Hello there! Sorry if it took me so long to update this fic. You know I'm just an ordinary 14-year-old girl who still goes to school. That's why I've been so busy! And anyway I was so absorbed with my other story. Okay…on with the story…Please R&R. thanks

Chapter 5

Inuyasha POV

The days passed into weeks and week into months. Time really flows fast and you'll never know… It has been 7 months since Kagome left for America. Well' everything is still normal, except that Inuyasha has been so silent, he's not speaking even a single word to anyone. Does Kagome really have that great effect on him? His academic performance started to fall, that's why teachers are concerned of him.

After classes he went straight home. He got in silently and proceeded to his room, unnoticed by his brother.

"Inuyasha, are you home already?" His brother shouted after about 15 minutes.

"Yeah."

"Come here I need to talk to you."

"Inuyasha think of yourself. Your classmates are concerned of you because your academic performance is falling. If you continue doing this…well…your future might be ruined." Sesshoumaru said to his younger brother pleadingly.

"You can't make me. This is my own life. Why don't you just leave me alone?" Inuyasha answered.

In a split second, Sesshoumaru's fist made contact with Inuyasha's face. "Because I'm your brother. I'm responsible of you…ever since our parents left us alone. You're so stupid! Just because Kagome left for America, you're acting like that? She doesn't hold your life. You just said it; it's your own life. Why don't you fix it, brat?"

Inuyasha was hurt by those words. He started to think, 'Why does Kagome have to have this effect on me. I'm not myself just because she studied elsewhere. Stupid…'

"Sorry…" he muttered to his brother. He got to his feet and went outside. It's still quite early, so he decided to take a walk and go to the hill.

Winter is near. You can tell it by the cold, strong wind everyday. Yes, it's cold. You can feel the coldness enveloping you. But it's hard when you also feel cold eating up your insides, every inch of you...

'If only I told her… But even if I didn't, she should have felt it.' he thought defensively. '(Sigh) why is she so insensitive?!'

He finally reached the top of the hill. Inuyasha reached out to the tree's trunk and looked up. The branches are already empty of its usual leaves and pretty Sakura flowers.

'If you could just love me Kagome… but you never would…never…' he thought.

(A/N: I don't know…why does he have to think so negatively? That's so unfair to himself!!! But really, I want this chapter to be as painful as possible…)

It hurts when you love her

But she loves somebody else…

It hurts when you need to keep distant from her

Because you can never love her…

It hurts when you love her But she can never love you back…

It hurts to love her

And she tells you about her special someone…

It hurts when you love her

And you see her in another's arms…

It's hard to pretend you're okay

When deep inside, it hurts…

The darkness finally prevailed to let the night surround him. He should go home now. So, he walked down the hill, the bitter wind meeting his face every now and then. Every memory of Kagome, he still keeps. He still clings to them.

'I will never give up. But I wish Kagome would realize that I have feelings for her. Why is it so hard to tell my feelings to a person I've known all my life?'

Kagome POV

"It's been a long time since Inuyasha wrote a letter to me. And me, the same to him…I really miss him." She said to herself while cooking her breakfast for the murky morning of Saturday. She's been silent for a long time, while eating, as if making up her mind. Later on, she stood up and placed the dishes on the sink. She came to a final decision.

'I'll go home at the end of the year…I'll tell Inuyasha that I love him, that I don't ever want to be away from him…'

She got a quick shower and headed out of the door of her apartment to go to her part-time job. She walked with a satisfied and inspired smile on her face.

At last… chap five is finished. You know… I'm still undecided if I'm going to remove this fic or not… WAAAH! I'M SO CONFUSED!!!