If Things Had Gone Differently…
Summary: "Most (if not all) of you reading this know my personality from my first two years attending Hogwarts, but what if i were to tell you that a lot of that personality started to change completely within the first few months of my 3rd year?"
Chapter 1: intro.
A/n: okay, im writing this as if none of the books had been written after the 3rd one. So just bare with me… this is a story I had to write to make myself feel better… and will have to keep writing to make sure I keep feeling okay. So, don't read it if you don't want too. But I'd really appreciate it.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but the plot… and maybe if I have any original characters.
Ever find yourself passing time by unknowingly staring off into space, thinking about nothing and everything all at once; realizing that you're feeling so many emotions at once, that you feel absolutely nothing and your body goes numb? Ever feel like you should be sad or worried about something, but for some reason the only thing your mind can push to feel about that is being apathetic; or knowing you're upset about something, but for some reason, your body just goes numb so you can't cry or feel those emotions anymore? What about being happy because someone finally pushed things aside in your mind, and actually made you smile; but then someone else does or says the smallest and most insignificant thing , that brings back the memory of your sorrow. Despite how much your mind wants you to break down and cry right there, your body gets a mind of its own and makes it so the only thing you can feel is nothing; just a complete void of emotion, and all you want is for that void to go away. Because feeling nothing, is even more of a burden on your heart than feeling all of the pain and sadness you were before; because now, there's absolutely nothing you can do or think to lift so much as an ounce of that weight. Ever feel like that? What about all of the previously mentioned at the exact same time? Well, I have; in fact, I've felt that exact way every day for about 6 months now. And since the day I started feeling that way, I've done so many things to try and escape it; but every time it only ends with me feeling the exact same way, the weight getting heavier and heavier each time, and me getting more desperate to try and find a way to escape. But I guess I should introduce myself before I just go on and tell you what's happening.
Hi. My name is Hermione Jane Granger, and I am currently 15 years old, and am in the last 9 weeks of my 4th school year attending Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Most (if not all) of you reading this know my personality from my first two years attending Hogwarts, but what if I were to tell you that a lot of that personality started to change completely within the first few months of my 3rd year? You already know how everything happened that year from Harry's point of view, so for now, I'm going to focus on what happened and what changed me and my thought process that neither Harry nor Ron have found out about, even to this day. They know I've changed, and I tell them what's going on now… but that didn't start until the beginning of this year, and they STILL don't know WHAT changed me. Only one person does. The one person I tell everything. Ginny Weasley.
A/N: please review if you read this. I really would like to know what you think. I have the second chapter completely written up and m currently working on typing it up. So when I get at least 5 reviews, I'll post the next chapter. Ttyl!