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Chapter 16- Breaking PointKai's POV
When I saw Destiny on Monday, I knew I couldn't do it. I couldn't break up with her. It doesn't make sense, how easy it always is and now I can't.
She started right into how hard the math homework was, taking my hand as we walked to class.
"Kai" Ms. Stokes yelled half way through class, "What is wrong with you today?"
I shook my head, "Nothing"
"Fine then, listen to the lesson then" she replied and turned back to the board. I stared at Destiny, lost in her own thoughts at her desk and then Kate. She smiled and then making sure the teacher wasn't looking she handed me a box. I knew what it was before I opened it. It was the same size and made of the same soft material the one my father had left me. I opened it inside my desk, a plain gold band sat inside. I suddenly felt sick.
Shoving all my papers into my binder I stood up and went for the door.
"Where are you going Hiwatari?" Ms. Stokes asked.
"Don't feel well," I muttered, and I left the room.
I didn't go to next period either. Instead I sat outside under the tallest tree, the ring in my pocket. I took it out and looked it over, fingering the smooth gold.
"What the fuck is that?"
I looked up to see Tala as he bent down to get a better look at the gold ring.
"Ring" I replied bluntly.
"For what?" he tried again, "man, that's probably solid gold"
I shrugged, it made me sick. I put it back into its case and leant back against the solid wood of the tree.
"You want to explain?" Tala asked as he took a seat next to me.
"Go to class"
"Yea, right"
It was cold, but despite being winter there was no snow on the ground.
"Why do you have a wedding ring man?" Tala asked quietly.
I stared at him, taking in his confused look.
"I'm engaged to Kate"
"Are you kidding?"
I shook my head. Tala stared at me in shock.
"Dude, your 16" he finally said. I nodded. There was a long silence and all I could think about was how to tell her.
"I have to break up with Destiny," I told him quietly.
He shrugged, "Yeah well, at least you'll get some from Kate"
I didn't want to sleep with Kate, I didn't care that Destiny wasn't ready. I stood up. I didn't want this, not from my best friend, "Fuck off"
"Hey, I'm just trying to help" he replied indignantly, holding his hands up in defense.
I glared down at him, "It's not working"
I left him there and walked away. I had to find Destiny.
………..xoxo……….
I found her in the art room, she was finished a sketch, bent over at the table. As I got closer I saw it was a drawing of us.
"Hey" I said, barely above a whisper.
She jumped a little in surprise, "Oh hey"
Then as if it just hit her, she covered the picture and blushed. I pulled it out of her grasp gently and then held it up. It looked exactly like us at the company ball.
"I copied it from a picture" she smiled, "They took some of us when we weren't looking"
I looked back down at the sketch; it was true we were looking at each other and not the camera. She stared eagerly at me, waiting for my opinion.
"Good" I said and she grinned, taking it back and then putting it away. I watched her clean up.
"I'll meet you outside" she said. I nodded and left. Standing outside in the deserted hall, I leant against the lockers and tried to figure out how to break her heart.
Destiny's POVI quickly put all my stuff away and then hurried out the door. Closing it behind me I faced Kai next to me. His head was down looking at the floor.
"I'm done," I said and he looked up. For the moment that I got lost in his eyes, I was pulled into a world of misery and regret. The next second Kai's hands were on my waist and I was pressed up against a locker. His kiss was hard and passionate, so unlike the gentle way he always kissed me. His lips crushed mine, his body pressing mine into the locker. I parted my lips just for a moment but he took it and deepened the kiss. I moaned in pleasure, my head spinning and heart beating wildly. When he pulled back we were both breathing heavily.
"Kai?" I whispered unsurely. He said nothing.
"Kai" I said again, "Why did you kiss me like you'll never see me again?"
I think that's when I understood, when it hit me what he meant. I stared at him, transfixed.
"We're over" he said firmly, but his eyes wouldn't stay empty the way his voice would, he wouldn't look into my eyes.
"I-don't… w-why" I stammered, it hadn't settled in yet. No tears, no ache in my heart.
"I'm sorry" Was all he said before he walked away, his footsteps echoing in the deserted hall. As he disappeared around the corner my knees gave way and I collapsed.
...xoxoxo...
When I entered the cafeteria I saw Kai at his usual place, with his elbows on the table and his head in his hands. He wasn't talking to anyone. Kate was standing next to him, her arm over his shoulders. I pushed my jealously away, he was no longer mine.
I walked over toward Cassidy and Mark instead. I ignored his piercing glare as I approached. I sat down next to him and laid my head down on the table.
"Oh, so now we're good enough for you" Mark spat. His words triggered my breakdown. The tears came pouring out and my entire being wracked with sobs.
"A-are you ha-appy? You were r-ight, Ka-ai bro-ke up wi-ith me" I choked out before I started to drown in the pain of my broken heart. He looked utterly bewildered, gaping at me.
Mark and Cassidy wrapped their arms around me and I cried into Mark's shoulder as Cassidy rubbed my back.
