Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha bla bla bla, just my Hoshi and Aura's Aura…. KK?

I am getting lazy with up dates because it looks like no one but people I know actually read this and like it…So I'm about to cancel it on Fan Fic if I don't get any R&R's.

Chapter 9 (I think) Hoshi's confession.

As Hoshi sat upon the roof of the inn Miroku had found she held her necklace in her hand. It was glowing a soft light blue, sadness.

'Why am I sad?' she thought to herself, 'Aura is finally happy, and I finally got to see her again, but I lost her again. Lord Sesshomaru better make sure she hasn't gone off alone.'

The sky was so gorgeous on that night, it was a full moon and all the stars were alight. Hoshi was getting lost within her own thoughts and hadn't noticed Miroku was standing just watching her. She was the most gorgeous creature he ever met. She was a demon yes, but she didn't want to kill him. Her eyes were so full of sadness and hope, yet the sparkled when she smiled. He realized it now, he was falling for her.

Yes there was always Sango to think about, but she was growing into her own person, deciding on a new life. He could always be her friend, and would always love her, but with Hoshi. She seemed like she needed him more, she is troubled.

"Hey what are you doing up there?" He called up, noticing her snap out of a little dream made him smile.

Hoshi stared down at him, "Thinking," was all she said.

"Hoshi, you want to go after her don't you?" he asked, before adding, "She is your sister and I know you don't want to lose her again."

Hoshi glared at him and stood up, "Houshi-sama you don't understand the half of it!" she almost hissed and disappeared into the direction they had been going before they stopped.

"Men…They're all the same," she muttered to herself and continued on alone.

The Sky was bright and at peace with only the stars and the moon covering the black. Hoshi was just walking in a quiet field as the fire flies danced on the grass. She was alone again on a beautiful night, as Hoshi's necklace began to glow with sadness again.

'Why do I feel so sad?' she thought to herself, 'I haven't lost Aura forever, I know that. Only….It seems that I will always be alone. I push the people that try to get close to me away, and that is fine for me. It just hurts me so much. Yet, love can only bring pain, and hurt others. Love is the most painful thing in the world…I don't want to feel that way again.

Aura…She was hurt by love, yet she has found love again. I wish I could be like her.'

Hoshi found herself by a calm river, and decided to sit. All she wanted to do was stare at the night sky and forget. Forget her sadness and troubles; it was that sky was what she wanted to be closer to.

It was then that she broke out into a peaceful song to get her feelings out. She never knew why but when she sang the world around her world around her just seemed to disappear. She could hear nothing but the sound of her voice, See nothing but that vast sky, and feel nothing but the beet of her heart. For the first time ever she realized that her singing put her to tears.

"You know your voice is truly memorizing," a voice said from behind her and it caused her to jump. She quickly turned around to see Miroku standing, staff in hand, and a look of concern in his eyes.

"Go away Miroku you shouldn't have followed me," she muttered and looked away.

"I couldn't help myself," he admitted, "When you ran off, you just seemed so sad, I wanted to see if you were alright," he sat down next to her.

"Well houshi-sama, as you can see there was nothing to worry about. I am fine, and not sad," she said not looking at him.

He eyed her slightly, "That's not what your necklace says Hoshi," he said with a small frown.

Hoshi looked down, he was right her necklace was glowing a bright light blue. She quickly hid it under her kimono.

"Ok houshi-sama you caught me…I came out here to escape from my feelings. I mean I…Can't believe I lost her so… so soon." Her voice was sad, almost heart tearing. It reminded Miroku of how Sango would talk about her brother. Maybe that is why that he felt attracted to her.

"Hoshi," Miroku explained, "Like you said Aura is fine, I can feel it. That is not the only thing bothering you.

Hoshi couldn't look into his eyes, she was afraid to answer him, and afraid to look into those violet eyes. They were almost powerful, she felt drawn to them. It scared her she wanted to be away from them.

When she wasn't answering Miroku began to worry a little, and get a little annoyed. "Hoshi please talk to me," he pleaded. He placed a hand on her chin to turn it, to make her look him in the eyes.

She pulled away; she wasn't going to let her self get weak and fall into his power. "Miroku don't make me look at you," she pleaded.

"Why? What don't you want me to see?" he asked.

"Because I'm afraid;"
"afraid of what Hoshi? It's only me."

There was no holding back for her any more and her lip began to quiver slightly, "I'm afraid I'll fall in love with you!" she yelled and pulled away from him and quickly stepped on top of the river with tears streaming down her face.

Miroku was quite shocked for a moment, but managed to stay on topic.

