would have been crushed if I hadn't received at least one. Thank you thank you thanks soo much I don't know how to express my joy that people are reading and liking this. It means soo much to me I love this pairing soo much and it's good to know that others do to. I hope you enjoy and stick with the rest of the fic n.n
GoTrinba- Um…yes the summary did say about Kai and Rei but strictly speaking they are not my OC's, I borrowed them from another anime. They're not going to be in it much, once or twice, Bra and Pan will be in the fic eventually but not for a while. I will explain why soon. I had to have OC's because I needed a couple of people that were in no way connected to the series or saiyan nature thus I put them in. My deepest apologies if that annoys you but I didn't know what else to do. Anyway thanks for the review and I really pray to Dende that you will keep with it regardless of the crap that I dish up in this chapter n.n.
Thank you to all of my reviewers, I hope things are a little clearer now, I will be updating this fic every Monday. If I can, I promise I will try my best to make it so but I've got a lot of coursework building up at the moment so if I'm a day or two late don't hurt me. Thank you again and I hope you all enjoy this chapter…
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Normal POVIt hurt a lot, when he had climbed the stairs early that morning the amount of pain that had erupted from such a simple task was almost overwhelming. There was a point when he was worried that he might black out and fall back down the stairs waking everyone and everything in the household. That was the last thing he wanted to happen, it would be so embarrassing for someone to have seen him before he'd had time to heal and he wouldn't know how to explain his current state.
Cuts and bruises dominating his body, the large bite mark on his neck and the blood trickling from it was clearly displayed on his skin. His lips were bruised and bloody from the brutality of the kisses and small bites. Then there was the blood running down his legs from where Trunks had forced himself into him. How would he explain all of that? He breathed a sigh of relief, when he got into his room, and slumped down against his door pulling his knees up to his chest as tears fell unrestrained from his eyes.
He still couldn't believe that Trunks, the one he loved more than anyone, had wronged him so. He'd raped him forced himself on him without even asking the worst thing was that Goten wasn't angry at Trunks for what he had done. He was angry with himself for not being strong enough to stop it from happening. He just felt so unclean so weak so vulnerable so hurt. Most of all betrayed, Trunks had betrayed Goten's trust and love for him and that definitely hurt the most.
Pain shot through the young saiyan-jin as he stood from his place on the floor and wandered over to the bed collapsing onto the pure white sheets and staining them with blood and dirt. A small sigh escaped the ebony haired teens swollen lips as the cold sheets cooled his heated skin. He knew it would be best to sleep that way he would heal quicker and by the time morning came he would shower, tidy himself up, and then go to school. No questions asked no answers told, it sounded so simple.
MorningThe boiling hot water hitting against his skin felt so wonderful, so welcome, so very purifying. He could feel the dirt, sweat, and blood washing away from his flesh could feel the burning water stripping him of his pain. Always wishing that the memories could be washed away as easily as the blood always haunted by the knowledge that they couldn't. He ran his hands through the soaking ebony hair and down his neck, his fingers brushing against the bite mark that rested there.
Even now he knew that was going to be the one that didn't fade away, the mark that wouldn't disappear, he could tell that it would be there forever. That it would scar and become a constant reminder of that night. He would never escape the memories; no one ever escaped the past no matter how fast they ran. No matter how well they hid from it, it always seems to find you in the end. He hated that thought, sure enough he could never hate Trunks but would he ever be able to look him in the eyes again? Would he ever feel the love he had felt before? Would things ever be the same?
After what seemed like an eternity stood under the scolding heat he decided that it was time to get ready for school. He dried off and towel dried his hair, only noticing now how long it was getting, with a sigh he reached for the gel preparing to style it like he did every morning. Staring at his reflection for a while longer he felt like a change, he'd never really liked his hairstyle anyway. He'd liked it better the way it had been when he was younger, like his fathers.
It didn't take long for him to style it in the same way as Goku's, a few minutes' tops, he smiled at his reflection and grabbed the fresh set of clothes off of the hamper. A pair of dark blue jeans and a black button down shirt. He still had a few cuts on his face but they weren't very noticeable and it would just look as though he'd gotten into a fight, there was no reason to believe otherwise so why should someone doubt him?
Cleaning around the bathroom quickly Goten put everything back in it's rightful place, he had always been a neat freak. Liking everything to be in its place, he must have moved too quickly because he felt a sharp pain shooting through him starting at his hips and exploding upwards causing him to howl in pain. A lot of the wounds had healed in the short time he had been given to recover; one or two scratches remained. The bite was now a scar, he could speak though only quietly and his voice was horse from where he had been screaming non-stop throughout the night. His hips and lower back hurt the most, but that was expected after you had been raped.
