It was depressing to see someone you loved in so much pain. James spent every moment by Lily's side, talking to her and wiping away her tears. He consoled her held her close. She reacted like James did after he lost his own parents. She spent the first few days in shock and let her world fall onto her shoulders during her parents funeral.
There was one detail that made Lily's experience ten times worse than James'. Unlike James, Lily didn't get to really say goodbye to her parents. Sure, she physically said goodbye and her last 'I love you's but she couldn't see them while she was saying it. It wasn't the first time that James whished that he could give his vision to Lily.
She cried for forever that night. She screamed into the silence and threw the pillows from their bed around the room. James couldn't do anything to stop her. He had felt the same way when he lost his parents. He had felt like throwing pillows and stones everywhere, but refrained.
Just when James thought life couldn't get any worse, a medi-witch from St. Mungo's pulled him outside during Lily's monthly check up on her eyes. The medi-witch had a grim expression and she avoided James' eyes as she looked at Lily's file. She opened her mouth many times, and closed it. Finally James asked her to just spit it out. Her words haunted his sleep for the next week. There were only two word that was really understand able. They were words that James never wanted to hear again. "...permanent....sorry..."
James refused to tell Lily the truth about what the medi-witch had said, her words had infuriated him. So, he lied. He told Lily that she would get better, but it would take some time. He had no idea what made him lie to his wife, but the medi-witches' words were like a dare, some sort of challenge to make sure that Lily got better.
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The news from James had been lifting for Lily. She was glad to know that she was going to get better, although James said that it was going to take some time. She didn't care. For once in a long time she was able to walk around with a smile on her face and a bounce in her steps. She would never know that James was dying inside.
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He knew that she would never see again. He had just given her false hope. He felt awful. He hated lying to her. He hated feeling guilty. He hated his life right now. He was glad that Lily couldn't see his facial expressions. He was always frowning and sometimes had tears flowing down his face.
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At first Lily just took James word that she was going to get better. Then something happened. Lily was awakened by something that she hated when she was a child, but now it was welcoming. Sunshine. It stung her eyes for a minute before she realized what it was.
Soon after she was able to determine whether the lights were on or off in the room. There was only one thing that was bothering her about the situation; when she told James he didn't really sound like he believed her.
Lily would have told herself that she was just mentally visualizing the light, but then she began to see colors. This time, she didn't tell James. She wanted it to be a surprise, and she wanted to make sure that it was for real. She knew that she couldn't be sure until she saw James face, James real face, not the distorted image in her head.
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James started to live in guilt. He didn't believe Lily. He was convinced that it was an act to make him happy and have hope. There wasn't any way that she could possibly see, not after what the medi-witch had said. He tried to be supportive of this trick that her mind was playing on her. He hoped that she wasn't becoming delusional.
It became too much for James after a few weeks of Lily guessing if the lights were off or on or if a certain object were a certain color. He confessed his feelings and told her that he didn't believe her.
In turn, Lily cried.
James cowered away, feeling guilty again as he heard the bathroom door close. He had never made her cry before, but he couldn't let her create this delusion for herself. It just couldn't happen.
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Lily went back and forth between believing in what she was seeing and believing that she was delusional. It was driving her crazy. Then she saw something. She actually saw something.
It resembled a black top of a mop that hung just a little bit above her own head and moved along with her at sometimes. Lily soon realized that it wasn't a mop.
She raised her hand as she smiled and planted it amidst the black shape. It felt soft beneath her touch and her suspicions were confirmed when she heard laughter coming from below it.
"Lily what are you doing?" James asked as he felt her hand playing in his hair.
"I had forgotten how messy it was," Lily laughed as a tear rolled down her cheek.
James shook his head. "No, Lily, don't do this," he said.
"Do what?" she asked.
"This, pretending that you can see," he sighed.
Lily got mad and removed her hand from his hair. "What makes you think that I am pretending?" she snapped.
"Remember that appointment that you had three weeks ago?" James asked.
Lily nodded.
"The real reason the medi-witch pulled me out into the hall was to tell me that you would never see again," James said.
Lily frowned. "She lied."
"No, she didn't," said James.
Lily drew put on a smile. "Meet me at the hospital James," she said simply before apparating.
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"Our answer is the same," said the same medi-witch that James had spoken to before. "the damage is permanent."
"You have to be making a mistake!" Lily shrieked.
The medi-witch shook her head. "We could run the tests again."
Lily shook her head in anger. "I can see!! I know I can!" she shouted.
James held her hand, but Lily pulled it away. "Maybe we should just go Lils," he said.
Lily angrily stood up and apparated.
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James sighed and apparated after her...but she didn't turn up where he thought she would have. She wasn't at home. James began to panic.
"Remus!" Lily called through the halls of her friend's house.
"I know you're here Remus! Get your bloody self down here!" she yelled again.
"Oh, Lily it's you," Remus responded somewhat coldly.
"Who else would it bloody be?" she snapped.
"What is the matter?" asked Remus.
"What do you mean what is the matter? My life is slipping away from me! First I have to watch my best friend die and become blinded because of it..." she continued to yell at the wall in front of her.
"Talk to me Lily," said Remus quietly.
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James kissed Lily again as his hands clamped tightly onto her waist. "I am so sorry," he whispered.
Lily kissed him softly. "I swear I will never ever tell you that you are wrong again," he added.
Lily laughed. "Good."
James pulled away from her for a moment. "Do you think that the medi-witch lied to us on purpose?" he asked.
Lily shrugged. "It doesn't matter James," she said, trying to pull him closer to her.
"Yes it does. She lied to us Lily. She presented us with life altering information that wasn't true. She could be imprisoned for that," James said as Lily kissed him.
"I don't care right now," Lily responded.
"I still think that we should tell someone," James added a few minutes later, pulling away yet again.
"Are you trying to frustrate me right now?" Lily half laughed.
"Why, is it working?" James grinned as he kissed her cheek.
Lily hit him and kissed him on the lips again.
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"Did it have the full effect?"
"Did what have the full effect?" asked Peter, yawning.
"The murder you twit!" growled Voldemort.
"Oh yes of course. More effect than we thought it was going to have," said Peter.
"How so?"
"Well Lily never go to say good bye to her parents. She never got to see them before they died," said Peter.
"What do you mean?" asked Voldemort growing angry.
"She was left blind after she witnessed Lestrang kill her friend," Peter replied.
"And I wasn't informed of this before? Crucio!"
Peter screamed as a wave of fear passed through him. "Stop! Have mercy!" he whined.
Voldemort stopped and stared at Peter. "Is her condition permanent?" he asked.
Peter shook his head. "James only told us about it last night at the get together he had for Lily. I only just found out that she had been blind."
Voldemort thought for a moment. "How often do you visit the Potters?" he asked.
"About once a week I get together with them along with Lupin and Black," Peter nervously replied.
"What if you told them that you wanted to bring a friend to one of these get togethers?" Voldemort smiled.
A/N- Sorry it took me so long to post and I am sorry for making you get all excited when you checked your mail and saw that I had updated, this chapter was very disappointing, to me at least. I hope that you enjoyed it a little more than me! School really sucks, especially having marching band non-stop, it wouldn't be half as bad if the weather was nice, but oh well. I am getting non-stop homework from all of my teachers including a research paper for biology which, luckily isn't due until January, but still....ugh....hopefully the next chapter won't be as disappointing and hopefully I can get some sleep tonight!!!
Sorry about the 'zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz'. Nothing else would show up as a separater, what happened to it? First I can't use the little stars and waves and now I can't use exlaimation points?! Come on!!!