..: Goodbye Isn't Forever
..: Author: Lil' Bode
..: Chapter XVIII: Running Without Reason
..: Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN THE HARRY POTTER FRANCHISE, THAT IS PROPERTY PF J.K. ROWLING, AND, OR WARNER BROTHERS.
A mist of smoky fog swirled around me. "Wait, Malfoy," I yelled as I ran through a grassy meadow filled with flowers.
Malfoy ran just ahead of me, I kept running but it was as if he couldn't hear me, he kept going, and he finally stopped, to look back. He didn't seem notice me nor hear me yelling.
I followed him into what looked to be a forest, it kept growing darker the farther I walked in, but I still could see him just ahead of me. He stopped by a tree, grabbing a black cloak and put it on as he kept walking. Then with one sharp motion, he flipped the hood over his head.
He kept walking and the forest grew colder and darker, so I could just barely see. I kept walking and then started running, but I couldn't hear my own foot fall. For the first time I felt the twigs, and pine cones, pierce the bottom of my feet. I looked down to find I had no shoes on. I kept running, as though I knew where to go.
Just then I saw a clearing appear in the dark, damp night. Through all the sinister towering trees there seemed to be a dim light. I watched ahead of me as Malfoy entered the clearing. I followed his lead, but stopped frightened when I heard a twig snap in the deadly silence.
To my great surprise Draco, didn't even flinch, scared it might happen again and he would hear it that time, I tip-toed slowly around any fallen twigs.
Just as I made it into the clearing, my eyes seeming to readjust, my world went completely black.
I woke up, my hair matted against my head, my clothes damp from sweat. What covers had been mine, were tightly twisted around my body. I sat up right trying to catch my breath. Looking over at the window, through which the sun was now shining, seem to bring me the slightest but of serenity, but that lasted just as long as I had thought I had been alone.
There sitting next to me was Draco, he sat upright watching me, a look of slight fear, but mostly concern filled his eyes.
"Are you alright?" he asked softly; placing one of his hands on my damp shoulder.
I didn't respond, but instead leaned in and hugged him tightly. I placed my teary eyes down on his shoulder.
I was sick of running, trying to find something, sick of the damp humid air that always filled my dreams no matter how happy they were, sick of chasing Draco through the trees, shoeless, twigs piercing my feet. Just as I thought it, I felt my feet twinge. I didn't dare look down afraid to draw attention to them. If they were cut, I didn't want Draco to see, I didn't want him to know. I wanted to figure it out by myself. I wanted to know what it meant first before I scared everyone with it. I was never one to take other's pity.
"What's the matter," he whispered in my ear, gripping me tighter yet.
I just sat there in my arms, not knowing what to answer. I couldn't tell him the truth, so what would I tell him. Before I could find the answer a feeling of panic set over me, I had never been claustrophobic before, but now it felt as the walls were closing in on me and I couldn't get free.
I pulled back taking in deep breaths of air.
"We should go to the hospital wing," Draco murmured, walking over to my side of the bed. I pulled back when he came though.
"No I'm fine, it was just a bad dream," I answered hoarsely.
"You can't be! I've never seen you act this way in my life."
"I'm fine!" I retorted angry at him for a reason vague to me. Maybe it was because he couldn't seem to believe me or maybe it was assuming I had never been like this before, when he hadn't known me my whole life!
"Are you sure?" he asked, seeming unsure of my answer.
"Yeah I'm just fine."
There was an awkward silence; tension seemed to fill the room.
"Alright . . . well I have to go get something, I'll be back in a little bit," he said hesitant to leave me. He looked back once, before exiting the room.
The silence came back, but the tension seemed to drift out, following Draco. I was afraid to look down at my feet still fearful of what I might find. I took a deep breath and pulled back the covers. I saw nothing, not a scratch, not even redness. I was concerned with what was going on but I could help but to find relief in the fact that is wasn't real, at least that part.
My stomach sucked in as I took a deep breath of air. I didn't know what to think of these dreams, and I was never one to go for help, when it came to emotional things. Whatever it was I would manage to deal wit it myself.
I stepped out of bed and walked to the bathroom.
The cool water dripped down my face as I reached for a hand towel. My reflection shown back at me in the mirror, to me I looked normal, messed hair, and a drowsy faced stared back at me. I reached for a pony holder, beside the sink, tugging my hair back, not caring wait appearance I got in return. Without another look I headed back.
I clutched the end of my shirt in my hand as I rummaged through my closet with the other. I pulled out a black sweater, and then proceeded to my dresser to find my pair of cotton shorts.
