Hey guys. Here is chapter 6. Sorry it has been so long but I have been at camp so I haven't been able to update. Thank you to Andrea and DramaQn621 for reviewing. I love you guys.
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me It all belongs to J. K. Rowling. Cause if it belonged to me I wouldn't be sitting here writing these I would be working on my 6th and 7th Harry Potter Books.
Chapter 6: Hermione's suicide attempt
Harry just stood there and continued to hold her as she sobbed into his chest. It took a while but she finally calmed down a little bit. He took her and laid her down on there bed. She awoke about an hour later.
"What's wrong 'Mione?"
"It's.... It's my father..." she said almost in tears again.
"What about your father 'Mione?"
"He's... he's... dead." And she promptly burst into tears.
"Oh My God!" Harry said as he started to hold Hermione again.
"Can you leave me alone for a while Harry?" Hermione asked him.
"Of course 'Mione...." he trailed off and laid a kiss on her forhead as he left the room.
Harry went out into the living room. Hermione's mother had went down to the police station. Harry was left alone to think because Ron had decided he should go and leave them in peace. Harry was scared. He had yet to know how Hermione's father had died and somehow he had a feeling it wasn't an accident. It was something that Voldermort made look like an accident.
'How come everyone I love gets hurt?' Harry asked himself as he sat on the couch. 'Damn Voldermort! Damn being the boy-who-lived! Why me? Why did he have to choose me? Why didn't he just die when that curse bounced back onto him. Then I could have a normal life and would not have to put up with anything here. I would be normal. Not the boy who lived. Just normal.' Harry continued to think about these things and how his life could have been if Voldermort had not come after his parents that fateful night. He had no idea what kind of thoughts were going through Hermione's head but he should have realised it when she put strong locking and silencing spells on her door. Unfortunately he was too preoccupied with his own thoughts to think about that.
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Hermione sat on her bed thinking. She was upset. The police told her it was a car accident that had killed her father. But she wasn't so sure. She had this strong gut feeling that it had been Voldermort trying to hurt the people that Harry loved. Hermione did not blame Harry for this. She blamed herself. If she hadn't come home so unexpected her dad wouldn't have been leaving then and her mother would have gone to pick him up and things would have turned out okay. That was her thinking at the moment anyway. She knew Harry was probably blaming himself. The same way she was blaming herself. But she couldn't deal with it. The thought that she had killed her father was too overwhelming. She never regretted being friends or lovers with Harry Potter. Never once. Not even now. She just would have wished that Voldermort had never existed. She wished he had died when that curse rebounded upon him all of those years ago.
She was dying inside. She only way one way out. The cowards way out. The way she was prepared to take. She wanted to die. She couldn't live without her father. She loved her father so much and didn't know how she could continue without him. So she was going to take drastic measures. The first thing she did was write a few letters.
Dear Harry
I want you to know that this is not your fault. I just can't go on living without my father so I have to do this. I really don't want you to blame yourself for this. Cause I love you. I wish I was not such a coward. If I wasn't a coward I wouldn't be writing this letter right now. I hope you understand. My father was one of the most important things in the world to me. I, Hermione Granger in no way blame you for my fathers death. I blame Voldermort. I just can't stand to get hurt anymore. I can't stand to see you hurt. That's why I am ending now. I love you.
Love from,
Hermione
She wrote a second letter. This one to her mother.
Hi Mom,
When you find this letter I will be dead. I can't stand living without dad. I know I should be here with you during your time of need cause I know that you are hurting inside too. But I am a coward. I am such a coward and I just can't take the pain in my life anymore. I in no way blame you for these feelings. You have given me everything. Life and your love. More then I could have ever asked you for. I thank you for being my mother and I thank you for loving me. I love you.
Love from,
Hermione.
