Chapter Thirteen: Their Night
I ran around like a mad woman between all the men gathering the materials for this project. "NO NO NO WE'RE GOING TO NEED TONNES OF THAT!" I yelled in frustration. "And not this type! That type!" I corrected pointing to the sheet. That type, this type. Even if I wanted it to be a type. It still was not anywhere near the orginal type found in the machine. I had no idea what the material used was.
"Yes Yes Miss Winry we're extremely sorry." The soldiers said bowing their heads with shame.
"It's going to take a god damn life-time just to organise this." I sighed with frustration.
"Winry, do you have any idea what other mechanics we should call?" Riza asked, standing with her arms crossed as if she was organizing the whole process. We were in the room Ed and I has used as our workspace. It was being used for the materials on this project. But the room was barely full at all and it was going to take this whole room for all the materials. We had been going for a day now and this was turning out to be a tiring process, if not impossible.
"Actually not really… there is this one really great guy in Rush Valley who I trained with, but I'm telling you now that there is no way he will co-operate in this type of project. He keeps to himself (sort of a loner)" I whispered to Riza with a laugh.
"Then I will just have to get on Roy about calling every qualified mechanic." Riza said with a sigh.
"Hmmm yes but most of them wouldn't be able to comprehend this type of thing it's only because I, the beautiful auto-mail engineer, am here, that you will be able to get through this." I grinned, brining my hand up to my cheek. I suspected most of the men were just rolling their eyes, but once I raised my wrench they got back to their work straight away.
"Oh Winry?"
I turned my head to see Edward resting himself against the door with a confident smile on his face and gasped.
"Ed..." I whispered nervously, hiding the plans behind my back
Once I had arrived at the millitary base, I had ran to the room straight away. I noticed Winry was not in the bed, but her clothes were also missing which instantly calmed me. "She's ok." I sighed with relief dropping my suitcase on the bed.
"That's right she is down in the work room I believe she is waiting for you Sir."
My face sagged with exhaustion. Why was it that soldiers popped up at the exact right time to answer my questions? It freaked the hell out of me. "Okay just stop following me!" I replied sourly to the man who had escorted me back to my room. He complied and left as I laid my red coat out over my bed before heading down to the work room.
I leaned against the door and watched the bustling life in the room with a confused look on my face. Winry seemed to be in charge and had everyone under her control. This caused me to watch her with admiration.
"Hmmm yes but most of them wouldn't be able to comprehend this type of thing, it's only because I, the beautiful auto-mail engineer, am here, that you will be able to get through this." Winry said flicking her hair over her shoulder and caressing her cheek. The room totally froze as she admired herself and I just closed my eyes with a chuckle at her large ego.
"Oh Winry?" I said with a large smile on my face. I crossed my arms over my chest and watched as she nervously hid some papers behind her back.
"Ed…" Winry laughed nervously. I nodded and walked up to her with a sort of wondering look on my face. She stood their quite confused as I stared at her with admiration. She started to blush furiously as the rest of the room had stopped to observe the moment. "Ed… what…?" Winry asked looking away. I flung my arms around her and picked her up in the air, spinning her around.
"You're okay!" I screamed with delight. She merely let out a suprised sort of sound as I affectionately squeezed her. "YOU'RE A GENIUS WINRY!" I said letting her drop to the ground. I squeezed her tightly and patted her on the back.
"What was that for…?" Winry asked, her eyes sort of glazed over as she moved away from me, looking like she was about to faint. Maybe I had spun her to fast... The rest of the room had totally frozen and I just turned back to everyone and raised my hands
"Well get back to work chop chop!" I said with a grin. The room was instantly buzzing with life again, and this gave me a chance to turn to Winry. "Great Winry, this is just what I wanted!" I told her,observing her expression that showed she was deeply afraid.
"You sure are in a good mood, I might take advantage of that later... I thought you were going to kill me when you found out. I thought you didn't want me to do this…" Winry said looking around the room. "But I just couldn't resist."
"You really are okay with it?" I asked him. "I really thought you had told me not to."
"No No No, this will get me back to my brother, I'm sure of it!" Edward said with delight. "I know you can do it Winry." Ed said sitting next to me on the couch, watching the people run past.
"Ed…" I said with a sad expression. Of course I loved it when he regained his hope, but it also made me sad because it was worse for him when he fell. This now put great pressure on me to build this thing right. Just at that thought, someone dropped a large piece of metal and cursed.
"THIS WILL NEVER WORK! IT'S JUST TOO ADVANCED FOR US TRUST ME THIS WILL NEVER WORK!" The woman said throwing her hands up in the air. "I quit!" When this happened I instantly turned to Ed, who's eyes had become numb with hurt. I cursed at the lady for making such a fuss and chased her out of my room with the wrench.
"Well I think I am going to call it a night." Ed said raising himself from the seat. That sparkle I rarely saw in his eyes had disappeared and he thanked me once again for working so hard before he was gone.
