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Chapter Twenty-two: This Love Means Goodbye

I ran through the country side as the rain poured down heavily on me, reminding me of what I was about to go through with, a heavy weight on my shoulders, the danger I could be placing myself in. The hurt I could cause Winry. Tears fell from my eyes, hidden by the rain, as I ran to my home at full speed. I had to tell her, I had to let her know. It always rained here! Why couldn't the sun come out?

I came to the front door, tears pouring from my eyes like a little child. I hated that this could make me cry, that I was crying about the possible hurt this could cause Winry. I didn't want to cry! My brother, I wanted to smile and laugh. But I couldn't.

I kicked off my shoes and entered the house wearily. The first thing I saw was a lovely meal set out on the table. The next thing I saw was Winry walk to the door from the kitchen, hurt and pain in her ocean blue eyes as she glanced upon me. Her hair was done up beautiful and a black silk dress clung to her figure. She had gone to the trouble to look good for me, and this only made me feel guiltier. I pushed my lips together slightly as I glanced upon her.

"Edward what have you done to yourself?" She asked with shock taking a step towards me. Obviously my tears weren't hidden from her eyes and she moved closer to me yet again.

"Don't!" I said loudly taking a step back from her. She flinched and moved her hand away from my face. Hurt and pain welling in her eyes. "Don't touch me Winry." I cried entering the door and slamming it behind me. She watched me from the door as I walked towards the meal and began shoving it down my throat. I was hungry, so hungry it burned inside. "I don't want to wet you." I said when I noticed how much I had hurt her.

She walked over to the table and sat next to me eating her dinner slowly as she watched me, not a word passing between us.

"I'm so sorry I'm late, I ran all the way here." I said after a long twenty minutes of silence. She was now resting her head on her hand and playing with the food on her plate. I had already finished and gulped down the water.

"It's okay."

"Obviously it's not, you look upset." I told her, I cocked my head to the side slightly and wiped the tears from my cheeks.

"Oh do I?" She said sarcastically, flinging some rice off her plate. "I don't know why the hell I would be upset."

"I get it; you want me to say you look beautiful right? Because you do." I told her equally annoyed. She didn't reply and I tensed my fists slightly, women. "I appreciate the dinner." I said with annoyance. Once again she didn't reply ah why can't we ever get along? How am I supposed to tell her that I am going on a quest to retrieve my brother now? It will just end up with a wrench to someone's head. So I stood up from the table. "Fine woman, what the hell do you want from me?" I grabbed my plate and drink and placed it in the sink noisily. "What the hell did I do now?" I asked walking over to her chair and picking her plates up as well.

She stood up and slapped me across the face. "Well maybe the fact you came in and told me to not fucking touch you isn't anything to get upset over." I held my cheek and watched the stray tears fall down hers. "You never tell me what the hell is going on with you, why the hell you left, why you came back crying and soaked to the bone, why you look like this is the last day of your freaking life!" She yelled.

I dropped my head and turned my back on her walking towards the sink.

"TELL ME!" She screamed. "Stop keeping this important information from me. I cringed slightly. I can't tell her now! Why the hell does she have to be such a jerk? Why do I have to be such a jerk? She continued to yell at me and all I could do was tense my body.

I ignored her as I walked past her, walking into my room and collapsing onto the bed. I sat on my knees and stared down at the pattern on the bed, not knowing what exactly I was even thinking about. She followed me into the room, of course. And I glanced up at her desperately, before I had the chance to control myself, the words just rolled of my tongue. "Winry I need you…" I screamed tensing my fists; I heard her turn the light off and cried hopelessly as she stood beside the bed.

"What am I to you Edward, you can't just discard me when you're in bad mood, I'm not just your comfort, and I'm not a play thing…" She said softly.

"We are just both so hot-heated." I added.

She nodded with a slight smile. "And stubborn."

"You're everything to me." I replied digging my head into my hands. "Winry this is why I always kept to myself, why I didn't let you know how I felt, because I was going to hurt you, I didn't want to hurt you." I said through tears. She remained silent. "But someone told me that ignoring you would hurt you more."

