A/N: I hope you all liked Chapter one. I'm trying to show a part of Sango that i think she has, but no one sees. Kinda like me, nobody really knows what I'm like when no ones around watching. except my cat, cuz he's my stalker and he goes everywhere with me lol.

Dear Diary - March 20th

Why do I always lie? I mean seriously, can I ever tell the truth? Not when it involves myself I cant. Kagome and Miroku (sometimes Inuyasha) are so nice to me, but I just act like a little brat and keep to myself. but I have to be a stubborn bitch, right? I have to push everyone away who tries to help me.

Today I was talking to Kagome and she was telling me something, but iI was totally NOT listening. And then she stops and she's all "Is everything alright Sango?" But like the bitch I am, I lied. I said, "yeah everythings fine, why do you ask?" And she said, "Because you seem.....more distant than normal" Keywords there: Than Normal. What shes really trying to say is that I'm always distant but she worried now because I'm more distant THAN NORMAL.

Why am I like this? I wasnt like this in the village. I was the most perfect daughter a demon slayer could as for. I could protect myself, I was independant, I was...i dont know. Easy to raise I guess. I could share stuff with my father and brother but now I'm like....distant.

So then Kagome goes, "I hope your writing in that book I gave you." And I said, "Yeah I am" And then she says, "Good, because if you feel you cant share stuff with me, at least your getting it out somehow" And then she walked away.

She wants me to write my feelings? Ok, heres what I'm feeling:

I CANNOT DO THIS!!!!

I have all these mixed up feelings that I dont understand. Like Naraku....I hate him. I mean, really I dont usually hate people but I HATE him. But when we fight, I cant help but feel sorry for him. I mean I dont even have a reason to feel sorry for him. He's just a sick bastard that enjoys seeing people suffer. But sometimes I'm afraid that when the time comes, I may not be able to kill him.

Oh and heres a good one: Miroku. I mean he bugs the crap out of me the way he gropes me and asks women to bear his child AND is peverted comments AND the way he follows me and kagome to the springs. Its enough to make me want to beat the hell out of him. But....Oh boy, I cant believe I'm about to write this....deep breathe...here I go...I think I might..love him...There I said it!

Wow, Kagome was right, I do fee better now that its out. But no one will ever see it, right? Maybe I should burn this entry. But if I die, I want someone to know. I want someone to know my most deepest darkest secret. The most chilling secret of all secrets ever been told in the history of secrets! Maybe I am dramatic. Kagome tells me I'm dramatic but I never thought so...until now.

How the hell does kagome do that? Its like shes known me forever but we have only known each other for like 4 months. Kagome just looked at me. I think shes pleased that I'm "getting my feeling out in writing" as she puts it. I know I shouldnt keep things bottled up inside of me, It could make me lose my mind or something. But i think I was on the verge before Kagome gave me the book.

Maybe she knew. Maybe she could tell I was going to go insane if I didnt get my thoughts out. I wish I could read people as well as she could. Of course she does pay attention though. I'm so easy to read if peole would just pay attention. For instance, when I bite my nails, I'm scared, nervous, or trying not to say something I'm not supposed to say. Or when I play with Kirara, It looks like I'm putting all my effort into playing ith her, but the trth is sometimes I dont remember playing with her. I'm usually deep in thought. And when i go pratice with Hiraikotsu, its not because I want to get better, its because its the only way people will leave me alone.

See? Little things that people could see about me if they wernt so damn wrapped up in there own lives. Ha! I should be one to talk, I'm the one so wrapped up in my problems to tell my best friend about them. The moon is way passed the middle of the sky, which means its pretty late so I should probably get to sleep. Hopefully, I wont have a nightmare, Yeah right..highly doubt it.

A/N: hope ya liked, I have nothing really too say lol. so ill just leave you with this! ps. dont forget to review!!