"Unbelievable!" Hermione said once he was finished telling them all he had learned that night.
"All this time Professor Dashall was your sister!" Ron exclaimed.
"How are you feeling Harry?" Ginny asked putting an arm around him.
"Confused," Harry said. "Overwhelmed. But at the same time, ecstatic. I mean I have a sister. I've always wanted a sister"
"Even one whose father is You-Know-Who?" Ron said. Hermione jabbed him in the ribs.
"It's strange, but it's not Lucy's fault. She rejected him to save me and that's all that matters"
"I still can't beleive that You-Know-Who is gone," Ron said.
"Oh would you call him by his name already Ron!" Ginny exclaimed.
"It must be a relief Harry," Hermione said.
"I guess so," Harry said. "We should go to bed it's been a long day." They said good night and went to their dormitories. As long as the day had been Harry couldn't sleep. He reached over to his table and opened his mother's diary.
(AN I'm probably not going to be so good with dates)
October 9th 1964
Dear Diary,
I'm ten years old today, mommy and daddy gave me this diary for my birthday. I'm going to keep you hidden so Petunia doesn't find you. I hate my sister. Just because she's too years older than me she thinks she can boss me around whenever she pleases. Someday I'll show her.
October 23rd, 1964 Dear Diary,
The strangest thing happened to me today. Petunia was being mean, again, and she made me so mad. I thought about what she would look like if she had a pig nose and then all of a sudden she did. I don't know how it happened.
Harry chuckled. It sounded like Aunt Petunia was always a horrible woman and he was glad that his mother got in a few good punches.
August 28th 1965 Dear Diary,
I am so excited. An owl arrived today with a letter for me. I've been accepted to Hogwarts School of wizardry and Witchcraft. I'm a witch, I can't believe it. Mommy and Daddy were so proud they took me to this place called Diagon Alley, with all these stores magic things in them. Unfortunately Petunia came along. She complained the whole time. Just because that ugly prat Vernon Dursly won't say boo to her. I don't know what she sees in him. He's a fat pig if you ask me.
September 4th 1965 Dear Diary,
I love being at Hogwarts. I'm in Ravenclaw, they say this is where the wisest witches and wizards are put. I've become friends with a girl named Andromeda Black. Her sister and cousin are aat Hogwarts too. I didn't like Bellatrix. She called me a really awful name. Well I didn't know it was awful until Andromeda explained it to me. Apparently, Andromeda's family doesn't like witches and wizard like me, because both of my parents are muggles, or non magic folk. Andromeda's family are Purebloods. But Andromeda isn't like that at all. Neither is her cousin Sirius. Sirius is in Gryffindor and he's a real prankster. I swear Professor Blum turned absolutley purple when Sirius put that tonic in his tea.
September 7th 1965 Dear Diary Today I met Sirius's friends. Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, and James Potter. Remus is very sweet but I must say he looks simply dreadful. He said that he gets ill alot, but I have a feeling there's more to it than that. I don't like Peter that much, he's so twitchy. But James...oh my goodness. He is so handsome my heart skipped a beat when I met him. I wonder if he liked me
October 9th 1965 Dear Diary Today I am eleven. I got very nice presents from mum and dad. Petunia sent me a frog that she ran over with her bicycle, I hate her. Sirius is teaching me many pranks that I can pull on her. Andromeda gave me a necklace with half a heart. She wears the other half. It's a best friend necklace she said. James, Sirius, and Peter gave me a box of chocolate frogs. Remus wasn't there, I missed him. Sirius said Remus's mum was ill and he had to go home for a few days.
January 18th 1966 Dear Diary I found James and Sirius tormenting Severus again today. I don't know why they have to pick on him so much. Just because his hair is greasy and he's into the dark arts that's no reason to pick on him.
