Memories Forggotten

Disclaimer: I do not own Sailormoon so don't sue kay.

AN.Um yeah there's gonna be alot of flashbacks in this one and it's longer plus some more characters are introduced.I think I should redo the characters I have up cuase there's a lot more maybe I'll post another one owe and the Sailor stars will show up sometime in the next few chapters. It'll also get a little more angsty and talk about who Torrie killed and a little is explained on what really happened to Lillie and Alix. oh and I don't know if I told you before but the itallicy words in smaller font are somebody speaking in a different time frame.

Cowards die many times before their deaths; the valiant taste of death but once.
-Caesar, the Tragedy of Julius Caesar by William Shakespeare

Chapter6:Hope is dead

"Temper. Temper there's no need for your language. Serena and Torrie are both fine as you can see." Kevin jestured to the two girls standing next to him. Serena looked at the ground trying to ignore their eyes.

"Well I still need them to come with us." Blue stated coolly watching Serena fidget until she noticed Tommy taling a protective stance next to his mother.

Flashback

"Serenity wher've you been?" Princess Torrie asked her big sister when she entered her room through the balcony. Serenity appeared out of breath and fatigued.

"On Earth dear Blue is that a problem?"

"Sere don't call me that and you know there is a problem with you going to Earth to see that man." Torrie said sternly before smilling and jumping on her sisters huge plush bed "So what do you guys do. ANYTHING interesting. Because you know we are at war with his kingdom."

"Torrie can I tell you something I haven't even told Endy yet?"
"Of course tell me anything Sere."

"Well don't be disipointed or mad cause I do love him and when the wars over I'm gonna marry him but Torrie I'm pregnant." The princess said nervousely still contemplating on how to get her parents to agree on letting her marry Endymion istead of prince Matthew.

"Serenity what are you saying you are only 14 and you are betrothed to Prince Matthew. To top it off we are at war and have been for centuries with Earth this is forbidden. As soon as father finds out he will destroy all of Earth and kill Endymion as slow as possible. Worst of all they will take your son and lock him up torturing him for the rest of his life and you will be forced to wes Matthew as soon as possible." Torrie usually took pleasure in telling people what their punishment would be for their own stupidity but Serenity was her sister. Her mother Mattalia had tried to make her hate her big sister but she couldn't because the girl loved her and treated eveybody with kindness and sincerity. 'What kind of monster could ever think of hurting her just for following her heart?'

"Please Blue you have to help me hide my baby from Mother and Father. From the whole kingdom. I would give it up just so Endymion and the baby could live and Earth wouldn't be destroyed if the baby was never known to anybody except us three. I don't want them to torture my baby or Endymion and if that means I have to find somewhere else for him to live away form us so

be it."

End Flashback

"Tommy." Blue whispered with suprise

"I think you should all leave my mother alon. She does not need any of you messing up her life even more than you aleady have." Tommie said looking at the scouts with disgust.

"I'm afraid I cannot allow any of the Lunarian women to stay here. The disease is affecting them greatly and they will die without proper call Prince." Blue warned Tommy "If you do not allow them to come willingly then I shall have to use force."

"Do you honestly believe I want to go with you Blue?" Serena asked in a cold voice. "You are not my Guardien. In fact you were released from your duties as head of the Guardiens when you conspired with Mettallia to destroy MY home. You betrayed us I want all of you gone. I never want to see or hear from any of you again." She stated calmly wlking off the stage and to the door of the backroom.

"I own this place Serenity so maybe it's you who should leave!" Blue shouted

"She's not gonna listen Blue you hurt her. You hurt all of us." Kevin said looking at the door that everybody else on the stage already went through. "I love you Blue. Serena loves Endymion but sometimes love isn't enough. You should leave let her live and be free before she dies." he through the doors and Blue stood with the confused angry scouts and Darien looking hurt and worried.

"We should go that Bitch won't listen to reason." Amara seethed.

"You can go, but I want Endymion and Small Lady to stay." The scouts left and Blue told Rini and Darien they could sit in at a table while she opened the club and called some people.

Blue Moon night club 12:18A.M.

The club was packed with Guardiens and Lunarians that Blue got to come. Serena sat next to Michael who didn't seem to mind that Blue invited Rini and Darien to sit there. In fact he was enjoying himself playing cards with Rini.

