Chapter 10 – Thoughts and Deeper Reactions

*Harry's Reaction*

         …It's not my fault I'm usually unconscious when I come into the infirmary Snape, it just happens that way.  Harry thinks to himself when he walks into the bathroom.

         Damn Bloody Slytherin!  I don't understand how that greasy bastard could be somewhat civil one minute and be a complete jerk another.  What the hell did I do to deserve the way he treats me?  Nothing, absolutely nothing, well maybe I did a few things…Harry's thoughts drift off towards the end of the Tri Wizard Tournament and the resurrection of the Dark Lord.

         As Harry reaches the sink, after taking care of business, he washes his hands and splashes his face with some cold water.  Looking up into the mirror, Harry freezes.

         Holy Shit!  I totally forgot about this, why the hell do I look so different, I look almost exactly like Snape, well except for the nose which is a good thing.  But, what the hell is going on here.

         Alright, calm down Harry, it's not too much of a problem, just look at the facts before you go jumping to conclusions that'll just lead to harmful circumstances.

         Fact 1:  I somehow changed my appearance when I turned 15.

         Fact 2: Either no one else can see it or they already know what's happening and will tell me when they feel I'm ready.

         Fact 3: Snape seems to be trying to act civil for once.

         Fact 4: Draco is really, really cute….what the hell, where the bloody hell did that come from?

         Fact 4…err the real fact 4: Snape seems to be sincerely worried, even if he doesn't show it all the time.

         Fact 5: Well there really isn't another fact except that I'm most definitely going to figure what's going on today…I'll just have to go ask Snape about it, it won't be to hard after all…I think

         Well, lets see, Snape's nicer, yes, but that could just be because he feels guilty about what happened, or it could be something else.

         I'm guessing everyone can see how I truly look because I remember seeing a surprised look on Snape's face at one point.

         Well that certainly didn't help me out at all did it? 

         Harry just keeps looking at his reflection for a moment before scowling at how his thoughts were not helping him, only to jump back from shock.

         What the Hell?  I just looked exactly like Snape when I did that…this has got to be some sick joke or something, the only way anyone could look as much like Snape as I did would have to be either a twin or his…his child!

         Wow, slow down Harry, that cannot possibly be true…I can't be the greasy bastards son…it's just not right, after all, we both despise each other don't we?

         Another voice from inside his head decided to speak up at that moment, it sounded weirdly like Professor Dumbledore.  'Ah but Harry, Snape has been kinder to you has he not within the last couple of days?'

         Looking back into the mirror decidedly, Harry turns to walk to the door, every thought completely focused on confronting the Potions Master.

         As he opens the door, he locks eyes with Severus, unconsciously asking the truth with his eyes.  He was quite surprised to see the surprise and sorrow held within those eyes, he knew from that moment that it was true, he was a Snape.

         He heard his own voice from far away asking the questions and from an equally far distance, heard Severus's answer.

         He had a father, a real live relative besides the Dursleys.  Even if it was the most hated Professor of Hogwarts, he had a living relative that maybe didn't hate him as much as the Dursleys, after all, Snape hadn't really done anything hurtful in a while, and what he did in class was probably the hate he had for his fa–James Potter.

         I have a father, but does he want to be my father, he said he loved my mother so that helps, at least I wasn't a complete mistake then.  Oh God, what are Sirius, Ron and Hermione going to do?  How are they going to react?  They're going to hate me, what am I going to do?

         Harry knew that he was having a breakdown but he oddly didn't care, he just found out he had a father that may possibly care for him like no one else has ever cared for him, he cared a little bit about being a Snape, but that was only because of how Severus had treated him over the years.  He didn't know what to do, he desperately needed some consolation, but the only person here was Snape, could Snape care enough about Harry to comfort him?

         What the hell am I thinking, I should hate the bastard for hitting up my Mum! 

         The other voice came back, 'yes, but aren't you somewhat happy?  You just found out you have a father that is alive, don't go throwing this away just because of something that you cannot change.'

         Harry grudgingly agreed and flung himself into Severus's arms, prepared just incase for the arms to deny him and push him coldly away, so he was very surprised when warm arms hesitantly circled his waist.

         After crying for a little while, Harry's last thought before slipping into a light, restless sleep was, after all, there will be plenty of time to be furious at him later won't there?

*Severus's Reaction*

         That went all lot better then I ever thought it would.  How can he just except me after everything that I've done, I would hate me if I were in his shoes right now.  I've treated the poor boy terribly over the years and there's no one that regrets that more than me.

         He must be in shock or something, I was expecting to see hate or anger in those eyes, maybe even a lot of confusion, but never the hope the dominated over all the other emotions.  Perhaps I have a chance after all, it might take a while, but it might just work…

         Hmm…He's asleep, he looks so innocent like that, not the troubled teen that he is, I just hope that I'll be able to release him from some of the burdens he has to live with, starting with getting him through what the damn Dursley's did to him…

*Draco's Reaction*

         What the Hell?  Harry's Sev's son?  How is that possible, wait no, don't answer that, I do not need that picture right now…anyways how can Harry's be Sev's son?  They are nothing alike, well maybe they are now…but why did he look like Potter before?  It must have been a charm or something, Lucius said something about Lily being a genius at Charms a long time ago now that I think about it.

         Anyways back to the topic, if Harry's Sev's son, will it interfere with our new, if unstable friendship?  Will it help it or make it worse?  Why is he even here in the first place?  Damn, I have way too many questions and not enough answers…guess I'll have to bug Sev into telling me when he gets a chance…

TBC.

Hey, I know this is short, but I only wanted to get their individual reactions down…I know that Harry's is really long and not very well written, but I did my best everyone.  Anyways, I'll probably have maybe one or two more of these type of chapters throughout the story…and they will all be shorter than a regular chapter, after all…only so much can occur within ones' thoughts.

Anyways, thanx everyone for their reviews…umm….now I forgot what I wanted to say to everyone…and I'm to lazy to get onto aol…ill answer some of them in my next chapter which should come out tomorrow…I think…I was planning on having it out tonight along with this one...but, well…I got kinda sick this morning so I couldn't work on it today…sry!  Well R&R and ENJOY!