My Muirn Beatha Dan Chapter: My Lover's Gone
My lover's gone,
His boots no longer by my door.
He left at dawn, and as I slept, I felt him go,
Returns no more.
----My Lover's Gone by Dido
My jaw dropped open. Hunter, take over Cirrus, so soon after Cal left? I don't know how he could be asking me. I wanted to tell him, "I don't think you really should," but my brain wouldn't respond. I opened and closed my mouth a few times, trying to say something, anything, but I couldn't. Several moments of awkward silence crept by before Hunter finally spoke up.
"Morgan? Are you still there?" he asked. I swallowed hard, trying to say yes, I was still there, but my voice wouldn't work. "Well, I know you're there. I can hear you breathing. What do you think?"
"I don't know," I blurted. Quickly, I continued, "I mean, don't you think that it's a little soon to try and fill in for...him?" For some reason, I couldn't say Cal's name aloud. I could before, when I was talking to my mom, but not now, when I was talking to Hunter. A logical part of my brain said that it was due to my trying to make my mom think that I was okay, and if I couldn't say "Cal" to her, something told me she wouldn't believe that I really was okay.
Another awkward silence filled the air. "Do you not want me to?" he asked finally. To my shock, he sounded...hurt. I tried to think of something to say.
"I just think it's a little soon to be taking over, that's all," I said. "Don't you think it's a little early? After all the other members might not be so quick to accept you after what he did."
"Funny you should mention that," he said quietly. "I already spoke to the others about it. They agree with me when I say that the faster we restart the group, the faster we will be able to forget about what happened."
"Forget about what happened?" I repeated, anger creeping into my voice. "How can you say that? How can I forget that I nearly died because of him? You're the quick one to assume that we need you at all." I instantly regretted my words when I heard Hunter sigh.
"From what I can see, Morgan, you do need me," Hunter replied. I could hear the strain in his voice that he was trying to be patient with me. "What happened was horrific, and I don't expect you to just forget about it totally. What I am trying to say is that Cirrus needs a new leader. A coven isn't a coven without one. You know as well as I do that Wicca is based on tradition."
"I know," I sighed, hating him because I knew he was right. I wasn't being fair, but I just couldn't see how Hunter could just try and take over this soon!
"Who else is there to lead you, anyway? I'm the only blood witch around that has the time and the patience to lead a coven right now. These are dark times, Morgan, very dark times. The lot of you in Cirrus have great potential, but without someone to lead you, you will never tap into that potential."
I knew he was right, yet I couldn't bring myself to tell him that. In fact, I couldn't bring myself to tell him anything.
But he continued, ignoring my silence. "The next circle is Saturday, at my house. I can give you directions. Morgan, please understand that I'm trying to do this to make you upset. I'm trying to do what's best for the coven, you know that."
I did know that. But I wished that he would take my feelings into consideration, too. I liked to think that sometimes my feelings and opinion were more important than the coven. It felt like I wasn't talking to Hunter Niall; I was talking to the Seeker, and I didn't like it.
That Saturday night, I got into Das Boot and rode to Hunter and Sky's house. I wasn't sure what I was expecting to happen at the circle, with Hunter leading us instead of Cal. I'd never had anyone else but Cal lead me in Wicca circles, but I tried to convince myself that there was a first time for everything, even though I wasn't sure if I would be getting Hunter or the Seeker tonight. I tried to calm down, but I couldn't.
"Morgan, get a hold of yourself," I snapped at myself irritably. "If you keep being this uptight, you'll end up putting Das Boot into another ditch or worse. And it's a long walk to Hunter's house."
Appropriately chided, I nodded and turned my attention back to the dark road ahead of me. Driving at night had always kind of scared me after my accident, but for some reason, tonight seemed worse somehow, like if I didn't drive extra carefully, I wouldn't make it to Hunter's. Which was ridiculous, since I'm not really a horrible driver. Even so, I cast my witch senses out, just in case. All I found was a deer that was sleeping peacefully and an owl looking for dinner in the trees around me, which put me more at ease. I really was edgy lately, not that I could really blame myself.
Just as I was pulling onto Hunter's street, something went dashing across the road. I tried to force my heart back down into my chest, scolding myself that it had just been a rabbit or something. Only rabbits weren't that big. Trying to quiet my heartbeat I drove on, willing nothing bad to happen tonight. Quickly I sent a prayer to the Goddess to keep me safe tonight and instinctively drew sigils of protection around me with one hand while I steered with the other.