When I settled down a little I looked up through blurry eyes at Mark and whispered, "I'm sorry"
He shook his head, "I should be sorry, you really were happy. I was selfish"
Cassidy wiped the tears from my cheeks and I sniffled a little. I felt a little weak and shaky but I managed to stop sobbing.
"But you were right about him"
"But you were so happy Tiny, I couldn't see that before", he said with a guilty smile.
"Yea" I whispered softly, "I was"
"Friends?" he said hopefully.
I smiled, "Best friends"
Through the aching and the pain, a small relief entered my heart. I didn't have Kai, but I had Cassidy and Mark instead. I wonder though, why I can never have both.
…………xoxo………..
I was afraid to go to English. I knew he was in there, sitting in the desk next to mine. I watched as more of my classmates filtered through the door. I took a deep breath and followed them inside. It took all of my will power not to start crying again.
I took my seat silently, and stayed that way the entire class. I didn't look at him and I didn't speak to anyone. It was five minutes to the bell when a folded note dropped on my desk. I hid it from Harold and then read it when he wasn't looking.
Wait for me after class, I want to talk to you-Tala
I was a little surprised to say the least. Tala, the guy who really hated me for reasons I never understood. I wondered if he would tell me why.
When the bell rang I put my stuff together slowly and waited for everyone to filter out. When they did I turned to see Tala staring at me.
"You want to talk?" I said, getting straight to the point.
He nodded and then gestured for me to sit down. I did.
"Her name was Diana Stone," he said. I stared blankly at him.
"She had long straight blonde hair and blue eyes" he continued and then stared at me expectantly.
I understood after a second, "She's like my twin"
He nodded, "She even has the same initials as you. She left half way through grade 10"
"I don't understand why this is important," I said impatiently, looking up at the clock.
"She's the reason I hated you the second I saw you. I saw her in you, and I got hurt all over again" he explained. Hurt? Tala?
"What did she do?" I asked. I never knew Tala could be hurt by a girl before, we were just things to him, things he could use and then throw away.
He sighed, "I fell in love with her, and she broke my heart"
It sounded so strange coming from him. I never would have thought that he could even know what love was. I could see it still hurt him and I could tell that more than anything he wanted to let go. I suddenly say him in a new light. He used girls to get away from the pain and he threw them away because he was afraid of being hurt again. As I stared at the weary redhead, I could see past the strong cocky guy on the outside, and to the lost and hurt one buried deep inside.
"I know you're not her" he said, "And I know, that you're going through the same thing I did"
I laughed softly, "Puppy love"
"No" he replied, "true love"
I stared at him blankly, "I'm not in love with Kai"
He shrugged, "If you say so"
"I do"
A small silence overcame us both, and I stared at Tala, a faraway look in his eyes.
I stood up and then wrapped my arms around him in a hug. When he stood up and hugged me back I couldn't control myself and I wept again, into the soft material of his shirt.
Kai's POV
When Christmas came, Kate was invited to dinner. Kailee had invited Destiny against Voltaire's objections. And she had come, and as we sat at dinner she didn't glance at me once. She didn't laugh, and every smile looked forced and broken. I was the only one who noticed though; no one except Kailee paid any attention to the girl.
After dinner I went up to my room and lay down on my bed. I stared at the ceiling, my head empty and thoughtless. I didn't hear the door open or the footsteps approach my bed. I didn't notice the person until they were on top of me.
"Hey baby" Kate said huskily, and she smashed her lipstick-covered lips onto mine. I shoved her off, but she climbed back on top, sitting herself on my stomach. This time I heard the door open and when I heard someone cry out I knew it was her. I sat up and pushed her off again. Destiny was in the doorway and she was holding my sweater. I remember leaving it at dinner.
"Umm, here. I'm sorry to interrupt" she said softly, a painful expression on her pretty face. She walked into my closet and put it inside. I shoved Kate off of me, more roughly this time.
Kate laughed smugly as Destiny came out of my closet, "Why the long face? Obviously you weren't giving him something. I'm a much better girlfriend wouldn't you say?"
She looked up, the girl with the broken smile, "I guess so"
"Could you leave, we're in the middle of something", Kate smiled sweetly, kissing me quickly before I could stop her. I wiped the lipstick off of my mouth in disgust.
"I never thought you were like that Kai" Destiny whimpered from the doorway, "It looks like I was wrong"
She glanced at me for a second and then left, shutting the door behind her. I stared at the door where she had just stood. Kate starting to unbutton my shirt snapped me back into reality.
"Shall we continue?"
"We never started, get out of my room," I said coldly, tearing her hands off of my shirt. And she did, with out an argument.
"You'll have to sleep with me sooner or later Kai, and get that fucking bitch out of your head" she said before she too, left my room. That's where she was wrong. That was one thing her father couldn't buy her.
Destiny's POV
I never thought he would move on so fast, and I never thought it would be with Kate. I always thought that the one guy Kate could never get was Kai. But apparently, I thought wrong. About a lot of things.
"Kailee" I said when I got back to her room, "I need to get over Kai"
She look a little surprised at first but she nodded, "You need to have some fun, get him out of your head."
I nodded.