"You can't ignore them all night Serena." Michael stated simply not even looking up from his cards. "Sooner or latter you have to tell them about everything if you want a happy life." Serena said nothing instead she stood up and walked to Kevin who leaned against the stage right infront of them. Darien watch as Kevin put his arms around her. Anger and pain boiled within him as she leaned up to kiss Kevin. It was a long passionate kiss that tore at his insides and he used all his self control so as not to get up and kill the man. He wanted nothing more thatn to be able to hold her again. Serna walked back to the table and sat back down.

"Serena what is wrong with you!" Blue shouted and the whole club was silent

"What this is a party isn't it. I can do what I want I am single after all."

"You! You! You horrible selfish childish little girl. Do you care about any thingbut your wants your needs."

"Hmm nope I don't." Serena walked onto the stage and grabbed the microphone. "Hi everybody as you know I am your princess and I am here by discharging all of you from your duties of protecting Prince Endymion and his duaghter. None of you should take orders from the frmer captain of the Guardiens Blue moon. If it comes to my knowlegde that any of you have been conspiring with her you will be stripped of your powers and severly punished by your future king Matthew who I am now engaged to again and will marry by the end of the month. We will all go home and never speak to another Earthling again as of now the moon kingdom is being rebuilt how it was before the Earthlings destroyed it. Any Earthling you try to bring with you to the moon will be killed on the spot we are now at war with them again." she looked at Blue with pride and hatred in her eyes "And Blue you will not come with us. You have betrayed all of us and I should punish you but you were once my closes friend and Guardien so I shall leave you here." She walked off and dissapeared to the backroom everybody in the room watched the door with fear and hurt except Blue who looked down at Rini who was slowly fading away.

"Usako." Darien whispered but the whole room was silent enough that everyone heard his selent plea for his love. "Blue what the fuck is wrong with her!"

Hope is dead

So is 'she'

"I'm sorry Endymion she's sicker than we all thought." Blue answered watching Kevin's mocking smirk as he walked to the backroom only to find Matt standing infront of a sleeping Serena and beat up Torrie. Tommy held a sword at his throat looking pretty beat up himself.

"Matt what the HELL do you think you are doing!" Kevin exclaimed noticing the needle in the evil mans hand filled with a black substance.

"I'm mearly claiming what is mine. What's the problem with that?" By now Blue,Michael and Darien had rushed to the backroom the rest of the Guardiens waiting orders to kill Matt. Darien upon reconizing the man transformed and attacked but Matt simply dodged his attacked also suceeding in distancing himself from Tommy. "You can not deny what's been given to me. I own her now Earth Prince she doesn't love you anymore."

This is only existence

Failed, Blank, and Empty existence

"You were wrong to take her from me." Matt sneered at Darien and telaported next to Serena ready to take her back to Chaos until something pierced into his back and he released a painful scream at the shooting pain of something cousing into his blood stream. He could feel the poison laced dagger being pushed deeper into him and turn to force out another scream. A sword was held to his neck and he looked up to stare into piercing blue eyes only to be reminded that this boy was the Earth Prince's and Serenity's.

"You are wrong to force her into submission. You are not aloud to touch my mother. She is the only person I care about and I will not let you or anyone else hurt her." Tommy said pushing the swod harder against his skin.

This darkness making me weak

Yet feeling me with a sense of safty

"So you would rather have her stay with your father? A man that doesn't even care that you exist."

"I can do without a father but I need her." Matt smirked and quikly grabbed Tommy's arm and twisted it. Tommy held back the painful scream and so did Matt when another dagger was pushed and twisted violently into his back. He pushed Tommy away and to the floor then turned abruptly to find Torrie with blood allover her arms and hands. A deep blue cresent moon birth mark shone on her forehead.

"My dear Torrie what a pleseant suprise." Matt watched as her eyes turned from a fearless, stricking shade of midnight blue to an earily vulnerable shade of yellow-green.

"Leave Serena alone you disgusting pig!" She seethed trying to stall while Darien and the Guardiens quietly tried to sneek Serena out of the club.

