"THE DOLL/THE CRYING SOUL"
Why do I not feel?
Why can't I love?
Or say hello without thinking
Why can't I be like people?
Why can't I smile or say thank you
Why can't I be happy?
Am I a doll?
As Asuka says?
Am I here just to fight then die when needed?
My mind says obey the commander
Yet my heart asks my mind why
Of course it doesn't answer
My heart isn't mine
Nor is my mind or soul
Soul? Do I even have one?
Even I know it's his wife's
But do I, me Ayanami have a soul?
Or is it me living another person's life?
Will I ever find out?
Who knows?
My soul cries out but I can't hear it
As it isn't mine to hear
The man who gave me life, who gave me her soul
I can't see his soul
I can only see his damaged darkened eyes
I am his only trace of her left standing
The thing which is a scrap
A scrap of his wife
That's all I am
Are these thoughts even real, even mine?
Or are they Eva or Yui Ikari?
Both are human yet they're different
Does that make either false or real?
Author note---This is about Rei Ayanami and her feelings while she was Rei 2. Also if you can spot it is something that sounds more like Rei 3. Try to spot it and e-mail me and I'll tell you if you're right.