In My Reflection
My body is tired
My eyes are heavy
I wish I could sleep a few more hours
but my mind is made up
and I'll sleep no longer
I sit up
and stretch and yawn
My hand automatically runs up my face
and through my hair
my wild, untameable mane of black spikes
There is a taste in my mouth
A bland mix of the dinner last nights with the toothpaste
I'm made to wash my mouth with everyday
Pulling my body up
I make my way to the bathroom to rinse it out
That's when he catches my eye
His personal portrait
the only one in the house
is hung right above the sink in our bathroom
so it is impossible for me to avoid him
and we always make eye contact
There he is
Dark-as-Night black eyes starring into mine
glittering the lack of compassion
of inhumanity I used to knowing
No, I never knew that
That is what makes him who he is
and me who I am
That is what separates us
I'm sure he's what Vegeta seeks
when he looks deep into my eyes with his drilling glare
Vegeta knows that Kakarot is the very last one
who will ever understand
Understand Saiyan ways
and crave them willingly
To tell the truth, I'm scared
I love my family, my friends
I know Vegeta is happy settled in his new life-style
But Kakarot wants to change that
Go back to fighting
for the pleasure of fighting
for the adrenaline rush
for the thrill of knowing at any moment
our life could end
It frightens me
It's never my face looking back at me
Not in the early morning
so short after retreating from him in my dreams
He's awake inside of me now
Staring back with midnight black eyes
I close my lids
take a deep breathed and plunge my face into my cupped hands full of ice water
I am instantly refreshed and renewed
and when I go to look at my reflection
Kakarot is asleep once more
while I am awake