A/N: Hey guys! I'm back:heres groans:sighs: anyways, i hope you like this chapter. But no one had reviewed about what you think i should do! write another short story or just wrote about Sango's everyday life. Seriously guys, An author/authoress cant work without the reviews of his/her readers. I'm getting a little sick of begging for reviews and its getting hard trying to write without encouragement. The authors on this site take time away from most of our busy lives to write storys for you guys and it work be nice to know the people reading the story appriciate it. Before I started writing, I didnt bother to review to the storys I read, but now I know that reviews make the writer want to write. Its like one big circle. The more you review, the sooner you can read the next chapter. Please take that into consideration. Thanx so much for reading my storys and please review.
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Dear Diary - March 30th:
Sometimes things get so hard you have to run away. As much as you want to tell someone your not going to be there when they wake up, you cant. Because your afraid they would stop you from going. Thats what happened to me. About an hour ago, I took off. Everyone was asleep, even Inuyasha. I couldnt stand to be there, I had an urge to wake up someone and tell them I wasnt going to be there, but as I said before, I cant.
Let me guess. Your wondering why I left without any explanation at all, right? Well, to be totally honest, I dont know the exact reason. Everyhing is getting so hard lately. I know Naraku is close. Which means that sooner or later, I cant determine the rest of my life.
But I'm so used to the way we are now. I'm used to traveling everyday, fighting with Houshi-sama, talking to Kagome and struggling to fall asleep at night because I'm so afraid. Crappy lifestyle right? But I have become so accustom to it, I'm afraid to leave it.
When I think about the final battle, it scares me. In the begining, I was all for the end. I wanted it to end. But now, its so final. Either we die, or we dont. Either I get my brother, or I dont. Either Houshi-sama gets rid of the windtunnel, or he doesnt. Theres no meeting it halfway. Only 2 options, we are split 50 50 with Naraku.
But what if I am the only one that survives? That scares me even more. I couldnt go on with life knowing that my friends are dead and only I escaped. Great, now I have that nervous feeling in my stomach. I hate that.
I can tell Inuyasha doesnt want Kagome to be there when we fight Naraku. Everytime we are close, he asks Kagome if she has tests or anything. I dont blame him. I dont want her to be there either. She has a life back in her time. But with us, that final battle is our life. Its what we have lived for. I have since the night my village was killed. Miroku has since his father died. And Inuyasha since he found out what really happened before Kikyo died.
I dont know if I should go back. I dont even know why I left in the first place. I remember laying down and then I started freaking out. I dont know why. It was like, every feeling or thought that I had kept inside for a long time was trying to come out all at once. I sat up and started running. I had no idea where i was trying to go but when I came to this place, I felt better.
I dont know where I am or how to get back. Right now, I dont really care. This place is nice. I'm sitting on a big rock surrounded by trees and bushes. Its probably only 20 feet in lenth both ways but its a nice place to exclude yourself from the world.
The sun is starting to come up. I have about an hour before everyone wakes up. Maybe they already started looking for me. Sometimes someone wakes up and if Kagome or Miroku see I'm gone then the search has begun. I really dont think Inuyasha's cares wheather I leave or not.
Maybe I should go back. I dont want to make Kagome worry. She always freaks out when I go off by myself. Oh crap, I just noticed that I hadnt brought any of my weapons or Kirara. Now their going to think I was kidnapped.
I should start trying to sind my way back to camp. If I'm lucky, no one will be awake when I get back.
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A/N: I hope you guys arent mad at me for having this chapter a week late. I was going to have it up next week but I got busy with school and stuff. I also would like to know how meny people read my bio page. Because I have some important stuff that you guys should know and I want to know if I should but it on the bio page or on my chapters. So please tell me in your review if you read the bio page or not. Thanx for reading, c ya next chapter!