In time his ki would get stronger and he would have more to spare meaning that he could use more of it to heal properly. Until then he could use the excuse that it was due to the cold an aftermath of his illness. Unless he asked for a sensu bean but Bulma would ask why and when he mentioned the cold she would say no as she began her usual complaint about saiyan-jins and their dependency on quick healing sensu beans and the tank. There was also the fact that he didn't want to draw any attention to himself because that would bring about questions that he really didn't want to answer.
Goku would be the first to interrogate him, well contemplate to himself, saying that even with a low amount of ki a thing like a cold should be long gone by now. Then Bulma would get worried and demand for him to go to her lab so that she could check him over. And if that happened then she would find out the truth, then they'd find out that it was Trunks and… well he didn't know what would happen after that but the last thing it would be was good. Nothing that came of this could possibly be good or so he became to believe.
With a heavy sigh and an even heavier heart Goten threw open the door to the en suite bathroom and stepped into his bedroom. His breath caught in his throat and his heartbeat accelerated rapidly at what his eyes fell upon. For there in his room, sat on his bed, was no other than Trunks Briefs his best friend…his crush…his rapist. Goten froze to the spot his eyes open wide in shock and his mouth hanging open as he tried to get more oxygen into his lungs. Trunks smiled at him and stood from his seat on the bed, stepping closer to Goten without noticing the others expression of fear and worry.
"Hey Goten, um, I know it's been a while since we last hung out and everything…I've been busy with work and school and stuff…" Goten's expression immediately changed from that of worry to that of confusion. What was Trunks talking about 'they hadn't hung out in a while?' Just last night Trunks had sexually assaulted the younger without so much as a 'hi Goten how you doin.' Ok so he had heard of people blocking out or forgetting painful memories, but if anyone should have forgotten anything it should have been Goten. The raped should forget whilst the rapist regrets.
"Ok but uh…why are you here now?" The ebony haired teen placed his hand onto his throat as the words rasped out. Blue eyes studied the younger as he gently massaged his aching throat. Trunks couldn't help but wonder what was wrong with his friend. That made him upset, when they were younger they would tell each other everything without even having to ask one another. Now they just seemed to be drifting apart, Trunks didn't want to loose his best friend not now, not ever.
"Goten are you ok? I heard you yell in the bathroom, it sounded like you might have hurt yourself…you'd tell me if something were wrong wouldn't you?" Goten froze how could he possibly tell Trunks what was wrong with him? How would he start? 'Hey Trunks nice weather we're having oh by the way you raped me last night, I was just wondering you know…why?' That didn't actually sound so bad but there had been times when things had sounded great in his head but when he had said them out loud…it hadn't been so great.
A weak smile, was all that Goten could give, "I'm fine Trunks, it's uh just…that cold is still bugging me." Strange to think that blue eyes had believed that. Goten had thought of the excuse to be an obvious lie yet Trunks had brought it. No questions asked no answers told it sounded so simple, and as of yet that was what it had been. "Trunks…was there something else?"
'What are you doing? Why are you talking to him? Have you forgotten what he did to you? He used you, made you scream his name under a tainted moon as he tainted you and here you stand making ideal chit-chat with him…like nothing ever happened. Well it did happen and you can't ignore it and hope that it sorts itself out, he may not remember but you do!" Goten's mind screamed at him, he hated that little corner of his mind that had said that, for it spoke the truth and at present he couldn't handle the truth.
"Oh uh…sorry Ten-chan, I was wondering if you wanted to walk to school with me" A sweet smile graced the lips of the lilac haired boy as he watched his friend. Goten's eyes were glazed and he seemed out of it, as it were, Trunks wondered if that was due to the cold or if there was something that Goten wasn't telling him. "Please?"
'Don't go…look at what happened last time you were alone with him, if he did it once he can do it again don't be a fool…don't go or suffer the consequences.' It was right again telling him the harsh truth; he glanced up about to say no but the look in Trunks' eyes were practically begging for him to go with him. He had never denied Trunks anything and he wasn't about to start.
A weak smile "of course but uh…I promised Kai and Rei I'd walk with them so it'll be the four of us…you don't mind do you?" Trunks shook his head and smiled, but inside he was disappointed, it seemed to him that he and Goten never spoke anymore he wanted that to change. He wanted for things to go back to the way they were, like when they had been chibi's.
"No why would I? But um…who are they?" Trunks asked stepping closer to his friend closing the gap between them, the physical one the mental one would take time, almost instinctively Goten stepped back trying desperately to keep the distance. In truth Goten didn't even notice he had done it, an odd thing, his body was trying to protect him but the damage had already been done. Upon seeing his friend's reaction Trunks stopped his advances a sallow look appearing on his face, had he done something wrong?
"Oh uh…they're my friends from school I'm surprised you haven't seen them they came round everyday to see me when I was ill" his heart beat began to increase. Trunks felt too close. A pang of jealousy hit the elder's soul shattering it into a thousand pieces, they, this Kai and Rei had been the ones there for Goten when he had been ill. But what of Trunks where had he been and was it really more important than Goten? Of course not, Goten was everything to him.
