James opened his eyes in hopes that this horrid nightmare that was becoming his life, would disappear. He looked over at Lily who was sitting in the rocker rocking Rose to sleep. Lily and Rose, along with his other friends, were James' only lights in this hell hole. They were the only ones keeping him going. Lily was, by far, the brightest light out of the rest, even though she too felt his pain. Lily had only known them for a short while, but their absence left a huge hole in her life.
Them.
James couldn't even bring himself to say their names. He had known them his whole entire life. He had grown accustomed to their laughs and smiles, which he would never hear or see again. He would never get a chance to look into their loving eyes or feel their tight embraces.
James couldn't take it anymore, he couldn't hold in these tears forever.
Lily looked up as Rose drifted off to sleep and she saw a tear roll down James' cheek. She put Rose into her crib and walked over to James who was sitting on the floor in the corner. Another tear escaped his eye as she sat next to him. Lily didn't say a word as James didn't like to talk about it. Even if he didn't mind talking about it, Lily still wouldn't have said anything. The grief was still too near. She had never gone through what James was going through, even though she had lost them too. So they just sat there side by side, shoulder by shoulder.
"Sometimes I just can't believe it," James said softly.
Lily turned her head and looked at James. He wasn't crying anymore. "Neither can I," said Lily.
"Sometimes I don't want to believe it," said James, burring his face into his hands.
"No one wants to believe it," said Lily.
"How can life be going so great one day, but so terrible the next day," James wondered out loud.
Lily shrugged her shoulders not knowing what to say.
"One day I was hugging them and the next day the front page of the Daily Prophet is reporting their deaths," said James.
"Sometimes," Lily started, "sometimes life is like that. It changes course when you least expect it to."
James yawned. "I'm going to bed," he said.
"I'll be there in a bit. I have to lock up the house first," said Lily as she walked out of the nursery.
Every since the day that they died Lily had been sure to lock up each door and window before bed or before they would go anywhere. It was a tedious task, but if it meant they would be safe, she would do it.
The house was silent and cold. It had always been that way since they died. Lily quickly locked the windows and doors, wishing that she had worn socks or slippers. She practically ran up the stairs and into her bedroom. "Lily, what's wrong?" James asked as she came into the room.
"It was just cold downstairs, that's all," she replied as she slipped into bed.
James rolled over in bed to face Lily. Her green eyes stared into his hazel ones, looking into his soul as he looked into hers. Every time he looked into those eyes he fell in love with her all over again, just like he had the day he met her. They formed a connection that could not be broken easily. James could feel love, sadness, and care radiating between their eyes.
James smiled. Lily laughed. "It's been a while since I've seen your smile," she said.
"There hasn't been a whole lot to smile about lately," James said.
"Well what's the reason for this smile?" Lily asked, propping her head up on her hand.
James sighed. "You make me happy," he said, putting an arm around her.
Lily laughed and moved closer to him. "You make me happy too," she replied.
"Sometimes I wish we were back at Hogwarts," sighed James.
"Why is that?" Lily asked.
"Life was so much simpler," said James.
"I guess exams are easier than raising a child," Lily laughed, "Although I'd rather raise a child than take exams."
"We had the whole Head Dorm to ourselves," said James.
Lily looked at him blankly. "We have a whole house now."
"Our whole past is in that dorm," said James, raising an eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" asked Lily.
James laughed. "We had our first kiss right inside of the portrait hole."
"And..." Lily said, wanting him to continue.
"We made out for the first time on that comfy red couch."
Lily blushed.
"We spent our first night together in my dorm."
"And McGonigal caught us kissing by the fire place once!" laughed Lily.
James shuddered. "I will never forgive her for breaking us apart. That was possibly the best moment at Hogwarts."
Lily laughed again. "I will never for get her face when she saw us!"
"She looked like she was going to explode!" said James.
"I guess we did leave some of our past in the Head Dorms," Lily sighed.
"Yeah, I wish I could go back and escape from reality," said James.
Lily curled up into him. "We can't run from everything," she whispered.
James sighed. He knew she was right, but that didn't change his mind. "If only there was some way to go back in time and save them."
It was possible, Lily knew it, but very dangerous. "James, there is no safe way to do that and you know it," she said.
"I know, but I just want them back."
"Some things happen for a reason," said Lily.
"I guess, but why couldn't it have been someone else?" James whined.
"I don't know," said Lily.
"They were so nice and loving. They didn't deserve to die," said James.
"No one deserves to meet the end that they did," said Lily moving closer to him.
James hugged Lily tighter and closed his eyes to go to sleep. Sleep was hard to come by these days for James, but somehow he managed to catch some. It was amazing, he thought . After he had first heard that they were dead, he didn't think that he would get sleep ever again. Their loving words would continuously echo through his head and their faces would appear when he closed his eyes.
Happiness had become a foreign feeling to James over the past few days and he feared that he would never feel it again. All of the happy times that he had shared with them would flood his mind and instead of making him feel happy, they made him feel sad and sick because he knew he wouldn't be able to share any happy memories with them again.