"DON'T YOU EVEN THINK ABOUT STEALIG HER FROM AGAIN YOU BASTARD EARTHLING!"Matt shouted and everybody stopped. "And you dear sister in law my dear Princess of the Negaverse if you ever try to help her escape again I swear next time the darkness will be your only friend and that little horse boy won't be able to find you." Oh yeah Pegasus will show up later to

Serena stured in Dariens arms and her eyes fluttered open. She felt warm and safe but instantly knew she was not aloud this feeling anymore.

Is it there? Is this real?

You don't know what it's like

How it feels to be all alone in this darkness

Burning from a hollow place inside.

Serena jumped out of his arms and looked away from his hurt expression. She noticed the daggers in Matts back and the blood covering Torrie. cop sirens could be heard in the distance and Kenji walked into the backroom.

"Michael, it's Sasha she had an accident and the American government sent her here. She burned down your house and Jack was trapped inside his sister got out but Sasha keeps saying the cat made her do it. I think the desease has gotten to her." Kenji said frantically as the cops came in.

"Are you Michael Rosenburg?" Michael only nodded numbly as his body froze in panic and anger. Serena watched with horrer at how familliar this was.

Hope is dead

So is she

Memory

"Daddy stop you're hurting her!" a young Serena shouted as she saw her father hitting her big sister.

"SHUT UP YOU STUPID BITCH!" her father shouted back and Serena complied.

Suddenly Serena was standing outside next to Michael and Lillie gazing with wonder at the burning house. The cops could be heard approching but the three remained frozen in aw as the house burned to the ground. Kenji tsukino came rushing to them and Serena jumped into his arms crying.

"Uncle Kenji I'm scared Torrie and Alix are missing and mommy...I can't find my mommy!"

This is only existence

Did it get easier?

Did you get what you wanted from me?

Does life ever come together?

The firemen arrived soon after the cops to put out the fire. The cops questioned Lillie and Michael and investigated what was left of the place but found no one else in or around the house. Serena and Lillie stayed at their aunt and uncles house the rest of the week. Than their father showed up with Alix and Torrie to take them home. He gave no explaination and moved them into an exact replica of their old house in the exact same spot.

Did you give up?
Is it easier now?

End Memory
"Serena, what's happening I thought Sasha couldn't get our disease?" Torrie asked looking like a scared insecure child.

"I...I...Is this my fualt? I didn't mean to do it...I... I can't find her...I can't find mommy..." Serena began to shake again the memories flooding her head and becoming to much. Her eyes turned into pupilless black pits and her hair to a crimsom blood red. Matt laughed as Darien took her into his arms and protectively shielded her from him, but the fear in Matts eyes was unmistakable. The police got three ambulances and took Serena, Tommy and Torrie to the hospital.

Dream Memory

"Princess Serenity where have you been?"the worried moon queen asked her 12yr old dughter.

'I went to Earth against your wishes again and met the prince. Oh but mother don't be mad he's really nice and nothing like daddy says he even asked me to visi him again sometime.' Serena was about to say in her exitement but thought it over and instead said "I was training with Torrie and the Guardiens so that if somebody should ever get passed them and to me I could protect myself."

Every little word lingers in the darkness

"Allright sweetie I am glad you weren't hurt." the Queen said and aloud her duaghter to go to her chambers.

"You went to Earth again didn't you." Torrie accused as soon as her sister entered the room. "Look at you smiling away over your forbidden fruit."

"Oh Princess Torrence you're right I should be more lady like and wait for my big sister in her chambers every night just to hear about something fascinating like you do." Sereninty mocked

"Ha ha very funny princess so what did you do that you're smiling so much?"

"I met the Earth prince he's really nice and sweat.We talked and then when I had to leave he asked me to come visit him again if I could."

"Sere no! You can't! Promiss me you won't."

"But I already promissed him I would and I can't just not go if he's expecting me."Serenity tried to get her sister to agree that going was the right thing. "Don't worry I'll be fine little sis and if you want you can come along."

"Okay I give up we'll go see your prince and I promiss not to tell anybody about him but only if he's as nice as you say."

Every single promiss slips into death.

reality

"I'm sorry there's no way of telling when or if she'll ever wake up. Chances are she'll remain comatose until she's ready to face her problems." a doctor explained to a room full of worried people.

"So there's almost no hope she'll ever wake up?" Torrie asked already knowing the answer but hoping the doctor would tell her otherwise instead he nodded and told them they could see her one at a time now before walking away.

