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Forgotten

chapter 5

Pain


Last time: The next morning, Sirius and James were on speaking terms again, and pretended as if it had never happened. The four of us walked to breakfast. I'd tried waking Lily up, but she wouldn't budge.

We went into the Great Hall and began to eat breakfast when the owl post arrived. A regal looking owl swooped down and dropped a letter into Remus's lap.

The next moments seemed to happen in slow motion. The day was Christmas Eve, and it was supposed to be a happy day. Remus opened the letter, and the owl flew away, leaving us to our own devices. He read the letter, then things slowed down even more. He seemed to be frozen where he sat, unable to move, to breathe...

"Remus, pal, you alright?" I asked hesitantly. His eyes filled with tears, then he flung the parchment at me, and ran out of the Hall. Worriedly, I read the letter over.

Dear Mr. Lupin,

It is our sad duty to inform you that your parents, Bryon Lupin and Margaret Lupin, have been annihilated by He Who Must Not Be Named. We send our condolences to you and your grieving party, and hope that you may find residence with someone willing to take you in. In our efforts to vanquish You Know Who, certain people have been sacrificed, and unfortunately, your parents are among them. Again, we send our condolences, and wish you the best.

Sincerely,

Jemima Umbridge

Jemima Umbridge

Undersecretary of The Minister of Magic

"Oh Merlin." I whispered. I handed the letter over to Sirius and James, then ran off to find Remus.

I found Remus hidden in a corner on the other side of the castle. His knees were drawn up to his chest, and his face was buried in his hands.

"Oh Merlin Remus, I'm so sorry." I whispered dropping to my knees. I went up to him, and tried to hug him, but he lashed out at me. I drew back just a little, then grabbed him and pulled him into a hug. "I'm sorry Remus, you have no idea." I whispered. He didn't speak, but suddenly, he latched onto me, and began to sob into my jumper. I hadn't worn a robe that day. Suddenly, he spoke, his voice hoarse.

"It's not fair. We left them, and they died. He killed them, and I wasn't there to save them." he croaked. I felt something warm trickle down my face, and I knew I was crying too. I'd met Remus's parents, and they'd been exceedingly nice to me, despite who I was. I felt so bad for Remus, though I knew there was nothing I could do. Just then, Sirius and James came running up, a look of pure shock written into their faces.

"Moony man, we're so sorry." whispered James. Sirius nodded.

"I wouldn't know what it was like Moony, but Gods, I'm sorry man." he said. I looked up at the two of them, they were crying silently as well. Remus lifted his head, shortly, just to nod at them, then continued to sob.

I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.

Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.

We sat there, the four of us, in a shadowy corner of the castle, and we mourned. We mourned for Remus's parents, and I held him as he cried. I could tell he was angry, upset at the world, when he'd finally quit crying. I knew he wanted to hex something, curse something, I could see it in his eyes.


It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes.
And she's not breathing back.Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Nevermind these are horrid times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.

I sought out my courage, then whispered.

"Remus." I asked him softly. He looked at me. I could see that angry glint in his eyes.

"Yeah?" he asked sharply. I bit my lip.

"Hex me." I whispered. The three boys gawked at me, but they did nothing. "Remus, I told you to hex me."I said. He shook his head.

"I can't do that Andy! You haven't done anything!" he exclaimed. I shook my head.

"Yes, I know, but I'd rather you just hex me and get it over with, before you really hurt someone. I know you Rem, all three of us do, and I know you'll keep it all bottled inside until you break, and then you're going to hurt someone, really bad. So PLEASE, for your own sake, and mine, just hex me and be done with it!" I pleaded. Sirius interjected.

"Andy? Are you sure you want to do this?" asked Sirius. I glared at him.

"More sure than I've been about anything else in my entire life." I whispered. I looked at Remus. He was biting his lip, I suppose he was thinking.

"Alright, but please forgive me for this. I should never have agreed to this, but please, forgive me. I know you're right, and if I do keep this inside... Don't want to think about it." he said quietly. I nodded, then stood up. I went and leaned against a wall.

"Ok, here's the deal boys. If Remus really hurts me badly, which he's bound to, don't freak out, don't bring me to Pomfrey, understand? Bring me to my dormitory, put me in my bed and we'll be done with it, understand? Also, you can't get mad at Remus, no matter how bad the curse is. Are we clear?" I asked. The three of them nodded. "Ok then Remus, do your worst." I said with a smile.


I never thought I'd walk away from you.
I did.
But it's a false sense of accomplishment.
Everytime time I quit

Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.
It takes my pain away.

Remus walked forward, his hands shaking. He drew out his wand, and he whispered.

"Merlin, forgive for what I'm doing." The he fired a silent curse at me. It was blue, a shocking blue, and when it hit, it stung, badly. Then it began to burn, and I felt myself begin to let in to the dark.

"Good shot." I said, then collapsed.


It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes.
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Never mind these are horrid times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.

Remus looked down at Andy, his hands shaking.

"Oh Merlin... What've I done!" he whispered, falling to his knees once again.

"Rem, it's ok. She told us not to be angry, and we aren't, ok? So let's just get her to her bed!" Said Sirius, reaching down to scoop up Andy.

"NO! It isn't ok! We're NOT bringing her to her dormitory, she's going to Pomfrey, and that's that!" said Remus angrily. Sirius stared at his friend in disbelief.

"Do you honestly want to deal with Andy's wrath when she wakes up? Are you off your rocker!" asked Sirius. Remus glared at him.

"Sirius, I swear if we don't take her to the Hospital Wing, I'll knock you back to Grimmauld Place." hissed Remus. James stared between the two of them.

"But Remus, why are you so keen on bringing her to the Hospital Wing?" asked James. Remus bit his lip.


I can't let it bother me.


It takes my pain away.
It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes.
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Nevermind these are horrid times.
Oh oh oh

"BECAUSE," said Remus, his voice quaking, "I hit her with something bad, something really bad. I hit her with dormio aeternus." Sirius looked shocked.

"But Remus, why would you hit her with that? Do you WANT her to die?" he asked. James suddenly realized something.

"The time limit is going down!" he warned. They nodded, and ran down the halls, Andy in tow as usual.


I can't let it bother me.

It takes my pain

Takes my pain

It takes my pain away

Author's Note: What is it with me and these freakin' cliffhangers, huh? I guess it's just fun! No reviews yet... so please, take the two seconds and review my story, it would be nice to know that someone is reading it! Oh yeah, I wonder... what IS dormio aeternus? Find out next time!