"Tala's having a new years party, you should come," she offered and I readily took it. And so we went through her closet in our remaining time to find us some outfits for the party. Kailee tried to pick out different outfits for me but I had found the one I was going to wear buried in the back. And she didn't approve.
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Kailee had made me wear a long coat to the party and almost refused to let me take it off. I gave her a weird look and then handed my coat to the guy in the coatroom. Almost immediately he was staring at me in amazement.
I was wearing a black leather tube top that cut way above my stomach and a leather skirt that just managed to cover my ass. I wore black knee high lace up boots, my silver locket and silver bracelets going halfway up my forearms. I looked like a hooker, but I didn't care.
"Destiny put something on," Kailee pleaded but I waved it off. I drained a few glasses of spiked punch from the table and then headed into Tala's basement. I danced with half the guys on my way to the centre, kissed one of them and let two dance with their hands on my ass. Kailee vanished soon after, she was disgusted with me. I should have been too, but for some reason I didn't really feel anything. I carried on to the centre where Tala, Michael, Ray, Kai, Kate, Rose and Mariah were gathered. Every one of them stared in shock at me as I waved with a huge grin on my face. I had to admit; I looked more like a skank than all of them. Even Kate's mini dress wasn't as revealing as mine. When I should have been disgusted, I was proud.
Tala put his hands on my bare shoulders, "What happened to you?"
I shrugged, taking another swig from my eighth glass of punch. I was feeling giddy and a little tipsy. He took the glass from my hand.
"Oh my god" Rose exclaimed, "You're a whore"
For the first time Rose looked at me with total admiration. I smiled and then made my way over to Michael. Maybe because he was the only one without a date, maybe because I had a little too much to drink, or maybe because tonight it seemed, I was going against everything I believed in.
"Hey you" I giggled as I jabbed his chest with my finger. He looked down at it and then back up at me, a grin on his face. He scanned my body up and down hungrily.
"Wanna dance?" I asked as I took his hands and placed them on my ass. He looked surprised at first, but he got used to it pretty fast. We danced through that song, and than another. I looked up at him during the third and then I kissed him roughly, passionately. When I was kissing him Kai wasn't it my head, my heart didn't hurt. I was almost happy, almost there. Michael became my getaway that night. I could push away the emptiness, I didn't think about Kai when I was there in his arms.
When the song ended he took my hand and led me to the next room. It was a little quieter, and there were couples making out on the couches. We sat down on an unoccupied one, and I giggled drunkenly.
"You look great tonight," he said, and I grinned. Then he leaned down to kiss me again. Somehow I ended up lying underneath him on the couch, and his hands were traveling up my stomach. I pushed them away from my chest absent-mindedly. He broke the kiss and stared into my eyes.
"What's wrong?"
I wasn't sure. I wanted to say I was just not comfortable with it, but that wasn't the real truth. When he touched me, I could hardly feel him. I felt nothing when he kissed me. I felt nothing about what I was doing, I was an empty shell.
Tala dragged me out of there when I went to go upstairs with Michael. He said I was drunk, but I wasn't. I knew what I was doing. I didn't want to sleep with Michael, but I know if Tala hadn't stopped me I would have willingly. That's what made it so thrilling. Thrilling, and scary.
I woke up the next morning to see Kai sitting in a chair across the room, fast asleep. My heart reached out to him, but my headache called out more. I rubbed my temples and then threw back the sheets. I clambered out of bed. I was still wearing my slut attire, and I suddenly felt self-conscience. I was me again, I could feel. I walked over to him, and kneeled on the floor beside his chair.
I could slap him. Really hard so it would leave a nice bruise. I raised my hand, but I couldn't bring it down. I couldn't hate him for doing this to me. I couldn't hate him because he slept with Kate. As much as I tried to shove him away, he seemed to take more and more of my heart.
As I stared into his peaceful face, tears started to roll down my cheeks. I can't do this. I need him. I need him beside me, there for me. I need his shoulder to cry on and I need him to make me feel safe and protected. I need his smile to make my day and I need his voice to give me strength. I need him. I need him so much.
"I hate you Kai", I whispered, "For making me fall in love with you"
...xoxoxoxo...
Ok, I'm sorry. Please don't flame me, I don't appreciate it. If you don't like my story than just stop reading it. Simple eh? I know it's overly dramatic, but I'm not gonna change it, cause I really don't want to. And because I'm not sure how to. So, I'm sorry it's all soap opera crap, but I couldn't fix it. Oh, and I'll fix it up, Destiny I mean. Just be patient already!
Ok, I think I confused ppl with the whole Drug Company of Voltaire's, so I'm gonna try and explain what he really does. Ok, his company researchs drugs like cough syrup and pain killers and sleeping pills, those kinds of things. It's the biggest drug producing and research facility in the world, unrealistic perhaps, but whatever. I know, Voltaire designing things to help people sounds really really weird. But think of how much money this kind of stuff brings in eh? Yea, and besides there are drugs that can harm you and kill you. It would be very simple for Voltaire to do that, ne?
Anyway, review please, just no flames. Thankies.