"Riza… I think I want to go talk to him… can I finish for tonight?" I asked cautiously.
"Well of course… it's really up to you when you work…" Riza said. "Ill look after it don't worry."
"Great!" I replied, throwing my wrench behind me in a rush to catch up with Edward. I had to help him somehow. I was going to take advantage of that mood that how now turned sour tonight. But now I had to comfort.
I walked down the hallway to my room smiling to myself. No! that hadn't discouraged me. I knew this much, but I knew everything that I was thinking was just an act. It really was impossible, but I was going to keep trying. Just like Winry was going to. I didn't know how long it was going to take and I was loosing hope with Al… I felt guilty and depressed for feeling this way, it was easier to just give up and feel sorry for myself. I entered the room hearing loud footsteps behind me. Probably some solider. I have had enough. I slammed the door behind me and sat on the edge of my bed resting my head in my hands.
"Edward!" Winry stood in front of me panting for breath and removed the bandanna from her head. I looked up at her with amazement as she puffed for her life. "Do you know how fast I ran?" She smiled through her puffing. She sat next to me on the bed with a sigh. "Don't listen to her Edward, we'll do it, we will!" Winry said reassuringly. I turned my head away and leaned on my elbows which were resting on my thighs.
"You're always here to make me feel better aren't you?" I asked sadly. "But what do I do for you?" There was a silence as Winry looked away with sadness. "Winry tell me the honest truth… can you do this?" I asked her.
"I will try my entire life to build this for you. But it may take a lifetime, we don't even have the proper materials to start with." After saying that she clasped her hand over her mouth. "I mean, don't worry I will try." She laughed nervously. I looked away with sadness.
"Winry… it's over." I said softly.
"No Ed, you will get back to your brother, I know you will." Winry said with a shaky voice.
"I will get back to my brother, no matter what it takes. But the Zeppelin, we have to give up." I sighed."Besides it's selfish of me to create a weapon that the military will use to kill people, just so I can get to Al. He wouldn't want that." I said turning my head to the side to glance at her. "Thanks for all your help though, I really appreciate your dedication. We can continue for a little while with it. We don't want to suddenly stop a project Roy spent time funding. But you really are wonderful, thanks." I looked away with a sigh.
"Ed…" She whispered softly. There was another long silence as we sat side by side on the edge of the bed.
"Don't look I'm changing." She said suddenly. I gulped as I heard her clothes drop to the ground, why did she have to change right next to me?. I turned my head back to face her once she gave the ok. My eyes widened as she spun around in the piece of clothing. "I have always wanted to try it on." She said. The sleeves... clearly too big for her, but the length was fine since we were the same height. I cursed myself for leaving my coat over the bed and watched as she pulled her hair out from the coat and let it down over her shoulders.
"For some reason that looks really…" I blushed and looked away not knowing why Winry looked so attractive in it.
"Ahh it feels really nice." She exhaled sitting back on the bed. "And it smells like you!" I looked up at her shyly as she twirled around in my piece of clothing, deciding it was best if I moved away from her. After removing my boots, I leant against the pillows and lifted my legs up so I could rest my chin on my knees. Winry sat at the end of the bed sadly, swinging her legs over the side. That's when it happened… I couldn't control myself seeing her upset, remembering the conversation we'd had the other night… no more like the screaming match. Winry had that far away look in her eyes, as if she was thinking about me again. My mind fell back to the letter… Al… everything that had happened with the zeppelins. Everything come flooding to me in one hit. In the blink of an eye a single tear slid down my cheek and I inhaled sharply at the distant feel of water running down my cheek. Winry instantly turned her head at the sound of my cry and jumped onto the bed, crawling closer to me.
"Ed what's wrong? You never cry…" Winry asked placing her hands on my knees. I began crying hysterically as she brought up this fact. All the tears I had held in so long, all the emotion flowing out. Winry was the only person I could show my weak-side too, and I hated her for that. "Ed…" Winry also began to cry at the sight of me and she tried to part the legs I had brought up to my chest in an attempt to shield myself.
"AL! IT'S MY ENTIRE FAULT!" I sobbed letting her part my legs. She crawled into the space between my legs and placed her hands either side of my thighs. She observed me quietly, crying as well. "I need you… I need you Winry." I dropped my head with this confession and cried even harder. Now that I had admitted it, my need for her had become official. She moved her face closer, gripping the sheets either side of me tightly. I could see she was bracing herself. I instantly looked away from her but felt her breath against my lips. I could almost feel the warmth from her lips on mine longing to comfort me.
