Hi! This is just a random idea that I felt like writing. I wanted to do a short one-shot on Sango because she is one of my favorite Inuyasha characters, and I think she deserves to be wrote about. I hope you enjoy it, and please tell me what you think, but don't flame.
P.S) Its fun to read this story while listening to Sango's theme. My thoughts are driven by music, but I think it makes it sound better.
Sometimes I wonder what happened. I always tear up when I think of it, of that day. I look can look up at the spring sky sometimes, still be sad, and think, 'what the hell happened?' The day I lost everything, my home, my family, and my purpose too, it seems like. Its just, why am I still here? I feel so lost. I'm driven to find Kohaku, my brother, but even then it seems pointless. I'll never give up on finding him, its just...I know that I may never get him back. The old Kohaku, the one I knew. The Kohaku that wasn't tormented by horrible memories. I don't blame him for it. I never have blamed him. I blame Naraku, that bastard, and I blame myself. I should have been able to do something, anything, to prevent it. I didn't see him stop, or pic up the blade, and I was too in shock to stop him from killing father and the others. I blame myself more than anyone. My friends say that I shouldn't blame myself, but what do they know. I just smile, so that I won't worry them. Thats the last thing I want to do. Its my problem, I will deal with it, even if I don't always fix it right somtimes. But I try, thats the only thing that I can do.
My friends always try to help. I don't know why, but I'm always grateful for it, and I always will be. They try their best to understand, and I know that Inuyasha knows what its like to lose something dear to you. On rare occasions we talk about it, I don't really know why. Misery loves company, I suppose. Kagome is one of my best friends, its good to have a female friend to talk too, even if its not about my past or what happened. Miroku, well, thats a totally different feeling entirely. He helps, sometimes. When he's actually worried about me and not my ass, he's actaully quite sweet. Shippo, even as a fox cub, has had experence with loss, and he's nice to hug too. I have to say Kirara is my best friend, she has just always been there for as long as I can remember. She's not just a pet as most think. Even though she can't talk, I know she hurts inside, just like I do. I don't know how I know, the feeling of it is just there. Its a connection I guess.
"Hey Sango," Its Kagome's voice, so I turn around. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine, just admiring the sunset." I say, faking a smile.
"Well, hurry up," Inuyasha says, "We don't have all day."
I nod and start walking, still lagging behind. My friends, I love them all, from crude Inuyasha to sweethearted Kagome, their the only reason for living. We all have our own problems, but we'll all work through them together, now that I think of it, thats a better thing to do. But still... I turn around, and look up at the sky. I feel one lone tear run down my cheek. And I say to no one in perticular, "Kohaku, were are you?" I feel a warmth on my palm, and I look down to see Miroku holding my hand, and turn and see Kirara on my shoulder.
"We'll find Kohaku." he says.
Those simple words were all that I needed to hear right now. I embrace Miroku in a tight hug, not caring that my eyes are pouring out water. Tears of joy or sadness, I couldn't tell the difference. But I do know, that I feel truly happy for the first time all day, and I smile.
What do you think? Please tell me! I need to know if i'm good enough to write good chapter fics later on!