We All Have Secrets

Disclaimer- If it was mine, I'd be spending my money elsewhere than good ol' Michigan.

A/N- Yes, I am the laziest person alive and haven't posted in a while. Which I apologize for. But it's long, so hopefully you'll like it. Enjoy it :)

Marissa lugged the velvet brown suitcase out of her and Ryan's room as he laughed while watching her. She glared at him while continuing to struggle with her suitcase. "Are you gonna just stand there? Or get your ass over here!"

Ryan laughed again. "Maybe I'll just sit here and watch you, it's a much better view," he joked. Marissa smiled sarcastically at him, gripping the suitcase handle and flinging it at Ryan's feet. "You do it!" she hummed smugly at herself and started to walk into the kitchen. Ryan got up on his feet and went over to her, wrapping his arms around her from behind. "Ryan?" His name escaped from her mouth as she titled her head back, giving him better access. "Love you," he whispered into her neck, removing hair from her neck as he began kissing it.

"Bye Mommy!" Maddy's voice was heard screaming from the hallway. Ryan and Marissa immediately pulled back, wiping their lips and waiting for Maddy to come barging in. Maddy smiled as she came into view, running over to Ryan, hugging him with all her might. "Daddy!" she muffled out in his cheek, kissing him. "I missed you!"

Ryan smiled and kissed her head. "Missed you too princess," he whispered. "I missed you lots!" she giggled, letting go of his cheeks and backing up, only to get a better look at Marissa. "Marissa? You're still here?" she asked. "Yeah, I am. Hey Maddy."

Maddy looked around Ryan's apartment. "Are you living here?" she asked sadly, running her tiny hands over Marissa's unpacked suitcase. Marissa looked down at her, bending down near her level. "N-" Ryan started to say, but Marissa caught him off, taking his hand in hers. "Yeah sweetie, I am. In fact, me and your Daddy...we're dating."

And the truth was finally out to her.

"Oh. Like me and Tommy?" Maddy asked. Ryan's eyes widened. "Who's Tommy?"

"Ryan, shh." Marissa laughed and pat Maddy's shoulder. "Something like that, just a little more serious."

"Well me and Tommy love each other," Maddy countered.

"You what!?" Ryan asked bewildered.

Marissa tried hard not laugh and tugged on Ryan's hand until he was bending down as well. "Yeah, me and your Daddy love each other too. Is this okay with you?"

She shrugged. "I guess. I don't know. It's just Mommy bought that massuesy guy over and told me they were dating, and than Eddie has Allison, and now you have Marissa." She explained thoroughly and quietly. "No one has time for Maddy anymore," she whispered quietly. "No, no, no!" Ryan protested, picking her up in his arms. "No one will ever forget about Maddy, understand me?"

Maddy shrugged. "Guess so," she replied, letting go of his grip and walking into her room. Marissa turned to Ryan. "That went well."

"Better than I expected."

Marissa nodded her head. "True. It's just...gonna take a while...with everything you know, it's hard, I've been there." Ryan gave her a nod and hugged her tightly. "I'm just glad its out now so I can do this whenever I want," he told her with a cheeky smile, giving her lips a taste of his. She giggled and kissed him again while Maddy came out of the room and stared at them. "Do you want to help me unpack?" she asked, hand on her hips. Ryan pulled away, flushing, as he nodded and went over to Maddy's room as Maddy glared at Marissa.

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"Anna! It's good to see you!" Ryan exclaimed, hugging her. Anna smiled brightly at him, examining him. "You too! Ugh, it's been so long hasn't it?" she asked. Ryan nodded and pulled back, going back into his office chair. "Yeah it has. But it's good to see a familiar face." He nodded again, looking down at her file. "So um...getting divorced?" he asked. Anna blushed. "Yeah, one night stands, pregnant, abortion, you know those things go."

Ryan knitted his brow, looking for a further explanation. Anna blushed again. "Oh...I meant...sorry...I'm sorry." He brushed it off. "It's okay." "Just um--last time I talked to Seth, that's what happened or so I heard."

He nodded at her. "Yeah...married, divorced." "Oh?" she asked interested. Getting a nod from Ryan again, she continued. "Custody issues?" Ryan let out a small laugh. "Um...more like girlfriend issues."

"Girlfriend?"

"Yeah...Marissa."

"Wow, I guess I really should come back into town more often." Just as she said that, a light blub seemed to flash over her head. "Oh...I see," she commented, getting the situation about him and Marissa. "Yeah." He was starting to get uncomfortable and looked around his office. "So...what are you doing back into town? Thought you lived in Pittsburgh. Came all the way to California just for a divorce lawyer?"

Anna shrugged. "I'm looking for a house here actually."

"Right. For you and your dog."

She laughed. "Wow, a sarcastic Ryan, never thought I'd see the day." Ryan laughed. "Yeah, things change though." "Yeah, I guess they do. I thought I was in love with my, hopefully soon to be ex husband, but no, he's just like everyone else I've dated."