"Why Hoshi?" he asked standing up and tired to wait in the water, it was freezing, "Are you afraid that you are going to love a human?"
"No it's not that Miroku," she said between sobs, "I don't want to fall in love at all, not with a human, and demon…Not anyone!"

Miroku couldn't take the water temperature any longer and waited out of the water feeling bad that he failed to reach her. "Hoshi I…" was all he managed to say.

"Miroku please just go," she said, not even turning to him.

"No I can't leave you like this Hoshi, I couldn't forgive myself if I did," he explained. "Please just come over here so we can talk, I promise I won't do anything."

Hoshi was a little reluctant at first. She turned her head to stair into those eyes, those pleading eyes that both threaten and adore. (Ok I stole that line from Phantom of the opera, kill me I love it to much.) With one foot at a time she slowly stepped off of the river bank and faced him looking down rather then in the eye.

"Hoshi listen to me," he said and gently placed his hands on her shoulders, it made her flinch slightly, but she didn't move her eyes. "There is no need to be afraid of love, afraid to love. It is something so wonderful that no one should be without."

"But Miroku," she said in a small voice, "Look what love has done to me! Aura was sent away because my father couldn't accept who she was, and my mother was too afraid to defend her. So they sent her away, I lost the only person who cared about me. I lost the only person I considered family.

My parents said they loved me, but really I was just there to prove that there was no "tainted blood" within our family line. So they put me to work, and I was trained to be a fighter, and killer. I hated every minute of it… I was only able to find a friend within Inuyasha. Yes he was an outcaste, but the only one that really understood me.

My father always wanted me to be someone I didn't want to be, he wanted me to work for Lord Sesshomaru's father's army as a killer. He wanted me to kill humans and lesser demons. They didn't even care if I got hurt, they would only push me harder and harder. It was only my mother who seemed like she cared about me.

That day when they were killed we were fighting, they didn't want me to see Inuyasha and more, they wanted me to kill him…He was their master's son and they wanted me to kill him; my only friend. So I ran, I ran away from that house to cool off.

I don't know what compelled me to go back home that day…I found the home in flames, and my parents gone. I hated them, but… How could I not love my parents? I vowed then and there I would find their killer.

I am the reason they were killed, if I hadn't had that stupid fight with them, if I hadn't run off…I could had helped them, protected them. I…I could have done something! I feel so much pain because of them; I can't love it just hurts everyone!"

Hoshi finally totally broke down into tears and fell at Miroku's feet, she clenched her fisted and couldn't no matter how hard she tried to stop her tears from flowing. She realized soon after that Miroku had dropped down as well and wrapped his arms around her. She fell into his chest and just continued to cry.

"Hoshi," he said in a comforting voice, "Please take it from someone who knows what it is like to lose a parent. Someone who knows that thought you weren't truly loved as a child that love is something not to let go of. That it is something that doesn't cause pain, but happiness." He moved her a little, and held up his Kazada (sp) for her to see. "In this hand I have a curse, a wind tunnel, or a hell hole. This hole will suck up everything in its path, I have used it agents numerous demons in the past. It has even saved my life a few times. You may be thinking, why is that great power a curse if it saves lives? There is a down side to this hell hole; one day it will consume me like it did my father and grandfather. I was a little boy when I saw my father being consumed by his, and I fear that every day it will do the same to me. So every day I ask a woman to have my child. For if I do die, he will have to continue me family's quest to kill the one who did this. I try to find the one girl I can love, not just because I need to, but because love has made my life happier. If I didn't have the love of my step-father, or my friends I wouldn't be sitting with you. I would have givin up a long time ago."

Hoshi was speechless; she had calmed her tears and just sat listing to Miroku's sad story. She now knew why he was such a hentai, but… She felt sorry for him; it was almost pity, but maybe. She could love him, he knew her. She gathered up her fears and stared into his eyes. They were soft, kind and full of love. Yet behind all those she saw is pain and fears. It almost scared her.

Within a moment he leaned over and kissed her. He had been expecting her to pull away and slap him, but nothing. She was almost frozen with his sweet genital kiss. The wall around Hoshi's heart was beginning to crumble…She was falling for him and couldn't stop it. She began to trust that he wouldn't hurt her.

Pat pat

Hoshi's face turned red and she pulled away quickly, "HENTI!" She yelled as his hand pulled away from her ass and he fell to the ground twitching with a large red mark on his face. She hissed slightly and stood up and began walking back towards the village. With a small smile on her face, and a light red color over her cheaks.

Miroku recovered from the blow to his face and stood up rubbing his cheek gingerly, 'man she hits harder then Sango," he thought to himself and began to follow Hoshi back to the others.

Ok peeps another chapter done, and PLEASE PLASE! R&R K? pout