Chapter 2.
My poem to Merry: (Pippin's POV)
"The only thing I can say, is that: 'You are my everything!'..."
I put the pen down and look at my poem, my poem to Merry. My tears are falling upon it.
I sit at the table in the hole that I share with Merry and drink beer. Of course, that's nothing strange, I've been drinking before. I'm a hobbit, after all. But back then, it was to have a good time with good friends, and then probably end up unconscious in a ditch somewhere, and wake up without the slightest clue how I got there. This time it is different, this time I drink for the single cause of becoming unconscious, I drink to forget. But for some stupid reason, it doesn't work. I'm as sober now as I was when I started drinking.
Every time I close my eyes, I see his face, I see the anger flash in his eyes, and in my mind I see his face turn into a grimace of disgust and hate. I throw the empty cup away, rise from the chair and wipe my tears away with my sleeve.
I know what I have to do now. I must leave, maybe forever. I must do it now, before Merry gets home. If I wait, I'll lose my courage.
But before I go, I have to let him know how I feel. I take the tearstained poem and put it on his bedside table where I know he will find it.
Then, I leave...
Dearest Merry !
You're my support, my source of energy
you're my will and my comfort.
You make my heart swell with pride
and causes love to rise and grow in my chest
And when you're hurt, and you seek my comfort,
you make me feel strong when I support you.
You fill me with eagerness and encourage me,
you're my inspiration and my passion.
You are the light that shines in my world,
when darkness is ruling inside me.
You are the darkness that lets me rest my eyes,
when the light in my life is blinding me.
You are my soulmate and my love forever.
You are my hope, my joy and my peace.
Promise me that you will always be near me,
today and tomorrow and for eternity
How can I, in words, even try to explain,
how much I love you and everything you are?
How much I want to be with you, forever and always.
The only thing I can say, is that:
'You are my everything!'
I love you,
Pippin