Memories Forgotten
Disclaimer: I own nothin. I'm poor my parents have to bye me things.
Childish may.
Wrong and not true.
Do you think I'm lieing?
Or maybe I'm waiting for you.
Dead, yes I suppose in a sense.
Painful and true.
It's not right, you know?
Life can never be so.
Am I childish
Am I wrong
Or am I dead
Is my life a lie
I know I'm childish
Nieve snd Insecure
My mind tries to deny it
But I fear it's the truth
I do not want to be wrong
So tell me what's right
I'm childish
Alone and Scared in this world
Is it wrong for me to live
When at the end I know I'm already dead
I'm Nieve and Insecure
But never in my kife has anything felt right
If I'm tell me
Tell me why I'm wrong
Tell me why you do not trust me
I know it feels right
But everyone else says it's wrong
Childish? Yes!
Wrong? Who cares?
Never in my life has anything felt right
Should I pretend for you?
Pretnd that I want to live
I'm childish
I'm dieing or am I dead
I'd give aything if I din't have to pretend
Chapter Three: Pretending
"Who did this Torrie?" Serena asked anger boiling inside her.
"It was an accident I swear I didn't mean to do it! Where'd all this blood come from? Serena make it stop don't let them know. Serena, it's cold and dark and there's no way out." Torrie cried frantically her eyes looking dazed and her skin growing pale as blood dripped from old selfinflicted wounds. Serena placed her hands on her shoulders and forced her to look in her eyes.
"Torrie, stop it! Nothing happened if you keep talking like this their gonna lock you up again!"
"You remember don't you? You know what happened that day. You know where Lillie and Alix are! Sere, how could you let them take me away when you knew I was tellieng the truth!" Torrie shouted and Darien came into the room with a first aid kit and ice.I
don't understand how you could do this, Serena. How could you let them take me away? Why didn't you tell anyone what really happened to us? Were you so ashamed that you couldn't even tell your friends?"
Torrie lunged at Serena a knife appearing in her hand and she cut a deep gash into Serena's shoulder. She raised the knife to slash her again and Darien ran to get her off Serena but before he got to them Torrie jumped up and began slashing her arms violently. A strong hand grabbed the knife from her as she felt to the floor shaking. Kevin dropped the knife and pulled her into his arms. Michael kneeled beside Darien who was trying in vein to wake the unconscious Serena. Herwound was now gushing black goo mixed with her blood like it was poisoning it.
"Don't try to wake her she'll wake up eventually but only when the time is right. Your pleading will not change the time she does wake." Michael stated calmly his eyes showing that he knew from experience.
Serena's mind You can call it a dream she is unconcious and all.
She was at the park with Darien he bought her a stuffed bunny and a knew outfit, then he brought her here and they sat on a bench waching the sunset.
'childish? Maybe.........
"Serena?"
"Yeah muffin."
"What time was it when Alix and Lillie dissappeared?"
"I don't know I was six muffin."
Wrong and not true
"Well was it dark or light out?"
Do yout hink I'm lieing
"Dark. Why do you care?"
"Cause I need to know."
Or maybe I'm waiting for you.
In an instant the seen chaged. She was at the shrine studying with the scouts and Derien.
"Serena where's Lillie and Alix?" Rei asked
Dead? Yes.......
"Um they dissappeared when I was six so I'm not sure."
"How can you not know where your own sisters are? I swear you would make a horrible queen."
"What?! How dare you say that to my sister." Torrie appeared
"Rei only said the truth."Lita countered Torrie.
Painful and true
"Yeah Serena should grow up already and stop depending on others to do the work for her." Trista put in.
"And just who said I wanted to grow up. If I did I'd probly be like yo stuburn old and aone." Serena fought back calmly
"I refuse to bow down to some one who sholdn't even have passed first grade." Amy said coldly
It's not right, you know?
Life can never be so"
"Enough of this I will not tolerate anymore of you're abusing 'MY' bunny like this." Darien said in a demanding voice putting his arm over her shoulders.
"Serena, what are you doing with him when you know full well you belong to me?" Matt asked pulling Serena to him and away from Darien.
"What hey let go of me you creep. I'm not your property how dare you treat me as such." Serena demanded struggling to get out of his arms.
"So it's okay for him to treat you like property and not me?" Matt smirked a knowing smile as realisation and recognition dawned on her. 'My' bunny she remembered him say.
Am I childish?
"Serena! What do you think you're doing cheating on poor Darien like that, and after he defended you." Mina accused
"What cheating Mina I've done no such thing!" Serena denied failing to notice it was now fully dark and they were in a very familiar house.
"Oh she's just confused my sweat. She doesn't remember that you were mine before that bastard trick you into falling for him." Matt seathed as he kissed her harshly.
"NO! NO, STOP! PLEASE LET ME GO Darien help me. Please I know you don't want him touching me." Serena screamed as Matt trailed kisses down her neck but she was forcefully pulled away and held against a stong muscular chest, strong srms around her was tightening as she tired to break free.