But, what do you expect to feel after you lose your parents.
A/N- YAY! I was able to post one more chapter before I leave for vacation! Well, I'll write while I'm gone and post when I get back! So I hope you enjoyed the chapter!!
Them.
James couldn't even bring himself to say their names. He had known them his whole entire life. He had grown accustomed to their laughs and smiles, which he would never hear or see again. He would never get a chance to look into their loving eyes or feel their tight embraces.
James couldn't take it anymore, he couldn't hold in these tears forever.
Lily looked up as Rose drifted off to sleep and she saw a tear roll down James' cheek. She put Rose into her crib and walked over to James who was sitting on the floor in the corner. Another tear escaped his eye as she sat next to him. Lily didn't say a word as James didn't like to talk about it. Even if he didn't mind talking about it, Lily still wouldn't have said anything. The grief was still too near. She had never gone through what James was going through, even though she had lost them too. So they just sat there side by side, shoulder by shoulder.
"Sometimes I just can't believe it," James said softly.
Lily turned her head and looked at James. He wasn't crying anymore. "Neither can I," said Lily.
"Sometimes I don't want to believe it," said James, burring his face into his hands.
"No one wants to believe it," said Lily.
"How can life be going so great one day, but so terrible the next day," James wondered out loud.
Lily shrugged her shoulders not knowing what to say.
"One day I was hugging them and the next day the front page of the Daily Prophet is reporting their deaths," said James.
"Sometimes," Lily started, "sometimes life is like that. It changes course when you least expect it to."
James yawned. "I'm going to bed," he said.
"I'll be there in a bit. I have to lock up the house first," said Lily as she walked out of the nursery.
Every since the day that they died Lily had been sure to lock up each door and window before bed or before they would go anywhere. It was a tedious task, but if it meant they would be safe, she would do it.
The house was silent and cold. It had always been that way since they died. Lily quickly locked the windows and doors, wishing that she had worn socks or slippers. She practically ran up the stairs and into her bedroom. "Lily, what's wrong?" James asked as she came into the room.
"It was just cold downstairs, that's all," she replied as she slipped into bed.
James rolled over in bed to face Lily. Her green eyes stared into his hazel ones, looking into his soul as he looked into hers. Every time he looked into those eyes he fell in love with her all over again, just like he had the day he met her. They formed a connection that could not be broken easily. James could feel love, sadness, and care radiating between their eyes.
James smiled. Lily laughed. "It's been a while since I've seen your smile," she said.
"There hasn't been a whole lot to smile about lately," James said.
"Well what's the reason for this smile?" Lily asked, propping her head up on her hand.
James sighed. "You make me happy," he said, putting an arm around her.
Lily laughed and moved closer to him. "You make me happy too," she replied.
"Sometimes I wish we were back at Hogwarts," sighed James.
"Why is that?" Lily asked.
"Life was so much simpler," said James.
"I guess exams are easier than raising a child," Lily laughed, "Although I'd rather raise a child than take exams."
"We had the whole Head Dorm to ourselves," said James.
Lily looked at him blankly. "We have a whole house now."
"Our whole past is in that dorm," said James, raising an eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" asked Lily.
James laughed. "We had our first kiss right inside of the portrait hole."
"And..." Lily said, wanting him to continue.
"We made out for the first time on that comfy red couch."
Lily blushed.
"We spent our first night together in my dorm."
"And McGonigal caught us kissing by the fire place once!" laughed Lily.
James shuddered. "I will never forgive her for breaking us apart. That was possibly the best moment at Hogwarts."
Lily laughed again. "I will never for get her face when she saw us!"
"She looked like she was going to explode!" said James.
"I guess we did leave some of our past in the Head Dorms," Lily sighed.
"Yeah, I wish I could go back and escape from reality," said James.
Lily curled up into him. "We can't run from everything," she whispered.
James sighed. He knew she was right, but that didn't change his mind. "If only there was some way to go back in time and save them."
It was possible, Lily knew it, but very dangerous. "James, there is no safe way to do that and you know it," she said.
"I know, but I just want them back."
"Some things happen for a reason," said Lily.
"I guess, but why couldn't it have been someone else?" James whined.
"I don't know," said Lily.
"They were so nice and loving. They didn't deserve to die," said James.
"No one deserves to meet the end that they did," said Lily moving closer to him.
James hugged Lily tighter and closed his eyes to go to sleep. Sleep was hard to come by these days for James, but somehow he managed to catch some. It was amazing, he thought . After he had first heard that they were dead, he didn't think that he would get sleep ever again. Their loving words would continuously echo through his head and their faces would appear when he closed his eyes.
Happiness had become a foreign feeling to James over the past few days and he feared that he would never feel it again. All of the happy times that he had shared with them would flood his mind and instead of making him feel happy, they made him feel sad and sick because he knew he wouldn't be able to share any happy memories with them again.
But, what do you expect to feel after you lose your parents.
A/N- YAY! I was able to post one more chapter before I leave for vacation! Well, I'll write while I'm gone and post when I get back! So I hope you enjoyed the chapter!!