Harry, Ron
Do not come near me again. You are not the people I thought you were and I do not appreciate the way you judge my friends and I. If you cannot accept the fact that I have changed, and overcome the silly prejudice against the Malfoy family, then I do not want you in my life any longer. This is your final chance. I no longer care about stupid rumors, or about a family's past, but if you two still do then I will have to stop caring about you. Get over yourselves, stop being such gits, and let me make my own decisions instead of living in your shadows, or loose me forever.
HermioneAs she attached the letter to her owl's leg and watched it fly away, Hermione felt her heart rip in two. No matter how harsh her words on paper, Hermione still cared about Harry and Ron, and hated herself for giving them such an ultimatum. As the tears cascaded down her face, she knew she had lost them, and she feared it was for good.
Hermione retreated into herself, avoiding all social contact. She went to all her classes, talked only to the teachers, and when they dragged it out of her, her fellow prefects and Destiny.
She built a wall around herself, blocking out all hate and pain, and refused to drop it. Destiny and Draco, being the closest people Hermione had, tried to get her to snap out of it, but to no avail. She wouldn't budge.
Padma and Colin also seemed to sense something wrong with their friend, and tried to console her. However, Hermione had been practicing her acting skills, and they were soon convinced that nothing was wrong.
Harry and Ron publicly announced their hate for their former friend, saying to anyone who'd listen that she was in league with Voldemort, and she was not to be trusted.
"Mia?" Came the voice of Destiny, "Are you in here?"
"Just a second Dest!" Hermione called, as she got out of the shower. "Fuck, where's my wand?" Hermione thought frantically. Unfortunately for her, the covering charm she'd put on her arms had worn off in the night. "Fuck, fuck, FUCK!" She thought to herself as she pulled on a sweater. "I'll just have to make sure not to take this off until I find it. Hopefully Destiny doesn't think to check."
Hermione ran down the stairs to see Destiny waiting on the couch.
"Took you long enough!" Destiny exclaimed, jumping up and giving her a hug.
"Yeah, I was in the shower." Hermione said.
"Oh, sorry!"
"Its ok." Hermione said, just wishing Destiny would leave so she could find her wand.
"Do you want to come to Hogsmeade with me and Draco?"
"Its okay, you go ahead."
"But I really want you to come. I haven't spent some good time with you in ages."
In the end Hermione relented, and went along with the other two, But not before finding her wand (exactly where she left it, on the dresser!) and re-casting the illusion charms.
In spite of herself, Hermione managed to enjoy herself more then she thought possible, and the afternoon cheered her up more than she had been in a long time. Harry and Ron both had Quidditch practice (sad as it was, Hermione still knew their timetables to the last class), so they weren't there to ruin her good mood.
Later that night, as Hermione was going off to bed, she heard music coming from the room opposite hers- Draco's.
Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know,
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I have no answers 'cause
I didn't even know you
But these words
They can't replace
The life you
The life you waste
How could you paint this picture?
Was life as bad as it should seem?
That there were no more options for you
I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
But these words
They can't replace
The life you
The life you waste
Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
Well fuck them
And fuck her
And fuck him
And fuck you
For not having the strength in your heart to pull through
I've had doubts, I've had fears
I've fucked up, I've had plan
Doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands
But these words
They can't replace
The life you
The life you waste
But these words
They now replace
The life you
The life you waste
Draco looked up from his guitar to see Hermione hovering in his doorway. He blushed, "What are you doing here?"
"I heard your music, I'm sorry," Hermione said, looking down.
"Hey, its okay, I'm just embarrassed."
"Don't be, your really good."
"Thanks."
"Can I ask you something?" Hermione said, biting her lip.
"Sure, sit here." Draco said, and patted a space on the bed beside him.
"Who was that about?"
"My father." Draco said, lowering his eyes. His answer surprised Hermione.
"But, I thought...I mean…your song…its about suicide isn't it?"
"Yes."
"But, didn't Voldemort…" Draco cut her off
Draco looked down. "I…I lied"
"What!" Hermione said, shocked.
"Voldemort didn't kill my father, but he may as well have"
"Uh..." Hermione stammered, for once lost for words.
"Voldemort didn't kill my father. My father committed suicide."
"But you said-"
"I said what I thought at the time."
"I don't get you." Now Hermione was utterly confused
"My mother told me that Voldemort killed him, and I believed her."
"Until?" Hermione asked
"I asked a certain person I know how Voldemort did it. He told me the truth"
"Who?"
"My godfather." Draco replied, so quiet Hermione almost missed it
"And that would be…"
"Snape. He told me that he…uh…was in contact with a few death eaters…" Hermione cut him off
"I know he was a death eater."
"Since when? How?"
"Long story, I'll explain later."
"Okay. Well, yeah. He still goes to Voldemort's meetings and stuff, and he told me that Voldemort never killed Luscious. My mother lied to protect me. He killed himself."
"So your song?"
"Was about my father. When he was a boy my grandfather abused him. It made him angry, unstable. That's what my song was about. The fact that my father was too weak to stand up for himself against Grandfather."
"Oh my god, that's awful! Does Destiny know?"
"I want to tell her, I just…" A cough broke off Draco's speech.
"You don't need to tell me little brother."
They looked up to see Destiny standing in the doorway.
"Not very observant are you Dray."
"I was kind of…distracted, I'm so sorry Destiny, and I should have told you."
"It's ok, I wouldn't have known how to tell you either." Destiny said, coming over and wrapping her little brother in a hug.
"At least we've still got each other."
Hermione got up silently and left, leaving the family to their moment. She crossed the hall, entered her room, and cried.
"At least we've still got each other," Draco said, but I don't have anyone like that. Sure, I have them, but no matter what, it's not like family. Ok, there's Aunty Carolyn, but a shit load of good she does. The first thing she did when I left was sell the house and move back to her one bedroom apartment! I know she cares but she can't care that much, she hasn't written me once!
Hermione, lost in thought, failed to see two cloaked figures emerge from the shadows between her and Draco's room, and like dark shadows, disappear into the night.
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