Disclaimer: I still don't own Gravitation. Still don't own anything but the idea for this fic.
Loves Betrayal
Chapter 5 - Beginning of the end.
Shuichi's POV
"I can't wait to go and see My Yuki…" I say more to myself then to anyone.
I glance up to see the cab driver looking at me in the rear view mirror. A faint blush forms across my cheeks and I look out the window. I didn't realize that I was talking to myself out loud. "Gomen…" I say to him.
I stare out the window and begin to think on how I can make things better between the two of us. The fact that he wanted to talk about it, and fix things, is going to make me think on it more.
I pull out a notebook and begin to write about how I can make things better.
1.) I will stop being annoying and give you the time that you need for yourself.
2.) I will not whine so much, and get on your nerves when you are writing.
3.) I promise that I will do anything that I have to, to make sure that you're happy.
4.) I won't say things to you that will easily piss you off.
5.) I wont try to make you say things that you aren't ready to say. And I won't whine about it either.
6.) I promise not to be so loud, and I will keep my singing to a minimum.
7.) I promise not to bore you with everything that I can.
8.) I will sleep on the couch more, so you can get more sleep.
9.) I promise not to suck in bed anymore.
10.) I promise that I will begin to write better things, so that I don't make you angry.
I look at the list and contemplate on if that's really all that I have to offer him. 'I think that this should be really good. I think that he will be pleased with my list, and then we will have make up sex like we always do.' I think to myself.
I can feel the blush again rising to my cheeks, as I begin to think of the many things that we will be doing. How I will be screaming out his name in much bliss and pleasure.
I glance up to see the cab driver looking at me again. "C…c…can I ask you why you are staring at me?" I manage to ask him.
"You make funny sounds, and look like you need to stop and drink something." the driver says.
"Sorry, I don't need to do any of that. I just need to go and see my Yuki." I feel the blush running across my nose, down the rest of my face, and hell, even over my body.
I watch as the driver shakes his head and then continues driving. We talk a bit on the way to the hotel, where my beloved Yuki awaits my arrival. I can't help but to let the thoughts of provocative things, and Yuki naked, cross my mind.
Shivers and shudders of all lengths wrestle their way down my body. Those thoughts alone, were making my pants feel just a bit tighter. I had to shift in my seat as I continue to talk to the cab driver, Phil, and have erotic thoughts of my Yuki.
We finally reach the hotel, it is about 5:28 now. I throw some money at the cab driver, and then quickly sprint into the hotel. I don't bother with the elevator, I sprint my ass right up the stairs. I have to dodge, leap tall things, including people, to get to my dear Yuki's room.
I look at my watch and see that I have about 30 seconds left. There was no way I will be late. I take the last hard running sprint of my life, and look at the door in front of me now. Room 345. I touch the handle and then the door open. Ten seconds is what I have left.
I open the door and walk in. There doesn't seem to be too much going on, I observe as I begin to take my shoes off. That is when I see Yuki….making out with none other then my boss. The scream is caught in my throat. All I could do is stare, every ounce of sound that wanted to escape suppressed itself. I can feel my eyes grow wide and the hotness of tears falling down my face.
Then it happens. Yuki looks up at me, very callously and smirks a bit. 'HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME? I THOUGHT THAT THIS WAS GOING TO BE US TRYING TO GET BACK TOGETHER? HOW CAN YOU SIT THERE AND PRACTICALLY FUCK THE ONE THING THAT HAS INTERFERRED WITH YOUR LIFE FOR AS LONG AS YOU CAN REMEMBER?' my head screams but my mouth won't allow out.
'I can't stand here and watch him destroy everything that I worked so hard to keep together.' I think to myself.
I force the movement to my legs, and I turn and run out the door. Hand slapped up over my face as I ran. My body was starting to convulse as I ran.
I don't know how long I ran for, but the next thing I knew was that I was beginning to fall, when something prevented me from hitting the ground. Leaning against whatever it was that caught me, I sobbed and cried, confessing how much I just didn't want to live anymore.
This continued on for a good hour or so, before I allowed myself to calm down a bit. A sudden case of shock. All I could do was lay there and stare at nothing. Cause that is all my life was right now….nothing. My heart which was once a brilliant shiny crystal, is now nothing but shattered black glass.
I feel the warmness of arms pick me up, and begin walking with me. I look up and can't bring into focus who it was that had me. I can feel myself being set down on something soft as somebody begins to strap me to something. "Where are you taking me?" I ask through the waterfalls falling from my eyes now.
"Just relax and rest some, Shuichi. You are being taken back to where you won't be hurt like this again." the voice quietly said to me.
I can feel as a hand reaches over and brushes my hair out of my face. A soft pair of lips met with my forehead before I hear a door close.
I can then finally feel my eyes beginning to drift closed.
I try my hardest to make them stay open, but to no avail.
The last thing I remember, is the vehicle moving..
-TBC-
A/N: I know that this is short please forgive me for that. I'm beginning to get some writers block on this one. I will make the next chapter longer I promise. Please forgive me again. I'm sure that a lot of you can understand the writers block. Please read and review this and tell me what you think.
Review thanks:
EMIS3400- Maybe a mental break down, maybe something else that hasn't quite come up yet. I don't really know…I just thought that writing Yuki like that would get people attention enough to make them realize that there really is something wrong with him. Thank you for your review and hope to hear more from you.
Josh122121- I don't really like Tohma either. But he does love Yuki so much that he would do anything for him. And you know that as well as the next person. I also think that Shuichi deserves someone better then Yuki also. I think that Shuichi should be with someone like Hiro. I hope that you like this chapter as much as you did the others. And to answer your little thought in the other review that you sent me, yes I love Hiro. Hiro is my favorite character in the whole show…and to let you know. I will never have Hiro be with Ayaka. I don't like her, and I think she should burn in hell. Ok…maybe that was a little harsh. -sweatdrop- Thank you for reviewing and you still have one more of mine to review. -taps foot waiting-
Kyttycat- Glad that you like this one as well. I hope that you like this chapter as much as you did the others. .
you know who I am- I'm glad that you really liked Chapter 3 and 4. We will discover the little things in my head that people will never understand the complete depths of what goes on in my head, not even you. Yes you will have to wait and see. I hope that this one strikes your interest as much as the others. And thank you for giving me the shove that I needed, to get this up and going. And you know that your happiness is mine as well. Don't say to many sad things cause you will make me cry again. Thanks for reviewing and Hopefully you will continue to. -hugs-