She finished writing these letters and she put them in evelopes and addressed them to Harry and her mother and set them on her desk. She then proceeded to put strong locking and silencing spells on her bedroom. She quickly walked to her private bathroom and took an unopened bottle of tylenol, two bottles of cough medicine(48 pills) and her left over bladder medication and went into her bedroom and poured them all out and shrunk them so she would be able to swallow them all at once. She got a big glass of water and drank down the pills and laid down on her bed. Within 20 minutes she was unconscious and her bodily functions started to shut down. It was about that time that Harry was going to get a glass of water from the kitchen and he had to go write passed Hermione's room to get there are realised that there were very strong locking and silencing spells on the door. It took him a few minutes but he finally got them down and when he entered he saw Hermione lying there and got really scared. He checked her pulse and there was faint one. He lifted her into his arms, took the letters and apparated to Hogwarts.
It surprised madame Pomfrey half to death. What's the matter Mr. Potter?"
"It's Hermione," Harry told her quickly as he laid Hermione onto a bed. "I think she attempted suicide."
"Oh My God!" Poppy Pomfrey was bustling around ther room checking Hermione's pulse and administring a lot of potions. "Good thing you got her here in time. A little longer and we wouldn't have been able to save her." she finished administrating the potions and to Harry's relieve she was briething normally again. Just then Albus walked into the room.
"I heard what happened Poppy," Albus said "Is she alright."
"She'll be fine, thanx to Mr. Potter here."
Albus turned to look at Harry. "What was it that possessed her to do this Harry?"
"Her father just died." Harry said simply, taking Hermione's hand and rubbing it gently. "I just read the letters she wrote to me and her mother. She blames herself." Harry said silent tears running down his face.
Just then a very tired looking Severus Snape wandered into the room. "What's going on here?" he asked as he noticed Harry in tears. "What's the matter Harry?"
"She tried to commit suicide." Harry answered. (A/N. Harry and Severus became really good friends in there 6th year after Albus insisted that he continued Occlumency.)
They all sat and stood in silence for a little while. Then Albus went back to his office. Severus said he had some potions he needed to finish working on. And Poppy said if Harry needed her she would be in her office. Eventually Harry fell asleep in the chair next to Hermione's bed, still holding her hand.
Okay. How did you like that chapter? Was it good? It was kinda sad. I never thought of Hermione as the type to attempt suicide before. There have been several with Harry thinking about it and even a few with Ron attempting but I don't think many people put Hermione in that position because they don't think that she would ever do it. But I thought it would be a different and unique and sad experience. Hope you review.
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me It all belongs to J. K. Rowling. Cause if it belonged to me I wouldn't be sitting here writing these I would be working on my 6th and 7th Harry Potter Books.
Chapter 6: Hermione's suicide attempt
Harry just stood there and continued to hold her as she sobbed into his chest. It took a while but she finally calmed down a little bit. He took her and laid her down on there bed. She awoke about an hour later.
"What's wrong 'Mione?"
"It's.... It's my father..." she said almost in tears again.
"What about your father 'Mione?"
"He's... he's... dead." And she promptly burst into tears.
"Oh My God!" Harry said as he started to hold Hermione again.
"Can you leave me alone for a while Harry?" Hermione asked him.
"Of course 'Mione...." he trailed off and laid a kiss on her forhead as he left the room.
Harry went out into the living room. Hermione's mother had went down to the police station. Harry was left alone to think because Ron had decided he should go and leave them in peace. Harry was scared. He had yet to know how Hermione's father had died and somehow he had a feeling it wasn't an accident. It was something that Voldermort made look like an accident.
'How come everyone I love gets hurt?' Harry asked himself as he sat on the couch. 'Damn Voldermort! Damn being the boy-who-lived! Why me? Why did he have to choose me? Why didn't he just die when that curse bounced back onto him. Then I could have a normal life and would not have to put up with anything here. I would be normal. Not the boy who lived. Just normal.' Harry continued to think about these things and how his life could have been if Voldermort had not come after his parents that fateful night. He had no idea what kind of thoughts were going through Hermione's head but he should have realised it when she put strong locking and silencing spells on her door. Unfortunately he was too preoccupied with his own thoughts to think about that.