I managed to get to Hunter's house without having another car accident, much to my relief. I pulled my jacket tighter around me as the cold night enveloped me in its embrace and knocked on the door. Hunter answered.
"Morgan, I'm glad you came," he said and let me inside. "Is there anything I can get you?" I shake my head as I looked around the house.
It was fairly big, nothing real fancy, but it looked snug. Glancing around, I saw that Ethan, Sharon, Robbie, Jenna and Matt were already there. I was the last one to arrive. I took my jacket off and tossed it out of the way next to Robbie's coat. Then I sat down in a chair and awaited the new circle.
Author's Note: Hi again! I am so happy with all the people that have been reviewing lately! It makes me feel so happy, which makes me want to write more for the story and so on. I love all the compliments I keep getting, lol, which probably makes me selfish, but all you guys are so loving that I can't help it. Thanks to all of these people:
Rhiannan Star: my first reviewer! Thanks for all the great things that you've said. I'm glad you think my plot is well thought out. I'm glad you think that I write like Cate Tiernan. I try to keep the basic style of the original author but still have my own basic ideas in it to when I write fanfictions.
Saz-646: I'm sorry, but you're just going to have to wait to read the rest of this story. I haven't even read the rest of this, because I'm not done yet, but I really appreciate you reviewing for me. Oh, yeah, and I agree. Poor Morgan, a lot of things go wrong for her in these books, and I've only read the first four!
Wake-Robin: Thanks for reviewing. I'm glad you like all my chapters. Believe me, since so many people are so interested in this story, I will be updating lots! You're a great reviewer. Thanks so much!
Samantha: Even though you're reviewing is anonymous, you keep reviewing, which is really great. I'm glad you love my story. I love to please!
Adyna O'Riley: Thanks for putting my story on your favourite stories list! It always makes me happy to know that people like my stories. Thanks for the luck and reviewing.
Erin: Thanks. Like I told Rhiannan Star (who also said that I write a bit like Ms. Tiernan) while writing a fanfiction, I always try to keep bits and pieces of the author's style but still have my own ideas and style in it, too. I hope you keep reviewing!
Lady of Masbolle: Thank you! I'm glad that you think my chapters are "brilliant" and "really well written." I'm really, really, really glad that you continue to review, lol!
My lover's gone,
His boots no longer by my door.
He left at dawn, and as I slept, I felt him go,
Returns no more.
----My Lover's Gone by Dido
My jaw dropped open. Hunter, take over Cirrus, so soon after Cal left? I don't know how he could be asking me. I wanted to tell him, "I don't think you really should," but my brain wouldn't respond. I opened and closed my mouth a few times, trying to say something, anything, but I couldn't. Several moments of awkward silence crept by before Hunter finally spoke up.
"Morgan? Are you still there?" he asked. I swallowed hard, trying to say yes, I was still there, but my voice wouldn't work. "Well, I know you're there. I can hear you breathing. What do you think?"
"I don't know," I blurted. Quickly, I continued, "I mean, don't you think that it's a little soon to try and fill in for...him?" For some reason, I couldn't say Cal's name aloud. I could before, when I was talking to my mom, but not now, when I was talking to Hunter. A logical part of my brain said that it was due to my trying to make my mom think that I was okay, and if I couldn't say "Cal" to her, something told me she wouldn't believe that I really was okay.
Another awkward silence filled the air. "Do you not want me to?" he asked finally. To my shock, he sounded...hurt. I tried to think of something to say.
"I just think it's a little soon to be taking over, that's all," I said. "Don't you think it's a little early? After all the other members might not be so quick to accept you after what he did."
"Funny you should mention that," he said quietly. "I already spoke to the others about it. They agree with me when I say that the faster we restart the group, the faster we will be able to forget about what happened."
"Forget about what happened?" I repeated, anger creeping into my voice. "How can you say that? How can I forget that I nearly died because of him? You're the quick one to assume that we need you at all." I instantly regretted my words when I heard Hunter sigh.
"From what I can see, Morgan, you do need me," Hunter replied. I could hear the strain in his voice that he was trying to be patient with me. "What happened was horrific, and I don't expect you to just forget about it totally. What I am trying to say is that Cirrus needs a new leader. A coven isn't a coven without one. You know as well as I do that Wicca is based on tradition."
"I know," I sighed, hating him because I knew he was right. I wasn't being fair, but I just couldn't see how Hunter could just try and take over this soon!
