A/N- Ok, I was listening to this song and I realized that it so totally fit in with Harm and Mac's 'situation'. So please read and review! (One shot)
Disclaimer- I don't own Ryan Cabrera's song "True", nor do I own JAG or any of the other characters ……sadly.
"Love is not enough. It must be the foundation, the cornerstone- but not the complete structure. It is much to pliable, too yielding." Bette Davis
Overdue
It had been a while since she was stuck in this position, between reality and everything she dreamt of having in life. The reality was always there placed securely right between her and Harm, and everyday she had wished that that reality go away so she could satisfy a ten year longing. Slowly she's tried to chip away covering of the truth but whenever she started to see the light, Harm built another wall. She resented Harm's distance but it always was an excuse for her to lean on.
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
But now. Now that that wall is finally gone, she feels naked. Exposed. Let without and excuse for her distance, she is scared. And now as she stood inches away from Harm's face, all she could feel was fear. The fear of risking her prized possession, her heart and ending up lonely once more. "I love you Sarah," Harm whispered softly as he moved in slowly to kiss her. That was it that was the last straw, she couldn't take it anymore. She suddenly jerked away and turned her back to him, moments before he kissed her.
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
Mmmm
"Sarah, what's wrong?" Harm said worried.
She snapped herself around to face him. "How can you say that so lightly Harm?" tears brimming her eyes,
"After all we've been through you have the audacity to say that now," she cried.
" But. I really love you Sarah…. I always have." Harm coaxed.
Mac rolled her eyes in disbelief, "I bet that what you said to all your ex- girlfriends." Mac said. Mac couldn't believe what she was saying, hadn't she been waiting for Harm to catch up for years now? Why she pushing him away when she needs him so much?
"No Mac I don't, this emotion is real…its true. " Harm stepped toward her," And I have no idea why you're so mad at me?" Harm said confused.
" Why am I mad at you?" Mac shouted, " Do you even know what you just said?" Mac continued, " You said you were in love, and love is not that simple trust me!" Mac explained, furious.
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
" Well then why don't you explain how it's not so simple Mac!" Said Harm sarcastically, now equally mad.
" Its… it….just…." Mac stumbled.
" Exactly, you're just making an excuse again," said Harm triumphantly.
Mac couldn't take it anymore. She didn't want to cry in front of Harm but she couldn't handle it for one more second. She broke down in tears as her feet buckled under her. Harm saw her swaying earlier and caught her a second before she hit the ground.
chorus
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
"Whoa!" he said as he quickly grabbed her. " Harm..I just…." She managed to get out between the hiccup's and the tears. "Shh," Harm quietly calmed her, "Relax its ok." He easily sat her down on his small bed, in his simple apartment, currently filled with moving boxes.
You don't know what you do
Every time you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
And after a minute of calming her down he gently asked," So what was the reason for your little outburst there?" Mac sighed and looked up into his ocean blue eyes and said, " I just don't want to loose you Harm…. Everyman I've ever been with has either left or died," she whispered, " and if that happened to you, I don't know if I'd be able to go on…."
Chorus
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
Harm laughed a little, " I'm not going anywhere, and if I die at least you can have all my stuff."
Mac smiled for the first time in a while, " Well, that's good to know Harm," Mac said, " So your not going anywhere?"
"Nowhere," Harm replied clearly, holding her hand in his.
"Good," Mac said, as a single tear rolled down her face, "Because I don't want to be alone anymore…."
chorus
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
And with that she leaned in and kissed him gently, breaking a ten-year-old wall. That was long overdue.
A/N- What do you think? OK, it maybe a bit confusing, so if you have any questions don't be afraid to ask in your review! PLEASE REVIEW!
P.S- I know! I totally stink at endings!
Yours till my Spanish teacher takes over the world,
Truly Insane