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Hermione sat on her bed thinking. She was upset. The police told her it was a car accident that had killed her father. But she wasn't so sure. She had this strong gut feeling that it had been Voldermort trying to hurt the people that Harry loved. Hermione did not blame Harry for this. She blamed herself. If she hadn't come home so unexpected her dad wouldn't have been leaving then and her mother would have gone to pick him up and things would have turned out okay. That was her thinking at the moment anyway. She knew Harry was probably blaming himself. The same way she was blaming herself. But she couldn't deal with it. The thought that she had killed her father was too overwhelming. She never regretted being friends or lovers with Harry Potter. Never once. Not even now. She just would have wished that Voldermort had never existed. She wished he had died when that curse rebounded upon him all of those years ago.
She was dying inside. She only way one way out. The cowards way out. The way she was prepared to take. She wanted to die. She couldn't live without her father. She loved her father so much and didn't know how she could continue without him. So she was going to take drastic measures. The first thing she did was write a few letters.
Dear Harry
I want you to know that this is not your fault. I just can't go on living without my father so I have to do this. I really don't want you to blame yourself for this. Cause I love you. I wish I was not such a coward. If I wasn't a coward I wouldn't be writing this letter right now. I hope you understand. My father was one of the most important things in the world to me. I, Hermione Granger in no way blame you for my fathers death. I blame Voldermort. I just can't stand to get hurt anymore. I can't stand to see you hurt. That's why I am ending now. I love you.
Love from,
Hermione
She wrote a second letter. This one to her mother.
Hi Mom,
When you find this letter I will be dead. I can't stand living without dad. I know I should be here with you during your time of need cause I know that you are hurting inside too. But I am a coward. I am such a coward and I just can't take the pain in my life anymore. I in no way blame you for these feelings. You have given me everything. Life and your love. More then I could have ever asked you for. I thank you for being my mother and I thank you for loving me. I love you.
Love from,
Hermione.
She finished writing these letters and she put them in evelopes and addressed them to Harry and her mother and set them on her desk. She then proceeded to put strong locking and silencing spells on her bedroom. She quickly walked to her private bathroom and took an unopened bottle of tylenol, two bottles of cough medicine(48 pills) and her left over bladder medication and went into her bedroom and poured them all out and shrunk them so she would be able to swallow them all at once. She got a big glass of water and drank down the pills and laid down on her bed. Within 20 minutes she was unconscious and her bodily functions started to shut down. It was about that time that Harry was going to get a glass of water from the kitchen and he had to go write passed Hermione's room to get there are realised that there were very strong locking and silencing spells on the door. It took him a few minutes but he finally got them down and when he entered he saw Hermione lying there and got really scared. He checked her pulse and there was faint one. He lifted her into his arms, took the letters and apparated to Hogwarts.
It surprised madame Pomfrey half to death. What's the matter Mr. Potter?"
"It's Hermione," Harry told her quickly as he laid Hermione onto a bed. "I think she attempted suicide."
"Oh My God!" Poppy Pomfrey was bustling around ther room checking Hermione's pulse and administring a lot of potions. "Good thing you got her here in time. A little longer and we wouldn't have been able to save her." she finished administrating the potions and to Harry's relieve she was briething normally again. Just then Albus walked into the room.
"I heard what happened Poppy," Albus said "Is she alright."
"She'll be fine, thanx to Mr. Potter here."
Albus turned to look at Harry. "What was it that possessed her to do this Harry?"
"Her father just died." Harry said simply, taking Hermione's hand and rubbing it gently. "I just read the letters she wrote to me and her mother. She blames herself." Harry said silent tears running down his face.
Just then a very tired looking Severus Snape wandered into the room. "What's going on here?" he asked as he noticed Harry in tears. "What's the matter Harry?"
"She tried to commit suicide." Harry answered. (A/N. Harry and Severus became really good friends in there 6th year after Albus insisted that he continued Occlumency.)
They all sat and stood in silence for a little while. Then Albus went back to his office. Severus said he had some potions he needed to finish working on. And Poppy said if Harry needed her she would be in her office. Eventually Harry fell asleep in the chair next to Hermione's bed, still holding her hand.
Okay. How did you like that chapter? Was it good? It was kinda sad. I never thought of Hermione as the type to attempt suicide before. There have been several with Harry thinking about it and even a few with Ron attempting but I don't think many people put Hermione in that position because they don't think that she would ever do it. But I thought it would be a different and unique and sad experience. Hope you review.