February 21st 1966 Dear Diary Oh my goodness! Oh my goodness! Remus is a werewolf. I just can't believe it. That's why he's been missing so much class and why he looks ill alot of the time. He was so scared when he knew I'd found out. He was so sure I wouldn't ever speak to him again. But I how could I not. It's not his fault he's a werewolf. James Sirius and Peter are up to something. I know it has something to do with Remus, but I'm not even going to ask because I know it's against school rules.
May 26th 1966 Dear Diary My first year at Hogwarts is over. I can't beleive how much I have learned. I did so well on all my finals. Ravenclaw came in second for House Cup. We would have gotten first if Professor Tibbles hadn't taken away so many points from us this year. He's the head of Slythering house, they got the cup. I hate those Slytherins, especially Bellatrix. She keeps calling me a Mudblood whenever there are no teachers around. The only Slytherin I can tolerate at all is Severus
July 12th 1966 Dear Diary Petunia is making me crazy. She won't stop calling me a freak. I got her good though. A little of Sirius's hair color potion in her shampoo and her hair turned bright pink. Just in time for her date with Vernon too. Andromeda sent me several letters. Aparently her parents and Bellatrix are making her miserable. Sirius too is unhappy at home. James sent me a letter yesterday along with a box of chocolate frogs. He is so sweet to me, I think I may be in love with him.
September 5th 1966
Dear Diary It is so good to be back at Hogwarts again. Andromeda's sister Narcissa is here this year too. She's just as bad as Bellatrix I'm glad she's in Slytherin not Ravenclaw. I saw James. He's even more handsome than he was last year
October 9th 1966 Dear Diary I am twelve today. James gave me a bracelet. Oh I love him so.
November 11th 1966 Andromeda got a howler from her mother today. Apparently, Bellatrix told their parents about Andromeda's boyfriend Teddy Tonks. Teddy's a muggle-born like me. Her parents are disgusted that Andromeda is associating with muggle-borns. It took me and Sirius two hours to console her.
October 17th 1967 Dear Diary We got to go to Hogsmeade this weekend. It was so much fun. Sirius and James got into trouble as usual, Remus tries so hard to keep them in line.
December 23rd 1967 Dear Diary Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh. James kissed me. James kissed me. I got caught under the mistletoe and James kissed me. What even more exciting is that he told me that he'd been wanting to do it for a long time. Oh my gosh
September 24th 1968 Dear Diary I am so excited! Andromeda and I made the Quidditch team. We're both Chasers. I am so excited.
September 25th 1968 Dear Diary I am going to be sick! James is a Chaser for Gryffindor. I'm going to be playing against the man I'm in love with today. How am I going to get through this.
December 25th 1968 Dear Diary It was a wonderful Christmas. All of the Marauders and I stayed at school and had a party. I just hope they don't get in trouble for sneaking me into the Gryffindor common room. Severus gave me a present. He was so cute the way he looked at his shoes when he handed me the box. It was a pendant. It's very pretty even though there's a stone missing. Severus was almost embarrassed but I put it on right away. I know his family doesnt' have a lot of money so it means so much that he spent what little he has on me.
December 27th 1968 Dear Diary James is making me so mad. He won't leave me alone about the pendant that Severus gave me. He told me today that he doesn't like his girl wearing a necklace from another boy. Well he's just going to have to get over it. Severus gave me this pendant and dammit I'm going to wear it.
July 13th 1969 Dear Diary I'm so worried abou Sirius. James sent me an owl yesterday and apparently Sirius has run away from home. I knew that he didn't like his parents but I never thought he'd run away.
July 19th 1969 Dear Diary Sirius is all right! He's staying with James and his family. I think Andromeda may follow his example and come stay with us. Her parents are being very mean to her about Teddy. They keep asking her why she can't date a good wizard like Narcissa. Good Wizard my arse! Lucius Malfoy may be a Pureblood but he's a far from good as it gets.