"Good? Bad?"

"Let's just say that no one has as much in common with me as people like to think." Ryan gave her a nod, passing a few papers in her hand. "Well, all I need is for you to actually sign these...as well as..."

"Jared." Anna filled in.

"Yes, I need you to sign these and back with a settlement plan and estate issues if you have any, and just make an appointment with the secretary outside and I'm sure in a few months, it'll all be over."

Anna gave him a grateful smile and started to get up. "We should do something," she suggested, "us, Marissa and Seth and Summer." Ryan nodded, "Yeah, it'll be good for all of us to hang out again." Giving Ryan a hug again, she left as Ryan went back to work.

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"Maddy's coming soon..." Marissa mumbled and giggled at the same time as Ryan kissed down her neck and to her collarbone. Ryan glanced at the clock on his nightstand and went up to her lips, giving them a quick, hard kiss. "Not for another hour."

"But the house is a mess," she complained. "Just the bedroom," Ryan deadpanned with a laugh. Marissa laughed as well and leaned in for another kiss as the doorbell rang. "Go, it's her." She told him as he hesitantly got off of her and buttoned his shirt back up. He jogged to the front door and was surprised to find Seth, Summer and Anna, all chatting among themselves. "You guys, hey," he said with a confused smile, scratching the back of his head. The trio stopped the conversation and looked towards Ryan. "Ryan!" Seth exclaimed. "How dare you move and not tell me!" "Yeah Chino!" Summer followed as she hit his arm. "Anna here had to give us directions, thanks by the way Tinkerbell," Summer thanked Anna as she piled into Ryan's apartment, patting Anna's head. Anna laughed and went after Summer. "How did you get my address?" he asked her interested.

Anna gave him a sly smirk. "Lawyers aren't the only ones who have connections." Ryan's eyebrows rose but he didn't say anything as Marissa came out, putting her back into a ponytail. "Ryan. Wh--" She caught herself off and looked at Ryan and than a double look at everyone in the living room. "Seth! Summer! Anna?" she asked, giving each of them hugs. "Marissa, it's great to see you!" Anna exclaimed. "You look great!"

"Thanks you too." She looked over at Ryan, who just looked confused and than back at them. "It's great to see all of you. But what are you doing here?"

Seth sat down first, making himself comfortable than Summer and Anna followed suit. "We met Anna at the rental car place," Summer started to explain, "And than we got to talking, than eventually you guys came up, and it seems that she had your address, and last we knew..."

"From the aiport," Seth cut in, "Ryan was getting divorced, so we just had to come and talk." He gave them both a toothy smile. "And your secretary is a very nice lady," Anna winked at Ryan. Ryan laughed. "Oh, so that's where you got the address." Anna nodded and than looked back at Marissa. "So where's Maddy?" Seth asked.

"She'll be here in about an hour," Ryan replied. "Oh...Theresa?" Seth asked sadly. "No, actually, Eddie."

Seth's eyes bulged. "Eddie?" He noticed Ryan's uncomfortable look and than looked at Marissa. "Marissa, could you get me something to drink? I'm parched." Summer slapped his arm. "Cohen, don't be so rude." "Rude? How am I rude?"

"You're a guest in this house!" she retorted.

"And guests ask for drinks."

Summer sighed, flustered and leaned back into the couch. "Well actually, me and Ryan were gonna take Maddy out to dinner, but it's fine, I can just whip something up for all of us," Marissa volunteered. Seth smiled at Summer than back at Marissa. "Why that would be lovely, thank you Marissa." Marissa nodded and left to go to the kitchen. "Quite the housewife you have there," Seth compliemented, looking at Ryan. Ryan watched after her retreating figure and smiled.

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About an hour and a half later, they were all sitting down at the dinner table as Ryan looked at his watch nervously, waiting for Maddy to show up. The doorbell rang as Ryan flew out of his seat and to the door. "Finally," he muttered, picking Maddy up from Eddie's arms and into his own. "I was starting to get worried."

"Hey man, sorry about being late, traffic was a bitch."

Ryan glared at him. "I mean, traffic was a poop," he re worded. Maddy giggled, putting a hand over her mouth. "Okay, so Theresa has her on Monday?" Eddie asked. Ryan nodded. "And than I have her for the weekend."

"And than I have her the next week. Good." Eddie thought out loud. "I'm working overtime and than Allison has a doctor's appointment. And actually, I start today, so...I gotta go."

Maddy outstretched her arms and hugged Eddie tightly. He kissed her cheek and ruffled her hair and with a wave, he was jogging down the stairs. Maddy turned to Ryan and than hugged him tightly. "I missed you!" she grumbled into his shoulder. Ryan smiled and pat her back. "Missed you too princess," he whispered. She slipped out of Ryan's grasp and started to go into the kitchen, where voices were heard but stopped when Marissa came out first. "Maddy!" she exclaimed, an warm smile on her face. "Marissa," Maddy acknowledged.

