Sorry this chapter is a bit late in posting. Everything got crazy last week with exams, me trying to make sure I was caught up in my subjects after missing a week of school, then I was sick for a day. You know, fun stuff. Anyways I'm off this week so I should have no problems in getting chapter 5 up on Sunday, maybe even chapter 6 if I'm in a good mood and have the time. Life is so busy for teenager these days.
Das Kätzchen, Dass in der Dunkelheit Verloren Ging
Chapter 4: Hiding in the Dark
So Omi cut his wrists. He experimented with other places a few times, his ankles, abdomen; less noticeable places that he could cut and wear a t-shirt without anyone seeing the marks. Winter was coming upon Tokyo, however and he returned to his wrists and allowed for the excuse of the cold weather to explain why he wore only long sleeved shirts.
He hated to admit it, but he was becoming an addict. He honestly did think about telling the others about his cutting, and that he remembered what had been done to him. By that time, the event had been erased from the oldest member of Weiss' mind and the teen didn't even think that they would remember it if he brought it up. He was alone in his pain and suffering; lost in the dark.
It wasn't that bad. He had his knife to keep him company. With each new cut, it was all he could do to keep away the hands that still tried to caress his body constantly and at night fend off the nightmares that threatened to overtake him. Or maybe it already had? What did it matter; as another line was made across his wrist and red blood came to the surface. Only his blood could cover the filth he saw on his skin. Only his blood, not the blood of the beasts he continued to kill.
Life was back to normal, selling flowers by day and killing by night. The only thing that his teammates noticed and talked about was the hacker's sudden behaviour change around girls. He couldn't stand to be around them for them to be touching him. To put it simply, he did not trust them. They all had that look of lust and want in their eyes when they looked at the teen. It unnerved him greatly, it was easiest just to avoid the opposite sex whenever possible. Thus, when working in the shop he stayed in the back, or always ran the deliveries.
Ken had brought this up with Youji only once while they were manning the flower shop alone. Omi was off doing deliveries and Aya…. Aya just wasn't there at the moment.
"Is it normal for him to be acting like this? He never seemed to mind the swarms before, but now he seems to be avoiding almost any girl. Won't never stand near Manx when she comes around."
"It is normal for victims of rape to have some kind of reaction afterwards, Ken." Youji responded lighting a cigarette. "Every victim reacts differently. No one is the same when it comes to this."
"Still, all the girls from his fan club are starting to threaten a riot if he doesn't at least walk through the shop sometime soon. I don't know, Youji. Something worries me."
"Give the kid sometime, Ken. He isn't Superman or something." Youji joked taking a drag of his cigarette.
"True, but he said he forgot what happened. If that is true, then why does he avoid women so much as if he is afraid they might do something to him?" Ken stated, sitting up straighter on his stool looking directly at Youji as the older male exhaled smoke from his lungs.
"That is probably a subconscious reaction that also surpassed the memories of his rape. Somewhere in his head, Omi probably doesn't understand it either. But it is the subconscious mind's job to protect so he isn't questioning his actions."
Ken gave Youji a look as if to say, "Where the hell did that come from?" The player only laughed as the door opened and a woman in her 20's stepped inside. Youji stood up turning his attention away from Ken and onto the woman putting his charms to work. The ex-soccer player could only sigh watching Youji try to seduce this woman.
A few minutes later, there were the sounds of Omi's return from doing deliveries. He called out to Ken something about going to do some homework and Ken let him go. No matter what Youji said, he was still worried about the teen. Something wasn't exactly right.
Awe, I only got one review last time. Oh well, probably proof that my writting sucks. Meh, my Gundam Wing betareader always told me to write for myself frist and others second. Otherwise none of my ideas were going to get onto paper...probably right too. Anyways...
Omi-kun - I suppose if you like getting rape. Bit more angst here at the start. There is a lot a bit later but for the time being I don't know. But you are right. Omi angst and probably Ken angst are the best out of the Weiss boys. SchuSchu angst is pretty good too. Thank you for the review.
And please please review. Even if it just, "I read it. Its horrible" I don't care...well I do a little. Constructive critism is always welcomes. Flames will be used to light Youji's ciggs.