..:: Goodbye Isn't Forever
..:: Author: Lil' Bode
..:: Chapter XI: Laughing At ME
..:: Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN THE HARRY POTTER FRANCHISE, THAT IS PROPERTY PF J.K. ROWLING, AND, OR WARNER BROTHERS.
That night we stayed up till 2:30 playing chess. I lay there in my bed after I had nearly let my head droop down far enough to knock out a whole row of pieces. I thought of some of the things Draco had told me.
"Father thinks I should already have a marriage proposal," he said to me out of nowhere.
I looked at him a little amazed that he had just told me this.
"He says that it is best if I have someone I am devoted to so that I may stay focused on my career path," he told me without looking up from the board.
I sat gapping at him; then finally I decided to close my mouth. I knew exactly the career path he talked of. Then I thought about it, and wondered how his father had ever taken the time out of his busy schedule of ordering Draco around to site down and have this conversation.
Then again it was almost an order, saying he must have a marriage proposal. Most parents wouldn't have probably ever said this, but if they had, they would do it in an advising manner, so it seemed as they were guiding, not dictating; 'You should have a marriage proposal, it will help you stay focused on important goals.' But I lay there knowing that those words would never come out of Lucius's mouth, at least not in that form.
I couldn't help but wonder why Draco had even told me this in the first place, but then again he had told me another disturbing fact.
"Father says that if I do not choose a good career path I may be disowned from the family tree," once again he didn't look at me when he talked, and his words had been rephrased.
I knew the words more likely to come out of Lucius's mouth were, 'If you do not become a Death Eater you will not be accepted by this family nor anyone from this side ever again.'
As I thought of it, I wondered if this meant that Draco had considered not becoming a death eater, once. It was a weird thought not following the wishes of his family. He had always been a daddy's boy; doing exactly as he was told.
But by talking to me he had already ignored a number of his father's orders:
Do not converse with Gryffindor's.
Do not converse with mudbloods.
Do not converse with any of Harry Potter's friends.
Do not converse with Hermione Granger, period.
(To name a few)
The night was full of rather alarming conversations. I didn't really know how to react to most of the things he said, I stayed quiet most of the time he talked, not responding to much. When I talked it was different though, he asked questions and commented on the thing I said. I didn't really tell him anything besides a few fats about my family.
We talked briefly of quidditch. I told him straight away that flying had never been my thing for numerous reasons, such as the fact that I am clumsy and scared of heights. He laughed at what I said, but he didn't make fun of me. I knew his insides were bulging with comments, but he kept them all to himself.
I watched him play chess for long periods of time, watching how he concentrated so hard on what he was doing, but he seemed to make all his moves with grace and confidence, not regretting hardly any of them.
He seemed like a different Malfoy than before, he still had the same traits, but it seemed to me he used them I different ways. He was just as confident, and he couldn't have gotten good grades all this time for sucking up, because the only teacher that allowed him to do that was Snape.
My mind stormed with things as it had been doing a lot lately. I lay there for over a half hour before I crashed, entering a dream filled sleep.
"Wait Malfoy," I yelled as I ran through a grassy meadow filled with flowers.
Malfoy ran just ahead of me, I kept running but it was as if he didn't hear me, he kept going, and he finally stopped and looked back , he didn't seem notice me nor hear me yelling.
I followed him into what looked to be a forest, it kept growing darker the farther I walked in, but I still could see him just ahead of me. He stopped by a tree and grabbed a black cloak, putting it on as he kept walking. He flipped the hood over his head.
That is where it stopped, I bolted upright. I was covered in could sweat, I looked over at my clock, which read 4:53. I didn't think much about the dream and rolled over and fell asleep again.
That morning I woke up with the sheets wrapped around me as if I had stirred around the whole night. I didn't bother my mind with those thoughts, but got up and got dressed. I pulled my hair back and slipped on a pair of shoes before heading out to the common room. It was 10:30, pretty late for me. Malfoy wasn't sitting in the common room so I figured he was already down in the Great Hall, so I walked down there.
Malfoy sat at the Slytherin table talking to a third year. He looked up at me when I walked in, but showed no emotion. I did the same, taking a seat alone at my table. After eating 3 pancakes and some bacon, I was ready to leave, but I couldn't get up for someone was in my way.
"All your friends leave you here? Pity isn't it? Shame that not even a measly 2nd or 3rd year is willing to sit with you," Malfoy said in his normal drawl.
I didn't know what he was doing, has the last days been all a dream. But before I could answer he filled my head with more annoying comments.
"You scare them all away?"
"No," I finally got my voice back, "Least I don't have my own little annoying posy following my around worshipping my every step, fight my own fights." I got up and walked out on him.
I walked to the library wondering what had happened to all the things we had done together. I walked in taking my normal seat, at the end of a table in the corner of the room by the window. I leaned against the seal looking out onto the grounds
I sat there wondering why I had ever tried to be friends with him; my ambitions were a total failure, not mention a waste of time.
I felt my eyes begin to sting. I couldn't be crying, not over some slimy little bastard like Malfoy.
I spent the next 20 minutes fighting back tears; I had no idea where they had come from. When all signs of tears were gone, and I felt my eyes were no longer red, I headed back to the common room.
Malfoy sat on the couch with that god awful smirk on his face. He smiled when he saw me, "You are a good faker!" He got up and started to walk over to me.
"Faker? Don't even talk to me," I said headed straight for my room. Malfoy stopped dead in his tracks
"What is the matter? You don't think that was real do you?"
But I didn't wait for him to explain, I slammed the door in his face.
I sat down on the bed now understanding what had happened that morning. He was faking an argument to make your relationship as normal seeming as possible, or what used to me normal.
I sat there realizing how dumb I had been and how stupid I had acted. But I wasn't one of those people who made mistakes and laughed at themselves. I was a person who didn't like to be proven wrong. When people laughed about mistakes, I felt that they weren't laughing with me, they were laughing at me. I knew now, as I sat there, that I would need a good excuse to get me out of this predicament.
Sry for the wait my computer had spyware, and we just go it fixed Friday, I just now go done typing this, sense we had to completely revamp our system and delete all old documents. I'm not so sure this is my best work, but it is just getting ready for a bigger step. OMG though, I got so many reviews again it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
BIG thanks to:
DarkSkyPrincess your too kind, but I agree u must keep reading, lol. Thanks so much for the review!
In Dreams: yes I love when people point out my mistakes in a nice way, not just doing it to make u look bad. I must go and read one of your stories, pick out all your mistakes, lol jk, I'd do it in a nice way tho if I found any. Me . . . scared . . . HA
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Lymaria yes I don't really care for those fics, it just seems too fast. That is partly why I decided to write this to have a change. Thanks so much for the review! (it was very encouraging)
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latvian that is what I strive for, DIFFERENCE! (in life (hehe) and in my stories) Thanks so much for the reiview!
Trinity Cloud: yea I'm glad too, what am I saying I control what she does, MWUHAHAHAHA, lol. Omg I loved your little story! Sry for the delay with the update. Thanks so much for the review
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Shaztine: hi draco
Draco: ::blushes:: hi
Draco: i AM such a BABE!
Lil' Bode: ::rolls eyes::
Draco: ::shaking finger:: remember what I said about rolling your eyes
Lil' Bode: yea, yea, you are a cute-e tho draco.
Draco: ::blushes:: yea I know!
Lil' Bode: just so adorable ::pinches cheeks::
Draco: stop that, now u are reminding me of grandma florentine
Lil' Bode: aw, but u are so adorable. don't u agree?