"Who else is there to lead you, anyway? I'm the only blood witch around that has the time and the patience to lead a coven right now. These are dark times, Morgan, very dark times. The lot of you in Cirrus have great potential, but without someone to lead you, you will never tap into that potential."
I knew he was right, yet I couldn't bring myself to tell him that. In fact, I couldn't bring myself to tell him anything.
But he continued, ignoring my silence. "The next circle is Saturday, at my house. I can give you directions. Morgan, please understand that I'm trying to do this to make you upset. I'm trying to do what's best for the coven, you know that."
I did know that. But I wished that he would take my feelings into consideration, too. I liked to think that sometimes my feelings and opinion were more important than the coven. It felt like I wasn't talking to Hunter Niall; I was talking to the Seeker, and I didn't like it.
That Saturday night, I got into Das Boot and rode to Hunter and Sky's house. I wasn't sure what I was expecting to happen at the circle, with Hunter leading us instead of Cal. I'd never had anyone else but Cal lead me in Wicca circles, but I tried to convince myself that there was a first time for everything, even though I wasn't sure if I would be getting Hunter or the Seeker tonight. I tried to calm down, but I couldn't.
"Morgan, get a hold of yourself," I snapped at myself irritably. "If you keep being this uptight, you'll end up putting Das Boot into another ditch or worse. And it's a long walk to Hunter's house."
Appropriately chided, I nodded and turned my attention back to the dark road ahead of me. Driving at night had always kind of scared me after my accident, but for some reason, tonight seemed worse somehow, like if I didn't drive extra carefully, I wouldn't make it to Hunter's. Which was ridiculous, since I'm not really a horrible driver. Even so, I cast my witch senses out, just in case. All I found was a deer that was sleeping peacefully and an owl looking for dinner in the trees around me, which put me more at ease. I really was edgy lately, not that I could really blame myself.
Just as I was pulling onto Hunter's street, something went dashing across the road. I tried to force my heart back down into my chest, scolding myself that it had just been a rabbit or something. Only rabbits weren't that big. Trying to quiet my heartbeat I drove on, willing nothing bad to happen tonight. Quickly I sent a prayer to the Goddess to keep me safe tonight and instinctively drew sigils of protection around me with one hand while I steered with the other.
I managed to get to Hunter's house without having another car accident, much to my relief. I pulled my jacket tighter around me as the cold night enveloped me in its embrace and knocked on the door. Hunter answered.
"Morgan, I'm glad you came," he said and let me inside. "Is there anything I can get you?" I shake my head as I looked around the house.
It was fairly big, nothing real fancy, but it looked snug. Glancing around, I saw that Ethan, Sharon, Robbie, Jenna and Matt were already there. I was the last one to arrive. I took my jacket off and tossed it out of the way next to Robbie's coat. Then I sat down in a chair and awaited the new circle.
Author's Note: Hi again! I am so happy with all the people that have been reviewing lately! It makes me feel so happy, which makes me want to write more for the story and so on. I love all the compliments I keep getting, lol, which probably makes me selfish, but all you guys are so loving that I can't help it. Thanks to all of these people:
Rhiannan Star: my first reviewer! Thanks for all the great things that you've said. I'm glad you think my plot is well thought out. I'm glad you think that I write like Cate Tiernan. I try to keep the basic style of the original author but still have my own basic ideas in it to when I write fanfictions.
Saz-646: I'm sorry, but you're just going to have to wait to read the rest of this story. I haven't even read the rest of this, because I'm not done yet, but I really appreciate you reviewing for me. Oh, yeah, and I agree. Poor Morgan, a lot of things go wrong for her in these books, and I've only read the first four!
Wake-Robin: Thanks for reviewing. I'm glad you like all my chapters. Believe me, since so many people are so interested in this story, I will be updating lots! You're a great reviewer. Thanks so much!
Samantha: Even though you're reviewing is anonymous, you keep reviewing, which is really great. I'm glad you love my story. I love to please!
Adyna O'Riley: Thanks for putting my story on your favourite stories list! It always makes me happy to know that people like my stories. Thanks for the luck and reviewing.
Erin: Thanks. Like I told Rhiannan Star (who also said that I write a bit like Ms. Tiernan) while writing a fanfiction, I always try to keep bits and pieces of the author's style but still have my own ideas and style in it, too. I hope you keep reviewing!
Lady of Masbolle: Thank you! I'm glad that you think my chapters are "brilliant" and "really well written." I'm really, really, really glad that you continue to review, lol!