August 15th 1969 Dear Diary I'm going to be prefect for Ravenclaw this year. I'm so excited. I got a letter from James and he's going to be a prefect too! It's amazing. Petunia's in a snit because Andromeda has been staying with us this summer. She doen't let Vernon come to the house anymore because last time he was here we turned his tongue orange. No loss on my part, I can't stand that fat slob
November 7th 1969 Dear Diary Andromeda's older sister is getting married. A "good pureblood" named Rudolphus Lestrange. Andromeda hates him
October 9th 1970 Dear Diary I'm sixteen today. Andromeda and I are going crazy studying for our NEWTS. Between that and Quidditch and keeping the younger students in line I haven't seen James in several weeks.
September 29th 1971 I'm Head Girl! James is Head Boy!
October 16th 1971 Dear Diary Terrible things are happening at Hogwarts. Four girls have been raped. No one knows whose doing it. Dumbledore is worried I can tell. I overheard him telling Professor McGonagall that the Ministry may have to shut down Hogwarts if the culprit is not caught
November 22nd 1971 Dear Diary Oh god, I can barely write my hand is shaking so badly. He raped me! Voldemort raped me! He lured me out to the forbidden forest. I thought it was James. Oh my god! It was horrible he hurt me so much. Severus found me and brought me to the hospital wing. I could hardly speak but I forced myself to tell Dumbledore what happened. Oh god, I don't want James to know, I don't want anyone to know.
December 26th 1971 Dear Diary I am still in the hospital. Dumbledore keeps trying to convince me to tell my parents, but I'm seventeen and he can't force me to. My friends have been wonderful. Andromeda comes to see me everyday, there are no real flowers so she has been making me ones out of paper. Remus and Sirius have been trying so hard to cheer me up. But the only one who can really make me feel better is James. He's been so good to me these last few weeks. I love him so much.
January 3rd 1972 Dear Diary I am pregnant. Pregnant with Voldemort's child. Madam Pomfrey confirmed it this morning. Dumbledore and McGonagall are more worried than I've ever seen them. Apparently there's been a prophecy about Voldemort concieving an heir who will make him invincible if she joins him but he will kill her if she doesn't. I can't bear it. I can't bear the thought of my baby joining that monster, or worse being killed by him. Dumbledore has suggested a magical abortion but I can't do it. My baby is innocent no matter how she was concieved.
April 14th 1972 Dear Diary I am four months pregnant. Madam Pomfrey had given me a concealment charm to hide my stomach. Dumbledore and I have decided that as soon as my baby is born she will be hidden. He says there's a muggle orphanage where her father will never find her. There will be no record of the birth. I know this is what I must do to keep my baby safe but I don't know how I will give her up. Everyday I can feel her inside me. She is a part of me.
May 5th 1972 Dear Diary I passed all my finals with flying colors. I'm going to start Auror training after the baby is born. Dumbledore is going to let me stay at Hogwarts till then. I felt her kick this morning. My precious little girl
May 14th 1972 Dear Diary My friends know something is up. I want so badly to tell them about the baby, but I cannot. Not just because it could put them in danger, but what would they think of me, carrying the Dark Lord's child. His power is growing. He's gathering followers. Andromeda told me that Bellatrix and her husband have already joined him. She hates Bellatrix for joining the pain who did this to me. I have such a good friend. I could not have gotten through this without her.
August 8th 1972 Dear Diary My baby was born today. I named her Lucy. She has my eyes. I held her for only a minute and them I had to let Dumbledore take her. My baby girl is gone.
July 19th 1975 Dear Diary Andromeda is pregnant. She and Teddy are so happy. I want to be happy for her but it is so hard to look at her belly and not envy her. She will get to keep her baby. My little girl will be three years old soon. Every year on August 8th it is so hard to get through the day. I just say a little prayer that my little girl is safe and happy
October 9th 1975 Dear Diary I'm twenty-one today. James took me out to a fancy restaurant. His gift was thrilling but not what I expected. It was an engagement ring. I had to say yes. I've loved James since I was eleven years old. He's been so supportive over the last couple of years. I love him so much. I can't wait to be his wife.
