Sometimes I feel so lost, and materlistic. Unworthy, unwanted, and only seen as just another girl. Skinny, tall, and pretty. I feel like I have to change to fit everyone else's needs. When I try please one person I disappoint another. I'm either not trying hard enough or showing off. It sounds so stupid, but true. I'm not just another teen girl, I'm me. But why does everyone make it seem so bad to be who you are? Is it because they know if they allow me to be who I am then people will see they aren't who they say they are? I shouldn't have to suffer for their choices, I should be who ever I want to be.
It's true you know; when they say you can only expect the unexpected. One day I'm doing perfectally. I'm the mature one, seeing how my parent's rules have save who I could have become. Then the next I'm failing classes, my parents are taking money out of my savings account to pay for a screwup I made, I'm fighting every word they say, being told to be accountable and take responsibleiy for my actions, and being called too many names to count. It's so hard swinging back and forth between being the adult that's growing inside of me and fighting to get out, and the child inside of me I feel I'm losing by the day. I never know how the day is going to end: with me an immature, uneducated, rebellious child again, or being the mature, understanding, responsible adult everyone is starting to expect from me more and more by the day.