Despite his best intentions, it took Anakin almost half a standard hour to read his son's letter.
Dear
I wasn't sure what to call you since I have only known you for less then a standard week. You are biologically my father, I have your genes but I am not your son in love and commitment, only blood.
I can't really define how I feel right now, I am more confused then ever, my life has always been straightforward I was a senator's son, I would grow up to be one too.
You came into my life with the bravado of the old stories of Jedi I have heard of. Mum instantly became different, much more tense and unnerved, I admit that I had thought that you and mum may have had a love affair in the past but this….well I never even considered it.
I am really, really angry right now. I guess you can understand that. I wondered distantly why I never had a father, but I got on with life. I had Mum, I was happy.
And now…
And now I am angry.
It seems absurd, I am a senator. It is how I feel though and I want to talk to you but it's so hard. I don't know you. I want to.
But this is so hard to understand.
I'm sure you and Mum thought you were doing right but you weren't you ruined everything, everything that we believed in. I can't look at you or talk yet which is why I am writing this letter. It isn't coherent but it's important.
You Anakin Skywalker are my father, Padme Amidala my mother and Leia Skywwalker my sister. I don't understand how we all fit together, what we are planning to do or are you and Mum going to rip us apart again because you can't face each other. Now we are in a mess that seems far from easy to figure out. You a Jedi and my mother a senator who spends most of her time on Naboo.
Do you plan to come back? Claim a place as my father after sixteen years? Or is this just a drop in visit? Hi I'm your father but at least you've met me.
I am speaking from my emotion, a lesson I have learned from Leia. I'm glad that I have met Leia-she looks a lot like Mum, did you look at her and think of Mum every day? I suppose I could ask mum the same question.
Was it easy to pick which kid you wanted or did you just pick a name at random? Was I not a good enough Jedi? Was Leia not a good enough Senator?
I don't expect any answers, I am almost frightened to find out your excuses. Past is past and nothing can be done about it.
What is important is what's going to happen now.
His son was profound, human and wise. He wished he hadn't wasted so much time, time but as his son had said now was what was important. There was more to the letter but this was addressed to Padme.
What were they going to do now?
Anakin didn't know.