April 4th 1976 Dear Diary James and I were married today. The wedding was so beautiful. James and Sirius looked so handsome in their tuxedos. Andromeda's little girl Nymphadora, I still can't believe Andromeda named her that, smeared cake all over her face. It almost broke my heart. I can't help wonder what Lucy is doing today. Is she happy? Does she have friends? I miss her so much
September 14th 1977 Dear Diary I told I told James about Lucy today. I could not go one more day keeping her a secret from him. He was so understanding, he held me for nearly two hours while I cried. I miss my little girl so much. I only got to hold her for a minute before Dumbledore took her away. I know that she is safer where she is but I want her back so much. James told me that if I asked he would go to that orphanage and bring Lucy back, and that he would raise her and love her like she was his own. How I wanted to tell him to do it. But I could not. As much as I want to hold my little girl in my arms the thought of her father finding her keeps me from hopping on my broomstick and going to get her back. As hard as it is I love my baby too much to risk her safety.
December 7th 1977 Dear Diary I heard the most terrible thing today at work. Severus had joined Lord Voldemort. I couldn't believe it.
March 5th 1979 Dear Diary It's hard to believe it's been two years since I've written in this thing. I've had so little time. Voldemort is getting stronger. Everyday he gathers more followers to his cause. We know for certain that the Lestranges have joined him. Severus is with them, it breaks my heart to know that the little boy who gave me the pendant that I gave my daughter has joined him. I feel so betrayed. How could Severus do this after what that monster did to me?
October 29th 1980 Dear Diary I have so much on my mind I simply must unload some of this burden. Dumbledore keeps telling me I should use a Pensieve but I know my old realiable diary will never fail me. Six muggles were killed today. The Order is working double overtime trying to find out who is joining with him. We've just added Crabbe and Goyle to our list. I remember them from school. Fat pigs, much like my brother-in-law. I haven't seen Petunia in years but I did hear of her wedding from mother. Mad-Eye is certain that if Crabbe and Goyle are with him them Lucius Malfoy must be also. The three of them were always together when we were in school.
May 23rd 1981 Dear Diary Severus came to the meeting today. James and Sirius were ready to kill him but Dumbledore assured us that Severus had seen the error of his ways and was now acting for our side, infiltrating the Death Eaters, as we have come to call them, and spying for us. Many are not willing to trust him, especially James. But I still hold out hope that Severus will turn out to be on our side.
June 30th 1981 Dear Diary Severus came to me today while James was out. He begged me to forgive him for betraying me. I found it hard to forgive him but Dumbledore trusts him and that is good enough for me.
November 28th 1985 Dear Diary I'm pregnant again. James is thrilled. I am happy but I'm also worried. These are such dangerous times that I can't help but fear for the child inside me.
July 28th 1986 Dear Diary My son was born today. Harry James Potter is a beautiful healthy baby. He looks so much like James it's amazing. We made Sirius godfather. Harry adores him. I think James is a little jealous. It warms my heart though. I know that if anything happens to James and I Harry will be safe with Sirius.
September 24th 1987 Dear Diary James and I are going into hiding today. I am so afraid for Harry. Dumbledore came to our house today and said that he had discovered that there was more to the prophecy about Lucy. If Lucy and Harry were to join together they could kill Voldemort. I am certain that he does not know about Lucy but we can't take the risk. Voldemort won't risk Lucy and Harry getting together. Peter is going to be our secret keeper. It was going to be Sirius but he persuaded James at the last minute to switch to Peter. I didn't want to, but Sirius thinks it is wise. After all if Voldemort were to go after someone it definetly would not be Peter. Personally I think it should be Remus if not Sirius. But Sirius suspects that Remus may be a double agent. I don't know how he can think that. But as much as I hate it I have to go along with them. I have to stop writing now, Harry is crying for me
Harry closed the book after reading the last page. The last words his mother had written before she was skilled. Tears were falling down his cheeks. His mother had suffered so much pain and he had never known.
Just so you knowI gave up a night's sleep to write this. How's that for dedication?