Hope is dead

So is she

Serena's dream/Elisien

"Serena, Rini needs you." Pegasus said

Serena (now Serenity): I remember now...Tuxedo Kamen...my beloved Endymion. Before I had always loved looking at the blue planet...that blue planet...and its prince, Endymion. Endymion...who is stronger and cuter than anyone. Because I want to see him, I always went to Earth...but we couldn't see each other like that. Why? Because the people of the moon and the people of the earth cannot be together. That is a god's rule. I couldn't love him...but it was too late... insert from manga when she found out she was the princess she said this

"Serenity please you have to wake up and fight to keep your life."

This is just my existence

Serena looked up at Pegasus and smiled. "Little unicorn I thought I was alone but now that you are here I know I must be close to Earth. Close to Muffin. Is he okay? I wonder if he'll come and visit."

"Sere I know he's worried but he cannot come here to see you, you must go home to see him." Pegasus tried to coax her into going to Darien but she just sat starring with a blank expression. "Princess he needs you to go to him he won't sleep until you wake up."

"Silly little Unicorn I cannot go back. I am dead don't you get it?"

"Serenity please just wake up in the real world Torrie needs you too." Pegasus pleaded now.

"Helios you're afraid of losing Rini but you refuse to let go of Torrie. You're to scared to commit but Rini doesn't even exist so why be afraid Torrie needs you to protect her. Kevin isn't what he seems and Torrie needs to see a familiar loving face."

"I won't alow you to remain here and just give up."

"I didn't give up...I told the little birdie my secret...He made me tell him that damn bird now Mommy's all alone and Lillie where's Lillie little Unicorn...The little birdie she stole that from me.. Are you scared horsie cause the world is gonna chang forever and this place will be the only safe haven from the demon god Chaos."

I failed my mind is blank

My soul used up

Was it my fualt?

Was it even real?

"Princess why are you speaking like that please just go home and fight. You must protect Earth..."

"NO! I can't fight anymore the more I do the more nemies that come. I...i I please Darien save me...I'm so scared...I told I shouldn't have told...Its my fualt they know the brdie knows and mommy and daddy...and and and stop go...go away... please help me somebody help me...It's cold and dark DARIEN!"

Didn't you notice that I wasn't there?

You don't know what it's like

I can't feel it anymore

REALITY HOSPITAL 4:48P.M.

"DARIEN!" eveybody rushed into the to see her eyes open and bleeding. Rini appeared with Helios. "No I told them NO! My mother she's mine you can't hurt her. Please stop! This is my fualt!" Serena shouted histerically and began to thrash and pull out the many needles that were in her arms. Darien had to help the orderlies pin her down so the doctor could sedate her. She slumped to the bed tears streaming down her face and she gazed at Darien reaching out a hand to him. He sat next to her and she layed her head on his chest.

Torrie got the doctor and orderlies to leave and walked over to Serena. Tommy came through the window a black suitcase in his hands. He sneered at everybody and Torrie bowed to him.

"Welcome Prince Tommy."

"Princess Torrence I have brought what Blue and Red asked for" He stated simply handing her the suitcase and she took it to the little table next to Serena's bed. She opened it and took out a vile of silvery substance that was among different viles of the same kinda substance only a few were colored differently. She took Serena's arm and stucka needle to the lid of the vile.

"Close your eyes and count to ten Sere. Darien hold onto her tightly." She shot the substance into Serena's arm elciting a piercing scream from her. Serena began to shake violently and tried to pull the needle out of her arm but Darien grabbed her hand and held her until the vile was emptied into her. She relaxed against him her eyes half closed but turning back to her normal silvery blue. Torrie put the vile back into the suitcase and Tommy handed her one with a red substance than took out a suringe and took hold of Serena's other arm.

"Torrence, if this doesn't work I'll though back into the darkness myself." Tommy threatened before drawing black silvery blood from Serena and Torrie shot the red substance into Serena.

Did you forget?

Did I believe it?

"It's worked for me all these years why wouldn't it work for her?" Torrie said giving herself a shot of the silver and red substances at once while Michael drew black blood out of her.

"I have a question." Mina anouced "Why do you guys have a suitcase that says property of well it's english so I'm guessing it says some big American corporation."