"I'm so sorry Goten" the younger's pupils dilated, was he sorry about the other night? Tears began to well in his eyes, what would he say if he was?
"About what?"
"I should have come and seen you you're my best friend I just want you to be happy" with a smile he walked over to Goten and draped his arm across the younger's shoulders. He immediately sensed the fear and the increase in ki; it was as if Goten was on the defensive but why?
"No it's cool, Kai and Rei were there…" Trunks hadn't even met the two and yet he knew this, he hated them with a firey passion because it seemed to him that they were closer to Goten then he was. And for that he only had himself to blame, "Uh we should be going or we'll be late"
"Goten…" he whispered as the younger bolted out of the open door and into the hallway, a lone tear escaped a blue orb and fell to the carpeted floor staining it for a minute before disappearing. "What did I do?" But Goten was gone and there was no answer for his question.
So there they were the four of them, walking to school in complete and utter silence and the most uncomfortable silence ever. Trunks' heart was aching and heavy, every time he glanced over at Goten he would look away or start talking to Kai and Rei leaving Trunks to rack his brain as he tried to work out what he had done to cause such discomfort to come between them.
When the school gates came into view Trunks knew that his chance to talk to Goten had slipped away. As far as he knew they didn't have a class with each other for the whole day. His gaze drifted to the floor as his hands slid into his pockets he'd just wanted to hang out with his best friend was that so much to ask? As Goten watched his long term friend he began to feel sorry for him, it was strange but true, Trunks had no memory of what he had done so he must have been so confused as to why the younger was acting the way he was.
"Hey Trunks…" Blue eyes glanced in the direction of the voice he smiled when he saw that it had been Goten that had called to him and stopped walking so that they could talk. Hesitantly Goten moved closer to his friend so that he was standing infront of him, then he nervously placed his hand onto Trunks' shoulder, with a smile and said "I'll talk to you in gym class k?"
With that said he ran off to catch up with the other two leaving Trunks alone once again. A heavy sigh escaped soft lips as he ruffled his hair, his hands slipped down his neck and brushed against a wound on his shoulder. He glanced at it and ran his hands over the scratch like marks, it looked like someone had dug their nails into his skin and pulled upwards leaving a deep bloody indentation in the tanned flesh. But where it had come from was beyond him. He hadn't fought in weeks…strange…
The shrill voice cut through him like a knife, he knew it well, too well… she was the reason that he hadn't been there for Goten. Always asking for his help and craving his attention but he was just placing the blame. It was his fault that he hadn't been there and he knew it, it was just easier to say that it was because of someone else than to admit that it was him that had let Goten down.
"Goten! Goten! Dude snap out of it!" Life filled the ebony orbs when the saiyan-jin noticed that his name was being called. Rei giggled when he saw his friends bemused expression and pointed at the clock. "The bell went ages ago"
"Honestly Goten you've been acting strange all day, you wanna tell us what's going on?" Kai asked folding his arms across his chest and leaning against the doorframe to the classroom. The carbon copy of Goku laughed and shook his head, brushing away the questions as quickly as they had come.
"Just daydreaming that's all" Goten explained, dropping his books into his bag, Kai's crimson eyes shone with disbelief as he threw his hands down onto the wooden desk with a loud reverberating 'thud.'
"I am not a fool Goten and I will not buy such a lame excuse! I'm your friend… I just want to help." A low growl escaped Goten's lips he really did want to tell someone. But he couldn't…just talking about it made him feel pathetic and weak.
"We're gonna be late for gym" Goten explained standing up and throwing his backpack onto his back. A surge of pain shot through him, he still hadn't fully healed even after all this time. Using the desk to steady himself he managed to maintain his balance and save himself from adding insult to injury.
"Goten? Are you sure you're ok?" The raven-haired boy asked as he appeared at Goten's side steadying his friend. For a guy Goten had always thought that Rei was very motherly, Kai more fatherly a stern figure you dare not object to but one you admired fiercely.
"We just want to help…Goten we're your friends…trust us…" Trust what a joke that was.
"The last friend I trusted ra…" before the teenage saiyan went any further he clapped his hand over his mouth in a desperate attempt to keep the rest of the word from escaping his mind.
"Does this have something to do with Trunks!" Rei asked as Goten fell to his knees clutching the bite on his neck with his left hand. "Goten!" The two friends chorused as they ran to the others side. A loud scream of pain escaped the ebony-haired saiyan-jin's lips as he slowly slipped his hand away from his neck.
"What?" Goten whispered upon seeing his hand covered in blood, but that had healed, it had scared he had seen it. Kai and Rei gasped silently when they saw the blood trickling down their friend's neck. Another surge of pain and blood curdling scream, what was going on?