"NO, let go of me. Don't touch me please just let go. Lillie where are you? I need you."
"Serena it's me Darien d'you here me?"
reality
She was screaming frantically tears streaming down her face when he decided to try and calm her. Sitting next to her he hugged her bringing her to sit on his lap. She was silent for a minute then began to scream louder.
"NO, let go of me. Don't touch me please just let go. Lillie where are you? I need you."
"Serena it's me Darien d'you here me?" Her eyes opened and she took in the smell of his cologne. She hid her head in his chest and let her tears fall.
When she was done crying she noticed Torrie was gone.
"She left with Michael." Darien answered her thoughts.
"Michael howed he get here?"
"You left your keys and purse at hte club." He said holding up a bunny kechain and purse.
"I should go see if she's ok." Serena said getting up and walking to the door to put her shoes on.
"No, Serena I think you should go to the hospital for your shoulder." Darien said walking to her.
"I'm sorry Darien, but I need to go. The funny thing about this whole thing is that for once I'm actually doubting that you're the best thing for me right now." She thought for a minute her eyes filling with tears. "I love you, and I can't bare to keep lieing to you like this or not be able to tell you the truth. You deserve some one who can tell you the truth about everything, some one that's not scared that you'll leave if you knew the truth. I can't marry you and I just can't do this." She cried placeing her engagement ring on a nearby table.
Am I wrong
She ran without another word from either of them. She ran before he could register what had happened and he stood there tears beginning to fall from his eyes.
9:05P.M. Blue Moon night cub
Serena stood on the stage after Kevin annouced her and Torrie as the musical entertainment for the night. Just then Darien and the outer scouts walked in. Her eyes locked with his and she looked away at Kevin. He nodded as if understanding her delay and she waslked off the stage where Michael hugged her.
"He's your home sweetie and I promiss someday you will get to go back home." He whispered in her hair as she lightly cried.
"What have you done to Serena!" Amara yelled at Kevin and Serena looked in that direction to see Kevin and some body guards trying to hold the outers and Darien back.
"You guys it's okay they can come see me." Serena said quietly but the guards still seemed to hear and backed off. Kevin linguered infront of them a minute before walking to Serena.
"You know if your father finds out he'll kill them so don't waist time with you sentiments and fellings." he whispered in her ear and she nodded her eyes welling withmore tears.
"Serena, whats wrong with you breaking up with Darien like that?" Michelle asked taking a step forward witch only made Serena step back.
"Is that all you guys have to say?" she was hoping they would be angry and demanding. That they would give her a reason to hate them, but even if they were Darien would never be so angry with her that he would push her to hatred.
"Usako please just come home we can work everything out." Darien pleaded taking her hands in his.
"Sere you can't do this your destiny forbids it." Trista said sternly earning a sad and ironicly amused laugh from Serena.
"Destiny forgets what it mskes you promiss not to.Fate changes just when you think life is perfect. And love, well love liguers and remids us why we hate destiny and fate." Serena whispered more to herself than them. She freed her hands from Dariens grasp and walked closer to the stage. "When two people share the same destiny and everything becomes perfect for them they lose themselves in eachother to the point where people exspect them to always think what the other does or be where the other is. It comes to the point where a second apart is too much. But whos to say where the lines are when love becomes jelousy, when jelousy turns into obsession, and obsession becomes love all over again. But after the obsession it becomes a possesive vengful love. You are a very possesive man Darien. You're selfish and greedy and overly protective. You get anngry when I don't check in with you and you make me feel safe from all the bad things out in the world. So who will protect the world from me?"
"Serena you can't just turn your back on everything what about Rini! You fought to keep him you've died for it and now you just..."
"No Trista I've kill for don't you get it Love turns itto jelousy and jelousy into obsession, which turns to possesiveness and back to love. The cicle doesn't end. I've killed to keep him. I committed suicide and destroyed my home because I wasn't aloud to have him. do you honestly believe that was pure untainted love?" Serena cut Trista off and walked on stage a bodyguard blocking the stairs after her.
"Give her time she'll figure out a way to be with you. Always has, always will Love always wins 'cause it's always there. Even when you think you're alone some one somewhere is always waiting for you to come home and the funnt thing is no matter how bad things were when yo left or how much they swore they hated you for leaving or letting them go when the person that ran returns the one waiting still loves them and is releaved to see them." Michael said walking to the back room.
"Who is he? He's so fsmiliar but I can't remember anything about him or the others. It's almost as if somebody whent through the threads of time and pulled everyong about themm out." Trista added thoughtfully gazing at Serena who was starting to sing Stars by T.A.T.U.
am I dead
Is my life a lie
Backroom of club
"Why are they here?" A woman in the shadows asked
"They just showed up Lady Lena."Michael answered
"The master will not be pleased with these impureties around the princess. Get rid of them. If they won't leave her alone then we will have to use force." Lena said dissapearing.
"Kevin, awaken blue." Michael commanded
end chapie 3
I promiss the next chapter will be longer and the story will start to make more sense and come together. there will also be fighting in the next one.