Chapter Six

All the Grey Areas

Hi! How've you been? Good? Me too! Now, in my last chapter, as many of you read, I had a Kyo/Yuki slash moment. I am a big fan of Hatsuharu/Momiji but I must say my first plan for this story was going to be Kyo and Yuki. What I was wondering is, do you guys want me to do a side story on that? The whole Kyo/Yuki slashy thingy I mean. If you do then just write or review me at I will only do this story if I have ten reviews or more. Any less and no lucky Kyon for you! huggles little cat-Kyo plushie anyway. Read on and review please!

After an hour of searching, Hatsuharu finally found Tohru's room. He could hear loud sobbing noises coming from behind the door. Not sure of what to do, he opened the door slowly, just enough so he could see. There was Momiji, looking smaller and paler then usual, in front of him was Tohru, her face showing a motherly worrying as she brought Momiji one of Hatori's shirts.

He took the shirt and slipped it on slowly, as though it gave him pain to move, "I-I can't believe he did it." a sob came through his voice as he spoke.

"Shh, shh, it's ok Momiji. You said it was Black Haru right? So it wasn't really him was it?" A look of concern was sketched across Tohru's face.

The blonde boy shook his head as though he were dazed, "N-no, but, B-black Haru, he's still Haru-kun." he sniffled and rubbed his nose with the end of his shirtsleeve.

There was a pause where Tohru got up and get Momiji a kleenex. "Yeah, but, isn't Hatori giving him therapy? I mean, for the mood swings and schizophrenia? He'll be ok in not to long I'm sure." Her stance became one of confidence as she tried to comfort the bunny.

He took the Kleenex from her and blew his nose, "No 'sniff' Once, I asked Hatori what the therapy would do for Hatsuharu." The boy paused as he remembered the day that he had asked, "He said that even with the therapy, his 'other side' won't go away, that at most it'll just make Black Haru dormant." Momiji paused, a look of fear ran across his face as the thought came to him. "There'll be no telling when he'll come back for me." Hatsuharu winced at the pain he heard in Momiji's voice.

/Momiji-kun, I'm so sorry, Momiji…./

There was another pause as Tohru thought about this. "Momiji? Do you remember… Oh… about a year ago? When you and I were at the new year's banquet?"

Momiji giggled mirthlessly. "Yeah, when Akito saw you there he had a fit and said 'It wasn't tradition'"

She nodded as she remembered the event "Yes, and I said I would leave and it would be okay with me if I didn't get to see it… after all, it was a family secret."

The bunny looked up at Tohru and smiled "But you are a part of the family, and we wanted to share that with you, so we smuggled you in and had to hide you to keep you in the party." They laughed together at the antics that had gone on that night. "I think Hiro danced that year, didn't he?"

"Yes, yes he did." She giggled inwardly, "He got so flustered because Kisa couldn't be there and they had practiced together, then Ritzu was stumbling and tripping all over in that frilly costume." For a moment Hatsuharu could hear true laughter fill the room. Then, as it slowly died, Tohru continued. "Yes, they made a very good pair too. But, Momiji? Do you remember what you told me that night as we were waiting for the dawn on the roof?"

Momiji 'Mmmmed' to himself. "No, actually, I don't, it had been the first time I was allowed to drink at the party…." His voice faded off for a moment, then he said more warily, "Why? What'd I say?"

"You said that you loved Hatsuharu and that you would like to marry him and have kids together." She said matter-of-factly, with the slightest tinge of a smile in her voice.

At this point Hatsuharu sprung away. /Reproduce? Us? I-I mean yeah, it's possible between us zodiac members but…/ He shook his head from the possibility of it and tried to listened to them continue.

"Oh yeah…", If you listened hard enough you could hear the wheels work in the bunnies head. Then, literally as though a light bulb had gone off in his brain, "Now I remember! Did you know that he and I danced together for the first time that night?" He sighed in contentment, "It was great." Hatsuharu could just imagine the starry eyed look on Momiji's face.

