Chapter Twenty Six

When you're lost, just hold on.

After that very eventful Friday, all was up in the common room, talking about the upcoming weekend when an owl pecked at the window, and delivered a letter onto Livvy's lap. She opened it and gasped, she felt as if her heart was jumping up her throat like a salmon going upstream. She felt kind of sick and faint.

She tried to keep herself grounded but she felt increasing like she was leaving her chair and floating up around the ceiling.

"Liv, what's the matter." Remus asked anxiously, peering into her face with his hazel eyes wide with concern.

She handed over the sheet of parchment wordlessly, he began to read out loud, "Dearest Livvy, we know that this might come as a shock to you, but we feel that you should know. We need you to know that we still love you and that this might not be final. There is no easy way to say this and you should hear this in person but you need time to work things out for yourself, just like we do. Your father and I are now living apart, we have not divorced but we just need time to sort things out, please tell Hamish and Matt. Sam already knows." Here Remus faded out, and all faces looked at Livvy, seven pairs of eyes were trained upon her.

"I need to go see Matt and Hamish," she said, robotically.

"You don't have to, not yet anyway.." Remus began to say, moving closer to her.

"Don't tell me what I don't have to do, no one can do that." She snapped, "You don't know, it's never happened to you. I need to be alone, understand"

The others nodded mutely and Livvy turned and ran upstairs. Her feet seemed to go of their own accord. When she reached her room, she sat down on the window seat. She tried to keep breathing but it seemed to be getting harder. Her throat was tight and tears were pricking her eyes. She got up mechanically and began to sort through her draws and tidy her stuff.

What happened? Why did they tell her if it wasn't final? She felt sick, what would happen. Who would she live with. Would they have to sell their lovely house? What had happened, had Mum cheated on her Dad? Or the other way round. She needed to see them, she had to find out. She grabbed her bag and walked out the door.

The others saw Livvy coming down the stairs and braced themselves for her to at least start screaming, but she was silent. She was just climbing through the portrait hole when Lily cautiously asked her where she was going.

"Out" was the reply.

Livvy climbed out of the portrait hole and began to walk quickly down the hall. She was going to go to Hogsmeade and then go from there. She was so engrossed in her own thoughts that she didn't notice someone walking towards her, someone who was tall with blonde hair. She looked up just in time and stepped to the side when the person grabbed her by the shoulders. She tried to push them off but he held firm.

"Can you just.... Sam" she said as she recognized the person.

"Hi Livvy" he said, his voice slightly shaky.

"Sam," she said again before he grabbed her and hugged her. She held onto him tightly and tears started to run down her face.

And they stood there, till Sam gently lead her back to the common room, where they told Matt and Hamish. Afterwards Livvy and Sam stayed with the boys till they went to sleep and then returned to the common room.

"They are coming to see us tomorrow, you know," Sam said carefully.

"So" Livvy replied.

"Well, do you want to see them"

"I'm not sure"

"Come on, they need to talk to you"

"Well maybe I don't want to talk to them"

"Please Livvy. I will come too"

"Sam, don't push it. I just am not sure I want to hear why"

"Livvy, it's not final"

"Well, it will never be the same"

"But it doesn't mean it will be bad"

"Hmmmm"

"So you'll see them"

"I suppose"

"Hey, it's your boyfriend" Sam said, noticing Remus appearing down the stairs.

"How did you know." Livvy said.

"I work in mysterious ways. Now go talk to him. let him help you, he seems like a decent type of guy"

"Okay. But how did you know."

"Matt" Sam said simply.

"God, I could kill him"

"Why, I don't mind. He thinks its funny but go talk to him. and don't be heartless."

Livvy got up and walked over to Remus who was getting a hot chocolate, in his plaid pajamas.

"Hey," she said.

"Hi" he replied.

"Listen, I'm sorry for snapping at you before."

"You had every right. I don't know what's happening to you."

"No, but you were trying to help me."

"Liv," Sam called from the door, "I'm going to bed, I'll come to get you tomorrow."

"Night, Sam"

"Night, Liv, have a good sleep." He said, leaving the room.

"Remus, really I am sorry. I need your help. I need you anyway. Please." Livvy said, rubbing her mug.

"Livvy, I'm not angry at you. Just tired." Remus said.

"Yeah, you are pale. What's the matter?"

"Nothing. Anyway, come here." Remus said, giving her a hug and kissing her on the forehead.

Livvy sighed and leaned into Remus, closing her eyes. It had been a long night. And tomorrow was looking to be even longer.

and hello, yeah, so what did you think of my attempt at sadness, well, it had to happen, they were all just to uh, happy you could say. anyway, review please please please, i got like none for chapter 25 so please.