"You are correct it belongs to the American government they were doing research on Serena and her sisters. They almost found out what they all were until Torrie snuck into the lab and stole all the blood and other substances they were experimenting with. It turns out the had found an experimental vaccination for the Lunarian disease but they became frantic when the doctor whom discovered it misteriously died from an uknown disease he claimed came from the moon. The government found no other traces of the disease anywhere and said that the doctor was dillusional and his experiments on the four girls was unesisary

and wrong so they locked up the lab and payed no mind when it was broken into and the substances where stolen." Blue explained as Amy examined the substances.

"The black substance is the disease and the others are viles of blood taken from each planets princess and of course Serena and her sisters.We don't know how anybody got your blood but they did." Michael said showing each vile to Amy and telling her which belong to each scout.

Tommy left an agry expression on his face.

"What's with that kid?" Lita asked looking out the window after them.

"Don't worry abut him he's just angry about everything all the time."Serena spoke up walking to the window. "His birthday is next week I wonder what he wants." Serena thought outloud and a shadow apeared behind her before Matt materialized.

"Princess how lovely it is to see you so worried about our boy." He mocked knowing that nobody exept Serena and Torrie and him and Blue knew for sure who Tommy's father was. Serena stiffened and fought the urge to run from him for fear that he would hurt one of her friends to get to her.

"Why must you show up unanouced now the wedding isn't until tomorrow?" Serena aske with out turning around

"Yes and here you arm carrying on with your little affair with that man!"

"Don't be mad at me because he's better than you'll ever be. Why not go complain to my father again?lord knows he won't hesitait to lock me or Torrence up again per your request."

"Whatever princess just remember I control everything you are mine and not his." He said calmly before sitting in a chair next to Blue who glared at him."My darling Blue if you don't stop starring you'll be warming my bed on my wedding night and not your dear princess."

"You touch her and I'll freeze you from inside out and burn you from outside in." Blue threatened

"You make no sense Blue but she is the one that surrendered and promissed o be my wife. Oh but what was that little clause oh yeah I'm not aloud to hurt her little boyfriend or any of her sisters pity Torrie and Alix are growing up into such beautiful women

but I shouldn't be greedy." he once again stood next to Serena and pulled her face up to look at him. She pulled her face away and walked to hide behind Blue. "Pity that he's all you think about even now when your father is threatening this world if you do not become mine as you promissed." Michael was holding Darien back as he tried to get close to Matt to kill him.

Did all the things I promissed come to you?

You are my regret

"You are mine princess never forget that." Matt laughed in amusement at Darien's angry exprssion. "He cannot save you this time." He said before picking up a vase with roses in it and hurling it in Serena's and Blue's direction so it barely missed them and hit the wall just behind them. Serena winced and cluched Blues shirt.

You make me feel insignificant

I feel like nothing at all

"Oh well now that I know where Alix is I can buissy myself with her." Matt dissapeared laughing and Torrie glared at Serena knowing she was the only one that knew where Alix was.

"Serena you told him and you mad at Blue for betraying the moon kingdom at least she never put us in jepeady. Who's to say what he has her doing!" Torrie screamed and Serena looked down in shame "Serena how could you do this to her. She isn't strong enough to fight him Serena answer me." Serena let go of Blue and jumped out the window flying away.

"Serena?" everybody whispered "Usako..." Darien silently prayed.

And you twist the knife in my aching heart to let it bleed

Someday this will all fall apart

6:00 park

A shadowy monster was absorbing peoples energy and taking their star seeds. Serena sat in the middle of the park holding up a blood red heart pendent attatched to a black choker. She wore matching earings and had the same black hollow exprssion as before. She wore a fancy black dress that hung off her shoulders and reached to midthigh icy blue diamonds held up the dess as sleeves. The top of it was a corset that showed her bellybutton before meeting with the seem on the skirt and it was tighed together with red lace and hung to her knee high black boots.

The scouts entered and saw her sitting there as the shawdow took the choker and wrapped it around her neck.She looked up and gave a small smile. They stood in shocked silence as the shawdow materialized into her in a white sundress and smiled wickedly at them.

Hope is DEAD

So is she

"Muffin you came for the wedding I'm so glad you're not angry!" the Serena in white exclaimed and the one on the ground gave a sad smile. "Oh and the rest of you must get ready your outfits are all wrong for bridesmaids." she continued and they all just looked on in confusion.

