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Warning: Contents slightly similar yet contradicting to chapter 2… :) Which means Yuki was slightly delusional at that time… :) Sorry…
BUT I'M NO GOOD EITHER…
But I'm no good… I don't deserve you, thought Tohru, while watching Yuki eat dinner; maybe that's why you were angry with me.
"Hey, you okay?" asked Shigure, "you look troubled…"
"Yes," lied Tohru, smiling her innocent smile, "I'm just a bit exhausted from the exams."
"I see," he muttered, although not quite convinced. He glanced at the other members sitting on the table and noticed that Yuki and Kyo weren't bickering— another peculiar sight. "Oi Kyo," he said, "are you sick or something?"
Kyo shook his head and muttered a slightly audible "no".
Shigure gently raised his eyebrow. Kyo's cold-headed and barely speaking… Tohru looks like she's about to die… and Yuki looks gloomier than usual… My instincts tell me something is wrong…
"Um… Yuki-kun…" muttered Tohru, slightly reddening, "are you okay now?"
Yuki didn't reply. He looked like he was currently in another planet— dimension— universe…
"Don't worry Tohru," said Shigure, "it's not you… It's his— depression… he's occasionally like that— especially when…"
Yuki then shot the novelist a cold glare before he could say anymore. "I'm going to bed," he muttered, not bothering to finish the meal.
"I'm going to bed too," muttered Kyo, before bringing his empty plate to the sink and following the nezumi into his room.
"Don't worry," Shigure repeated, "it's not you— they're occasionally like that… At least Kyo finished his meal… I think I'll just finish Yuki's meal— it looks untouched…" He rambled on, unaware of the silent tears that made their way out of Tohru's eyes.
"Kuso nezumi," muttered Kyo, "why did you have to hurt Tohru's feelings?"
"You'd know, wouldn't you?"
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"You'd know about her feelings— more than anyone else," said Yuki, his hands balling into fists.
"What are you talking about?" Has he lost his mind?
"Don't feign innocence," muttered Yuki harshly, grabbing his blanket.
Something's utterly wrong, thought Kyo. I should stick around and make sure he doesn't do anything funny…
I'm no good…
The phrase kept repeating in Yuki's head, over and over, as he twisted and turned in his sleep.
Kyo had been watching his cousin sleep for the past minutes after being disturbed by the weird noises Yuki was making.
"Hey," muttered Kyo, poking him in the ribs, "wake up. You're having a bad dream again… no doubt."
Yuki blinked once, twice and sat up.
"What is it? Who is it this time? Akito?" asked Kyo, "I thought you already stopped being afraid of him…"
Yuki shook his head.
Oh great, Yuki mode, thought Kyo crossly, "Okay. I'm willing to talk about this without it having to turn ugly— or bloody."
Purple eyes stared disbelievingly at Kyo.
"C'mon. You can do better than that. Speak. Speak. Speak."
Purple orbs continue to stare.
"Okay. Okay. Goodnight then. Honestly— you're such a— aargh. Goodnight." You're such a pain… And with that, the orange-haired cutie (sorry… still couldn't resist.) went back to sleep… Not really. He just pretended to.
Tohru wanted to talk to Yuki. She just wanted to know why he was being cold to her all of a sudden—
What did she do wrong? Did she do anything rude without knowing it?
I'll wait for him to come out— and then I'll speak to him. She decided.
(tsuzuku…)
So there you have it… that's why she slept outside Yuki's room and that's also why Kyo slept inside…
Although I've been know to write Yaoi… That just isn't the case here…
Nyahaha… just an afterthought…
Jwei Lih (04/16/05)