long lost words whisper slowly to me
still can't find what keeps me here
when all this time i've been so hollow inside
i know you're still there
watching me wanting me
i can feel you pull me down
fearing you loving you
i won't let you pull me down
hunting you i can smell you – alive
your heart pounding in my head
watching me wanting me
i can feel you pull me down
saving me raping me
watching me
-Haunted, Evanescence
Long lost words whisper slowly to me Oh, they must have had Arisa Uotani in mind when they wrote that line. Her curse was to forever be reminded of her ancestors' evil doings. Like the curse Arisa (the first) had cruelly placed on the Sohma family. Everything any Uotani had done was in Uo's head. Everything. Uo remembered the time before her birth. The very day she was born. And she also remembered everything that had happened to her. So she knew this cursed memory had been with her from the moment her brain had developed enough to allow thought. She knew this terrible affliction would always be with her. But maybe, just maybe, she could protect the next generation of Uotanii.
still can't find what keeps me here/when all this time i've been so hollow inside/i know you're still there watching me
Uo knew the memories were there for a reason. She had to break the curse placed apon her. She had tried to take the easy way out so many times. But there was some terrible force that kept her alive. She would be unable to die until the curse was passed on. It wouldn't let her cheat. She knew that now. She needed to break the Sohma curse to break the Uotani curse.
And she would never be free, never, until she did.
So she must reveal her knowledge. Maybe she could tell Kyou? After all, as the Cat he might be more accepting of her freakishness. Maybe, just maybe...