"How do you like it we've decided to move up our wedding and have it in the park of course we had to clear all the univited people." Darien noticed Serena's vacant state as she sat on the ground and he walked up to her. He pulled her face in his hands and asked her if she was ok. "Oh dear Endymion she can't hear you she's given up and has become mine."

Drien ignored him took her hands in his she looked up at this and pulled his hands to her face closing her eyes pressing her cheek against his hand.

"Muffin." the Serena in white whimpered and clutched her head. "No stop. These hands they're so warm...so loving and gentle...my love...mine I want to go home...Darien...home!"

This isn't even existence

And the dreams you had for me

Made me feel insignificant

You make me nothing

'Serenty pull yourself together! He doesn't love you I do! I know what's best for you!' Her fathers voice echoed in her head and both of them pushed Darien away. The star locket fell from his pocket and began to play. Memories flooded her mind and she pulled herself back into one.

-Memories-

The moon locket played in Sernity's hand as she sat next to Endymion. He was sad and had come to the moon for the first time to see her. His generals hand betrayed him and were planning to attack her kingdom with Queen Berl. She told him that they would always be together no matter what.

"My father cannot tell me who to love. I won't marry Matt and when this is over we'll be together." She promissed and he smiled weakly.

"You know I love you Sere but we can't be together. Your father would lock us up."

"Endymion I have to tell you something." she said craddling her stomache he looked at her his eyes pleading for her to continue."Endy I'm gonna have a baby. He's yours and my father would take him away if he ever found out. All I want is to live and raise a familiy with you Endy. All I want is for our child to grow up without the rules and people pointing out the differences of both his people and why he shouldn't be. I just wanna live and make you happy." she handed him the star locket and got up. He followed her and wrapped his arms around her placing his hands over her stomache and kissing her temple

"We'll find a way to protect him and be together."

Will life get easier?

Will this all change?

A four year old Serena screamed as her father picked her up and dragged her to the edge of a cliff. She looked down and noticed a car with two people in the front and their son sat in the back.

"Do it! Kill the enemy!" He shouted and she used her mind to force the car over the cliff. Her father leftfeeling satisfied and she jumped down to where the car lay burning. She reached into the car and pulled out the boy.

"I'm sorry Darien I didn't want to hurt your parents or you."

End memories

"Serena." Her father apeared and held her she didn't fight. She just stood as he placed a black veil on her head

Let me throw away the pain I'm feeling

And if you capture me

"I'll be the priest. You two are gonna get married now." Matt smiled and with a wave of his hand the scouts were dressed in black bridesmaid dresses. "Now Endymion you're more than welcome to stay for the wedding but I asure you there is no way you can stop it."

"Usako don't marry him you deserve to be happy." Darien pleaded as Serena walked over to Matt and took his hand.

"Muffin leave. I do not want any of you here to see this"

If the darkness finds me

If it fills my veins

I'll surrender to it

"I told you she belongs to me Endymion." Matt laughed and an invisible forcefield surrounded them. Darien tried to run to her but was thrown back.

"NO Darien!"Serena screamed breaking out of the shield

To satisfy this lonelyness

It's best left behind

"You bitch you're mine! Get back here now!" Matt shouted chasing after her. He caught her by the arms. "Mine and nobody elses."

"No! No please he's hurt. I have to help him. Please let go."

"You go to him and I'll kill you." he threatened she starred at Darien who was bleeding and lieing unconcious. Than she made up her mind and ran to Darien. Matt raised his hand and shot fire at her. She was hit but still kept running.

What is this strange desire to die?

Always calling to me

It's never satisfied

So let it consume me

She collasped by his side bleeding siver blood."I love you muffin.I'm sorry that I hurt you Darien wake up."

"Serena do not betray your people. Get back here now!" her father shouted

"I hate you father!" Serena cried healing Darien and then dissapearing.

Hope is dead

So am I

She sat in a deathly silent black void.

I am alone

I am silent in surrender

This is only existence

Failed, Dark, Empty and used up existence.

"I give up." Serena cried to a tall figure with long golden hair and seagreen eys.

"SSHH princess don't worry it'll be alright we'll make them pay."