Starfire and the Explanations
The trip to the Tower was to short for my liking. I knew what was coming up. Raven would explain just how much Robin didn't WANT to sacrifice everyone, how much he had wanted the easy way. Maybe there is a part of him that really wants to be a villian.. being Slade's Apprentice and Red X would make you think so. Maybe he wanted to be taken by Brother Blood, and.. and.. NO! ROBIN ISN'T LIKE THAT! I thought to myself. I seemed to have cringed at the thought of Robin wanting to become a villian, for the others seemed concerned.
When we did get to the Tower, Cyborg and Beast Boy stretched, said good night, and went to their rooms. Of course. Raven is the only one who HAS to explain it. I wonder why Robin wanted her to explain it.. but that doesn't really matter. Raven sat down on the couch, and I followed her. I knew she needed to explain this to me, and the sooner it was over, the sooner I could go to sleep. I really did need the sleep.
"Starfire... when you weren't looking, I kind of tapped into your thoughts. It isn't like that. Trust me." started Raven. I looked down. "Then, please, explain it to me, friend Raven." She nooded and began,"When we first found out that you were kidnapped by Brother Blood, well, Robin yelled, louder than I have ever heard him yell, your name. It scared all of us, no matter if we didn't show it. I 'll even admit I was scared. But, he didn't want the easy way to get to you. He knew we would fail, knowing the hundreds and hundreds of specially trained students of Brother Blood. He didn't want to risk your safety. The team was all for trying to get you with brute force, even if we knew we would lose.
"Robin sacrificed himself for your safety. He didn't care about what would happen to me, or Cyborg, or Beast Boy, or even himself, because it would all be worht it for your safety. I know I would want to have someone care as much for me as he does for you. But he knew that there was no real reason for us to fight whenn we could get you so much easier, so in a way, you are right. But, it wasn't all that correct, because, for most people, sacrificing yourself isn't the easy way out."
He DOES care about me! But... he sacrificed himself for my safety?.. He shouldn't have done that. I would have rather rotted in that prison than.. him.. I sighed and simply said,"I understand now. I need to sleep, and to get something to eat.' Raven nodded herself and said,"Try some tea. It really does help. And after how many things of your's we have tried, well.. I think you owe me." she said as she smirked, and seemed to be showing... what was it? Happiness? Comfort? Kindess? All at once? Well, what ever it was, the lightbulb above us burst, and she went back to her normal monotone voice. "I'll clean that up later." She walked over ot the kitchenette, and made two ups of tea from a kettle that had been for a while. When she put it on, however, I wouldn't know, or care.
I sipped at the cup of hot tea, and it felt good. It warmed my throat, and traveleddown to my stomache. A smile played at y lips, but when I realized Robin wouldn't be here to enjoy this with us, it faded immediately. I sighed and sat it down. And, suddenly, I remember Robin's words,'ither way, I'm screwed.' "Raven, what does screwed mean?" She looked up at me in alarm, and asked,"Um, use it in a sentence." "Either way, I'm screwed." I replied. "Oh, it means he is uh.. defeated. He can't win either way he goes. I think he was talking about either A) Losing you or B) Having to go as a prisoner himself." "Oh." I replied shortly. Well.. now I know what screwed means. I suppose he really DID sacrifice himself for me.
I sighed after finishing the tea, and said,"Friend Raven, thank you for the talk and the tea. But now, I think I need to get to sleep." Raven nodded, and I walked off to my room. I slid the door behind me, and laid down in my bed. I felt hot tears slid down my face, but hasitly wiped them away. I won't be long. Friend Roin will be back soon. I know it. He will. I reassured myself. I feel asleep roughly, still wondering about Robin. I hope he is okay..