"OH! Trunks you're so sweet…thank you…koi…" Trunks' eyes questioned the word the younger had just used…koi as in love? Oh what had he done? That stupid witch Mina had asked him out and for some unknown reason he had said yes. It wasn't that she wasn't good looking, blonde hair blue eyes and a nice body, or her personality, a little over excited but nice none the less, he just…he didn't know but he didn't like breaking hearts. It wasn't his style, so he figured that made Mina his new girlfriend.
"No problem" A small smile, it wouldn't be so bad, she was kinda sweet a year younger than him and completely worshiped the ground he walked on. And after all they had been hanging round each other a lot going out with each other, as friends, but they could have been seen as dates all he had just done was accidentally made something he didn't even understand official. Way to go. Just as Mina threw herself onto Trunks, latching herself onto his neck, he sensed a fluctuation in ki and it was close. Goten? His heart stopped when he heard the scream echoing through the halls. He sounded like he was in so much pain.
"Sounds like someone got hurt don't ya think Trunksie? We should go check it out" 'Trunksie' what had he got himself into? Nevertheless it did sound like someone had been hurt, like Goten had been hurt, and he wouldn't let him down again…never again…
'No it…it had healed…why…what's happening to me?' The ebony eyed teen asked himself as he clutched the bloody wound. Desperately trying to stop the crimson liquid from flowing out of his body and staining his clothes. Not only was the mark bleeding but it burned, his skin felt scorched but there was no way that could be.
"Come on Goten I think we should get you home" Kai explained and walked over to Goten's left, motioning for Rei to take the right, together the two helped their friend to his feat. Steadying him they checked to see that he was ok before going any further.
Goten smiled weakly and whispered "thank you" as he struggled against the unbearable pain shooting through his body in order to stay conscious. It was strange; he could feel his ki rising yet it was not healing him or helping him in anyway. Gagging slightly Goten coughed, finding himself coughing up blood. His face paled and his head began to pound, his body felt limp and he could barely keep his eyes open.
"Goten!" Blue eyes sparkled with tears at the sight of his friend, never had he seen him look so hurt and so weak, "What happened?" Trunks asked as he ran over to the younger saiyan stroking the side of the younger's face soothingly simultaneously wiping away tears that Goten hadn't even noticed he's shed.
"Leave him alone…this is your fault…" Glancing upwards Trunks met the crimson eyes belonging to Kai Hiwatari the crimson eyes that held hatred and anger towards the lilac haired Prince. It wasn't that Kai knew what had happened during the night of the red moon but he could sense that something bad had happened and that Trunks had without a doubt been the one behind it.
The prince turned his head glancing at Rei whom had always appeared to be the more understanding of the two but the golden orbs belonging to the boy in question had the same look within them. "Come on Kai lets get Goten home" With that said they began to walk in the direction of the door, Goten's limp body being held up by his new friends.
"I'll take him, I'll get there a lot quicker and then my mom can check him over." Trunks explained a tear slipping from a sapphire orb as his hands clenched at his sides. No one saw the tear for the simple reason that he was facing away from them but it was one of pure sorrow and sadness, as pure as the driven snow would be the appropriate phrase.
"No offence… Trunks… but I wouldn't trust you with a tub of hair gel let alone one of my friends" When Trunks turned to argue with that, they were gone, Goten along with them. They were taking care of him again and in the process the three of them were growing closer and they were slowly taking Trunks' place in Goten's heart. That hurt…that hurt a lot…
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Mini disclaimer: I don't own Kai and Rei, if anyone's ever seen beyblade I borrowed them from there. They're my favourite characters from the series and were my first yaoi pairing so this is like a mini dedication to them because they gave me the chance to write a really good fic that started my writing obsession. So yay n.n
Nikki: Pleeeease review and let me know what you think it would mean so much to me, I'm sorry that Vegeta didn't give his explanation but it just didn't fit in so it's been moved to the third chapter instead. I understand that this fic is a little choppy and confusing at the moment so if you have any questions to ask then e-mail me or drop them in a review. Thanks n.n
Watari: Coming to a computer screen near you
Chapter 3- Shattered soulTrunks' memories start to return through dreams but they're hazy and he can't work out what and whom they are of. Goten starts to feel better and all in all excepts what has happened to him and the all-knowledgeable Vegeta finally gives his explanation.
Nikki: Well that's a brief summary of the third chapter, I hope you read it and like it as always pleeeease review it would make me so happy…n.n
Watari: Come on Nikki let's go and begin the third chapter
Nikki: (nods) To the computer away…
K: Nikki, you're already at the computer
Nikki: K-san you appear to be right speaking of right I should write
K: I'm surrounded by idiots…please for the sake of my sanity review to my mistress it would make her so happy… and perhaps make her kill off Mina. She works in strange and mysterious ways…mainly strange n.n