/Yeah, that's right/ Haru thought /he and I were the only two there that didn't have partners to dance with, so we danced together./ He smiled at the thought of being so close to his bunny-chan. With a feeling similar to being hit with a car, he quickly remembered the only other time he had been closer. Only hours ago when he had-

"That's it." Tohrus voice interceded the horrifying thought, "Yeah, you guys were such a cute couple, you know? But, I was wondering… when you said you loved Haru-kun did you mean just the white Haru or black Haru?"

There was a pregnant silence, then… "To be honest, I love them both. I love him when he's black too, when he's black I know that he'll be able to protect me, I know he won't let anyone get me when he's that strong and defensive. I feel safe around him…Or I did. I like his white side too." Haru heard a faint giggle, "That side is always so nice and calm. He always says kind words to me and hugs me and cares for me…. I guess I just like all the grey areas in between…" He laughed at this notion; as though it was some amazing joke, and he had just figured out why it was funny. The laughter stopped suddenly, as though a sharp knife had cut through the sound. "But… he did it, whether it was Black Haru or White Haru, or even Grey Haru, He still did this to me." Hatsuharu heard a clatter on the hard, wooden floor of the room. Momiji had stood up with such sudden force that he had nocked over the chair he was sitting on. He stood there for a moment, breathing heavily as he said, in a cracked, but sure voice the five words Haru mentally begged him not to say, "I want to see Hatori."

Haru froze. The blonde German had long ago told him of how much he cherished his memories, especially of hard times that he experienced because of the strength those memories gave him. If Hatsuharu had done something so horrid that even Momiji-kun wanted to forget it…. How could he forgive himself? The Cow jumped away from the door and hid himself from the direction of their destination, so as not to be seen. Silently Momiji left the room with Tohru worriedly following him.

"No! Momiji?", When he didn't answer the girl, she fell silent and followed him toward the room where everyone knew the head of the Sohma house and the family doctor would be staying. (They often stayed in the same quarters so that Hatori could get to Akito quickly if 'problems' arose.) Hatsuharu's heart dropped into his stomach as the thought of Momiji losing his memory of him fully hit him. This would mean Momiji would not only not remember the rape that had been committed only hours ago, it also meant that he would not be able to remember Haru, or any of the memories they had shared. It would be as though an entire chunk of their lives would be taken from both of them.

Silently the three walked on. Momiji did not care if anyone heard his footsteps, Tohru was tiptoeing nervously behind him, making sure not to disturb any of the Sohma residents, and Haru was trying his best to not let a sound escape him or anything around him.

The hallway seemed to stretch before them, a never ending maze that would only lead them to a horror worse than the one at hand. Hatsuharu kept walking with a dazed look on his face, trying to remember the best memories he had shared with Momiji and what it would feel like to be the only one on Earth to remember those happier times… With a final memory of what had happened earlier, they reached Akito and Hatori's room. Before Hatuharu or Tohru could stop him, Momiji put his hand on the handle to the door and pushed it aside roughly, yelling out, "Akito! Wake up, and get that damn dragon out here!"

Hatsuharu winced at the hurt and anger Momiji's voice had taken, knowing that he himself had caused that hurt and anguish.

At this moment, the three friendstook the time to look into the room they had barged into. There, in front of the door to the garden, was Akito, fully dressed in one of his darkest kimonos, he was draped over Hatori's lap and looked at the three with an animalistic hunger, for what, could only be guessed. In front of the two men was a futon with several pillows arrayed randomly on it. They were set perfectly to help dampen the force of a body hitting the floor after becoming unconscious.

Akito smirked and beckoned the two to kneel before him, "Momiji, I've been expecting you…"

And that's where I'm leaving it! I want many reviews guys! What should I do? I want the public's opinion on this. I'm sorry! It's still short! GOMEN NASAI!

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