Rachel changed Emma's diaper and gently rocked her to sleep in her arms. 'Sweet dreams angel…' she whispered as she gently placed her in her crib, making sure she wasn't too hot she wrapped a thin sheet over her and kept the window open slightly. She crept out of the room quietly, closing the door slightly before walking back into the front room.

Ross was sat outside on the balcony staring outside with a drink in his hand. Rachel opened up the sliding doors to join him. 'We need to talk…' she began.

He looked up at her. 'I think we do…' he agreed. 'I don't want to argue Rach…'

Rachel pulled up a chair next to him. 'And do you think I want to argue? No I don't Ross…' She told him firmly.

'Rach…you don't know how hard it was for me back there…' he explained to her.

'What was hard Ross? If you tell me that…Maybe we will get somewhere…' she asked him, with her hand now resting on his arm.

'…Because of the way you are Rach, You don't see the bad side of people…like that guy before, you wasn't aware of what he was doing, he wanted to have you Rach…he knew you were with me but he was playing on that fact…' Ross told her.

'But Ross…'

'No Rach, let me talk..' he begged. She nodded letting him continue.

'When we first started dating those years ago, I remembered everywhere we would go, men would look at you and they would look at me…but they would look down at me because they probably didn't understand what a beautiful woman like you was doing with somebody like me…' he continued.

Rachel squeezed his arm. Still remaining silent, allowing him to speak.

'I absolutely adore you Rach and when men like that act that way around you, it makes me feel angry and I hate the way you don't realise it…'

'I do realise it but I just choose to ignore it Ross, if I react to them, it only makes them worse…'.

'I don't expect you to react Rach…but I just wish you could be more aware, and I wish you could understand the way I see it…'

'I do Ross…You need to understand that, but what really can I do to prove to you that I actually do care and understand about your feelings?' she asked him now feeling frustrated with him.

'…Oh I don't know Rach, with you I feel so…so…'

'What Ross?'

'I feel different with you than I have for any other woman, you mean too much to me and anything about you worries me and some days I feel as though you are too much for me to take but on the other hand…. without you, I wouldn't be the same….'

Rachel let out a small cry and rubbed his thigh.

'You see Ross…With me, I know how long you have loved me and I know that you have had heartache in your past like me too…I feel as though I let you down sometimes…like today' she cried.

Ross grabbed hold of her arm. 'You never let me down Rach…'.

A tear ran down Ross's cheek. 'My love for you is too overwhelming…I sometimes feel tired from it'

'My love for you is something that I've never experienced Ross, You know why? Because its real…' she told him now kissing his hands.

'Rach…' he moaned as she ran kisses up his arm then onto his face, which was running with both tears and sweat.

'I'm going to show you how much I love you Ross…' she told him.

The two of them kissed passionately. It was too much to handle. Their breathing became heavier as their kisses became stronger. Before they were aware, they were fondling one another on the sofa, the balcony doors still wide open letting a cool breeze inside.

They had been 'at it' for quite a while now. Ross was feeling the heat against his skin and sweat was rolling from his forehead. For some reason, Sex with Rachel was always better after a huge fight or disagreement. Like today, it was as though Sex was the only way to solve their problems. If only.

Somehow they had made it across to their bedroom from the sofa where they had begun, Rachel was laying on the bed with just a vest on which didn't leave much to the imagination anyway. Ross had only a pair of boxers on now as he climbed out of the bed.

'Where you going?' Rachel asked him, attempting to pull him back on top of her. There was nothing more that Ross would have liked but he was aware that it was past 5pm and they were due to go out this evening. 'Hon, we have to go out soon…' he reminded her.

'Huh?' Rachel asked him, now sitting upright.

'We're going for dinner with Emily, remember?' Ross told her.

Rachel gasped. 'Oh no…I don't want to go, I totally forgot…'.

Ross stopped what he was doing for a moment. 'Rach, we have to go…' he told her.

Rachel sighed. 'I know we do…but…'

Ross moved closer to her again,' It wont be too bad sweetie…' he promised, kissing her neck sending shivers down her body. 'I love you…' he told her before continuing to put on his clothes.

Rachel heard Emma crying from the baby monitor which was next to her,' I'll get Emma ready then…' she told him as she sprung from the bed. Ross got up to make a call to the guys back in New York. They hadn't called them yet and he imagined that he better do it now while he had the time.

' Now sweetheart, I think its time we got your diaper changed…' Rachel said to her daughter as she picked her up from her crib. 'We're going to a nice restaurant tonight angel…Shame that it wont just be us but that's just the way things go…' Rachel chatted on as though Emma could understand her.

Rachel was still thinking about her small argument with Ross earlier on today, she knew that Ross always had things on his mind even when he had everything he would need. There was always something that bothered him. She wished he would just be happy without having to worry, she couldn't quite understand what went on with his mind but she wanted to do her best to sort everything out.

'Don't you worry sweetheart, our holiday will get better after tonight….' Rachel promised her daughter. It had only been 2 days since they had been travelling from New York but Rachel felt as though everything hadn't gone to what they had planned, especially after their blast from the past at the beach the previous day.

'How about we go to the zoo tomorrow huh?' Rachel asked her daughter who was busy playing with her mother's hair. ' That would be nice…' Rachel said, kissing her daughter on the forehead.

Just as she was dressing Emma, Ross entered the room with the phone in his hands. 'Rach…'.

'Yeah?'

'I've just been on the phone to Chandler, he had some news for us….' He told her.

Rachel rested Emma on her hip,'Whats happened?' she asked, assuming something awful must have happened.

'…You know Mon and Chan went to the fertility doctor last week?' Ross began. Rachel nodded,'Yeah…'

'Well, Unfortunately they got the news that they…they…'

'They cant have children can they Ross?' Rachel jumped in looking as though she might cry.

Ross nodded. 'Chandler was devastated…' he added.

'They cant have children?…Urggghhh, this is awful' Rachel said, her lip trembling. Seeing her disappointment, Ross approached her putting his arms around both her and Emma. 'I know, its just enough to ruin this vacation…'. Rachel hid in the nape of his neck, with Emma still in her arms resting on her shoulder. 'Monica must be heartbroken…' Rachel said. 'We should go home…'

Ross nodded. 'I think your right…Maybe we should cut the holiday short' He suggested. 'They need us now…'

Rachel broke into a cry. 'Its not fair Ross…Monica and Chandler deserve a child…' She cried.

'I know, it is just horrible…Chandler asked me to ask you to ring Monica as soon as you can…' Ross told her. Rachel broke down even harder, ' Because of everything else that has happened over the past few days, this just tops it off…' she shouted. Ross could see that her emotions were up the wall, 'Shhhhh, Everything will be better soon…' Ross told her, 'I'll take Emma to get dressed, why don't you ring Monica?' He suggested. 'She probably needs you right now…' he told her.

Rachel nodded. 'Ok…'

Ross wiped a tear from her eye,' Imagine how they must feel…' He said. Trying to make her put everything into perspective, how she was feeling was probably a hundred times more for them. 'I know…your right, I'll ring her…' She said. Pulling herself together.

'Are we still ok for tonight?' Ross checked with her. Rachel looked back at him, Seeing Emily right now wasn't the most ideal wish of hers but staying inside would probably make things much worse. 'Course…Just give me half an hour' She asked of him.