My hands pulled at my tie-died knee high socks, as I sat on edge of my bed putting them on. Just as I put my right foot down, I felt a surge of cold rush through my body, causing me to bound into bed and pull the covers over my head. But before I could settle in I heard the door open.
My eyes level wit the edge of the blanket; I peered out, only to see Draco carrying a wooden serving tray filled with breakfast. Before the smell of bacon had reached my nose, I was out of bed, with my blanket around me. The thoughts of my dream were now far from my head.
"Bacon!" I blurted, trying to divert my attention from the worried look in Draco's eyes.
"Yes," he responded raising his eyebrows in amusement.
I rubbed my hands together in delight before grabbing a piece and chowing it down.
"Hold on," he ordered holding his hand out. He set the tray on the bed and pulled his wand from his left pocket.
"Apponoepulae," he said and with the swift wave of his wand a table appeared, set for two. Then yet with another flick, the food from the tray glided over and onto the table.
"Nice," I said slightly impressed. Draco gave me a look of pride and accomplishment. I walked over to him, placing my arms around him. "Thank you," I whispered, and then kissed him on the cheek.
He kissed my lightly on my temple, "Now lets eat, I'm starving," he added with a smirk.
I walked over and sat myself down in the wooden chair, picking up my fork ready to eat.
My mouth full of food, I was wondering yet again about my dream. Draco seemed to be cheery, but when I stopped talking after a few minutes, his attitude change. There was something in the look that he gave me that seemed to tell me he knew what I was thinking about.
"We have the Christmas Eve feast tonight, don't stuff yourself," he said, in his attempt to lighten my mood.
"That is a whole 10 hours away," I said waving him off with my hand, while using the other to take a bite of my toast smeared with marmalade. With my mind no longer on food however, I grew full, and set down my food, taking the napkin from my lap. Seeing my absence in eating, Draco soon quit as well.
"I can do the dishes," he smirked, "Colligoabluo," he pronounced clearly. The dishes, gathered in the middle of the table, and then placed themselves on the tray. With that they were gone, leaving behind that round maple wood table.
"I have to go do something," I told Draco suddenly, leaving my chair, and heading towards the door.
"I'll come with you," he said getting up to follow me.
"No," I turned towards him, "Please don't. I have something I'd have to do, that I would rather do alone."
I walked out shutting the door behind me. I hurried across the common room, afraid that Draco might come after me. I truly just wanted some alone time in a place I knew I could understand.
ok now if that wasn't long enough in the making . .. i am really sorry to those who read this. the truth is that i was considering not writing fan fiction any longer. But i will honestly tell you now after i received two reviews; i will stick around long enough to finish this story! i give u the right to throw rocks, books, shoes, remotes, cd players, purses, (wutever really) at me. but just so u know wutever u throw i get to keep so longs as i am still alive, LOL!
I WOULD LOVE TO THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE EVER REVIEWD GOOD OR BAD! i have now written the same amount of chapters as in my last story wit double the reivews. and if there is anyone still out there still hanging on to a cliff waiting for me to update i thank you so much! u all get cookies!
Thanks to my REVIEWERS:
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Draco: i like moonlit strolls on the beach and . . .
Lil' Bode:smacks wit purse: enough!
Draco:rubs face: hey she was flirting
Lil' Bode: but that sounds like a corny profile you would put on a dating site
Draco: ok ok . . .you wanna share some of my cookies Broadwaybrunett?
black colour vision: thanks, hope u will still keep reading. yes patience is a virtue, but i give u the right to wanna beat the crap outa me for not at least trying! but i didn't say u could actually beat me up, lol, i just said you had 'the right to wanna' Thanks so much :hands cookie:
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Draco: bout damn time, i was getting really bored sitting here doing nothing, sense no one was here to write wut I did
Lil' Bode:blushes: yea sry
Draco: i managed to pace a whole in the floor :fills with pride and accomplishment:
Lil' Bode:gives thumbs up: that's nice.
Draco:pouts: fine then be that way, i just won't act cute then
Lil' Bode: fine with me i just won't update then
Draco: HEY, YOU CAN'T DO THAT.
Lil' Bode: why not:crossing arms:
Draco: i mean the whole wearing a hole in the floor by pacing was fun an all, but i DON't wanna do it again:gets down on knees: please UPDATE!
Lil' Bode: we'll see what they say :referring to reviewers:
Draco:turns toward reviews: please make her update:whispers: i'll even let you throw your whole computer at her:D
Lil' Bode: HEY i heard that!
Draco:gets up, and turns to run:turns around to plea one last time: PLEASE, and trust me u can throw wutever!
:D
Lil' Bode