"Is that my little Maddy?" Seth's voice rang from the kitchen. Maddy shrieked and ran into the kitchen, jumping on his lap. "Uncle Seth!" she screamed into his ear. "Maaaaddy!" he mocked. She giggled and than jumped into Summer's lap. "Aunt Summer!"Summer smiled and kissed the top of her head. "Hey sweetie." Maddy smiled and than jumped into Anna's lap. "Lady!"

Anna smiled and looked at the little girl in her lap. "Who are you?" Maddy asked.

"I'm Anna. You must be Maddy."

Maddy nodded and than looked at Anna's plate. "Do you want some?" Anna offered. Maddy shook her head. "No thank you. I had food before we left." And than she wriggled out of Anna's lap and into the living room. "You guys want coffee? Dessert?" Marissa offered. Anna, Seth and Summer nodded and went into the living room to join Maddy who was watching cartoons. Marissa started clearing the table as Ryan held back, watching her. She started over to the sink as Ryan crept up behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist. "Don't be mad," he whispered.

"I'm not."

"Yes you are. And it's okay."

"Ryan, I'm not mad," she countered. "I would be the same way if I was her. I wouldn't like the other woman."

Ryan spun her around as she fell onto his arms, only the porcelin plate in between them. "You're not the other woman, you're the only woman." Marissa smiled. "I'm okay with it. I can be patient. And I understand it'll take some time."

"And you're okay with it?" he asked. She nodded. "She's important to you...and you're important to me. And I do like her I really do, even if the feeling's not mutual." Ryan laughed. "And this is why I love you."

"Because I try so hard to make you happy?"

Ryan tilted his head to the side. He gave a smirk off and than spoke. "That too, but you look incredibly sexy washing the dishes." Marissa giggled and kissed him.

"Hey! Any chance of us getting that coffee before daylight savings?" Seth yelled from the living room. Ryan and Marissa pulled back. "Yeah, just a sec!"he exclaimed.

He kissed her one last time before going over to the coffee maker and getting started.

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"Okay, well now that we know where you live..." Summer started off. "We'll be sure to come a lot more often," Seth finished. Ryan nodded as did Marissa and hugged them good bye as Anna stayed back. "Okay, well, it was nice seeing you Marissa and Ryan, I'll see you Monday. Tell Maddy I said good night."

Marissa gave her a quick hug as did Ryan and than she left. Ryan looked over to see a sly smile on Marissa's face as she headed for their bedroom, running on her tippy toes. Ryan followed, falling on top of her on the bed. She let out a muffled giggle as he started to kiss her and putting his hand up her shirt. "Ryan, we can't, Maddy's here," she smiled. "I know. My hand was just cold and your body is very warm," he joked. She let out another giggle and rolled on top of him, than finally getting off. He sighed, knowing he wasn't going to get his way as she walked into the bathroom, he changed into his grey sweatpants and wifebeater. Minutes later, a refreshed Marissa came out, wearing an extremly long t-shirt. "Please tell me you're not wearing something under that shirt," Ryan commented.

Sha laughed and lifted her shirt up, revealing shorts. Ryan let out a small groan as she hopped into bed, his back facing her. She wrapped an arm around his waist and leaned into his arm, placing a chaste kiss on his tattoo that was showing. "Told you how much I love your tattoo?" she whispered huskily in his ear. Ryan immediately turned around and captured her lips in his own. "Yes, yes you have." Smiling brightly at him, she leaned in for another kiss.

Just as they were getting into it, a soft knock was heard on the door. Ryan let out a small sigh. "Come in." Maddy opened the door. "Daddy? I was having nightmares. Can I sleep with you?" He looked at Marissa. "Yeah, sure."

A smile appeared on her face as she sprinted onto the bed, jumping up and down a few times and than settled into the blankets. She looked over at Marissa, who was looking uncomfortable. "Are you gonna sleep here too?" she asked.

"Yes she is," Ryan answered. "Rremember, we're dating. And is going to be in our lives a lot more often. And tonight, she's gonna stay in this bed."

"Okay," sighed Maddy. She pulled the covers up to her neck and closed her eyes. Ryan smiled and kissed her forehead. "Night princess." Maddy didn't say anything, making them think she was actually asleep. He squeezed Marissa's hand as he lay down, on the far left, resting his head next to Maddy's small shoulder and reaching his arm so he could put it on Marissa's waist. She smiled and whispered, "I love you," softly. Maddy turned her body so she was snuggled up in a ball under Ryan's arm. He smiled and kissed the top of her head. "Go to sleep princess."

" 'am" she whispered. Marissa smiled, wondering if he'd be as loving as he was with Maddy to theie own child. She'd find out in a few days.

A/N- Okay, so I think I've left you a little hanging. And I'll try to post sooner. But I've started typing it already, even if it is two senteces. At least I know where I'm going with it. And if you're still reading, let me know what you think with a review.