"MY SINS ARE MANY"
BASED ON THOUGHTS EXACTLY AFTER THIRD IMPACT CURTOSAY OF SHINJI IKARI
"My sins are many"
I see the sea
Stained with the blood of man
Of the sins that are a washed upon it's shore
I prayed I wanted to not see another being alive
My word as god of all man meant nothing
As she stands by me
The redhead I see is a believer not of me
But of herself
All she can say
Is what I've heard since the day I have met her
I hate you is what kills me entirely
Those words each a knife to my heart
She survives yet she hates me
Why as my will of god
Didn't I get her to love me?
Or obey me?
That wouldn't have been my Asuka if she had been tamed
I pray I'm gonna be dead soon
Like planet Earth
Not this hell ridden new world I now occupy
With the girl of my dreams or nightmares
Have I failed as god?
Have I failed as a man?
She rests holding her arm
The arm which held the lance
The lance to end her life if I hadn't intervened
Did I do wrong?
Did I do right?
She just lies there lost in her thoughts
I pray that'll I'll never find out
What I've done to save her or maybe I've killed her
Because I ended her world
Like me she hates my world
Am I alone?
With Asuka with me I truly am
AUTHORS NOTE-
THIS IS A QUICK POEM TO AIR MY FEELINGS OUT
BEFORE I START CHAPTER THREE OF MY OTHER FIC "DARKNESS HOLDS MY HEART" WHICH IS NOT A SELF INSERT BEFORE YOU ASK BUT AN IDEA I CAME UP WITH AFTER WATCHING THE SERIES FOR LIKE THE TWENTIETH TIME AND WELL I THOUGHT THE PERSONAL DRAMAS WERENT HYPED UP AS MUCH AS I HAD THOUGHT THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN. WELL IF YOU DISAGREE E-MAIL ME AND ILL BE HAPPY TO SHARE OPINIONS WITH YOU. I MAY DISCONTINUE "DARKNESS HOLDS MY HEART" IF IT TRUALLY LOOKS LIKE A SELF-INSERT. DONT WORRY I HAVE OTHER IDEAS SEE YA LATER.