"…Winry… don't even think about it." I said firmly and finally turned my head to glance at her eyes with painful blurred vision of her beautiful face. I reached up to wipe my tears away, it was embarrassing. The exact second I let my guard down, her lips were upon mine, engulfing them in a passionate frenzy. I gasped in surprise as she collapsed onto me, kissing me like some sort of animal. I observed her face as she did so. Her eyes were shut tightly, with her face tensing. As if she thought I was about to slap her away at any second. Her body shook upon me with her sobs, but that didn't stop the softness of her lips completely captivating me. Tell her to stop, just push her away.
As quickly as she had begun I found myself becoming lost within the kiss. My hurt crying out for comfort. Don't shut your eyes, don't Edward. I fought a battle, but of course I lost to myself and shut my eyes slowly. I kissed her back. Just push her off you! Why is it so hard? She is going to think things, she will want things. I felt my hands slowly raising themselves to her head. Don't you idiot! Don't! I ran my hands through her hair as she kept her body close to mine, her heat starting to get me hot.
I gasped when she broke the kiss to take my tears in her mouth, something I was grateful for. This is your chance tell her to stop. I opened my mouth to object, but only managed moaning her name softly instead. I brought my hand down to the coat as she kissed my cheek, unhooking the one clip that kept it together at the top. I never used it because I just buttoned it to my coat underneath. It instantly fell down stopping at her elbows due to the looseness of it on her. Her shoulders and chest were revealed to me. I can't believe I'm doing this to her, I'm a jerk! I caught a glimpse of her bra before my view was obstructed and she pressed herself to me again, kissing my neck tenderly. I moaned un-willingly, resting my head against the back of the bed, as all attempts to resist in my mind melted away at the pace of speed itself. This whole new experience was quickly becoming one of the greatest things I had ever felt in my entire life. I held Winry close to me, protectively, not wanting to let it or her go.
I laid their motionless as she showered me with affection, not seeing anything but my brother in my mind. I was selfish, this was selfish, everything about me was selfish, it was even selfish to Winry. but I couldn't seem to stop and my insides screamed for more.
I unknowingly shed more tears as I felt her soft touch on my skin. Due to the fact experiencing pleasure was something I thought I did not deserve, especially not with Winry. But Winry once again took the tears into her mouth . It made me weak to think Winry could do this to me, make me feel so good when I didn't deserve it. Her smooth shoulders enticed me as she pressed herself against me, pulling my shirt over my head. Her hands ran down my chest softly as her lips found mine again, lingering for a second before I pulled away. She kissed my chest. Then slowly started moving down my stomach with her kisses. I arched my head back with this, the feeling felt so strangely familiar.
"I want to go further Edward, much further with you…" She moaned, reaching my pants and unzipping them hastily. All I could do was lay there against the bed while letting her do whatever she wanted to me, my body not responding to anything but her touch. Once she had unzipped them she sat up, grabbing my hands and placing them on her chest. I flinched slightly, observing the way the coat had gathered around her thighs leaving her beautiful legs exposed. I removed my hands from her chest and ran them down her stomach feeling the material of my coat against my arm, making the whole situation seem a little more erotic. She was wearing my coat and she looked so inviting… so enticing.
I heard her gasp as I ran my hands down her sides, maybe her body was confused with one side feeling incredible warmth and the other side feeling hard, sleek, cold metal. I would have stopped straight away but she seemed greatly pleasured by the feeling. I then pulled her towards me, kissing her collarbone and chest with passion, un-known passion I never realised I held for her. She gasped and I moved forward slightly as she slightly moved back. And I ended up collapsing on top of her my head dug into her chest.
"Ed…" She moaned bringing one of her legs up to rub the sides of my torso. She then rested the leg on my back and arched hers with a gasp as I travelled down her stomach. Her body movements were too much for me to handle as her curves beckoned for more. So I kissed lower and lower and lower till she cried out with frustration and yelled at me for being a tease. But I wasn't teasing, I was contemplating, and the more I thought about the situation, the more the sadness welled inside of me. So I stopped, dug my head into her lower stomach and started crying desperately.
"I can't do this to you Winry, we can't do this." I cried feeling my whole body completely ache for more of her touches.
"Ed…" Winry whispered reaching down for my hair. I held her hips firmly while crying into her stomach. I felt ashamed. If I started something, I should finish it.
"TSSSSS…." She cried, squirming a little. I became confused and lifted my head to look at her face twisted in pain. "Sorry, don't worry there is just a bruise there…" She mumbled. I heard her gasping for breath and I knew she wasn't satisfied. I wasn't either. But I couldn't do this to Winry, not when we were both upset and crying, it didn't feel right. I kissed her stomach gently a few times as an apology and felt her hand come into contact with my hair once again. She ran her fingers through it lovingly and whispered gently to me.
"It's okay…" She said. I closed my eyes, my hands still running over parts of her body that I couldn't take my hands away from. "Thank you." She whispered. "For letting this happen." I heard the sadness in her voice and cringed. "Just stay close to me tonight." I nodded in agreement and felt myself slowly falling asleep on the woman's stomach. Filled with troubled dreams of my sins.
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