"It did Edward, it almost killed me."

"But I don't think I have made the right choice, I shouldn't have let you know, we should have stayed friends…" I said knowing very well how much the words hurt her.

"What are you saying…? We are friends…" She took a step back.

"I'm saying that I may not be in your life for much longer…"

"Are you leaving me? After all this? You came here and played with me! YOU JUST MADE IT WORSE! THIS IS HURTING ME! NOT STAYING WITH ME! LEAVING ME!" She yelled.

"No Winry… my brother… I found a way."

She took a step towards me and placed a hand on my shoulder.

"You're going away?" The tone in her voice could not be matched byanything I had ever heard before.

"He is beyond the gate, that place I told you about." I whispered softly. "I might be able to bring him back; the thing is there is a chance I might not return." At this comment she crawled onto the bed and sat on her knees in front of me. "You know my brother comes first Winry… I have to do this." I raised my head to stare into her eyes, the moonlight dimly lighting the room. "I may be able to come back to you… I may, and I will try my best, because I love yoouuu-" I was cut off by her lips descending upon mine and my eyes widened suddenly, what is she doing kissing me at a time like this?

Her kiss like fire, like ice, like everything all at the same time. Passion, want, desire, anger, sadness, pain, helplessness, desperateness, and sympathy contained on the tip of her lips so sweet. She told me what she felt about the situation with her powerful kiss. Although I was too shocked to respond to it, I didn't pull away either, her kiss had numbed me, she was pumping the life back into me. I am going to get her wet, I am completely soaked. She didn't seem to care though, and this made me smile through her kiss.

When she pulled away it was only to remove the clip from her hair, once she had done this it fell down around her, framing her beautiful face. She glanced at me with sadness, as if she was contemplating the situation.

"Winry… shouldn't you be bashing me up?" I questioned, still to dazed to think properly. The poison on her lips keeping me in her spell.

"No, I should be making love to you." She whispered softly, lowering herself to my lips again. This time I was prepared. I raised my hands and placed them on her upper arms, returning the kiss with as much passion as I could. She clung with both hands to my read coat and moaned into the kiss, pushing me back against the wall.

So many words I wanted to tell her, so many sentences my brain just couldn't form. She then rested on my shoulder catching her breath, giving me time to think as well. She lifted her hands up and pulled the straps of her dress down off her shoulders inviting me to do the rest. I did this cautiously sucking on her shoulders as I did so. She was driving my crazy, and she knew this. But I waited for her to catch her breath on my shoulder. In the meantime my hands travelled down her back, placing my hands on her round behind. I closed my eyes tightly as she gasped, rubbing herself up against me. I ran my fingers down to her upper thighs, but didn't place my hands up her dress, I found that extremely rude and disrespectful to Winry, even though my body was screaming for her. She lifted her head to kiss my ear, sucking around the rim while whispering sweet words.

"Undo it." She finally said, I was still dazed from her sweet voice and ran my fingers over her back.

"What?" She didn't reply, but my hands found the clip of her bra, and I presumed that's what she wanted. The dress had fallen down and gathered somewhere around her hips leaving her soft back exposed. I ran my fingers over her smooth skin, marvelling at the beauty of her. "We should stop." I whined when she removed my coat. My fingers still laid hesitantly on her bra while she undressed my top half. I tensed when her fingers ran over my chest, and wrapped my arms around her tightly.

"Edward…" She moaned guiding my hands to the bra clip. I undid it and threw it aside feeling her chest press up against me. I was in absolute heaven when she began sucking my neck, guess it was a weak spot, and she knew that. I couldn't control myself much longer and whispered my frustration into her ear.

"Winry, Winry, Winry." I groaned, her body starting to move in a rhythm up against me. I hadn't forgotten our fight earlier and blushed, once second we were trying to kill each other, the next second… I could feel my heart beating fast in my chest; I could hear the beat of her body as she moved up against me. "Winry don't stop…" I whispered grabbing a fistful of her hair. She began to suck my neck harder, leaving me tingling all over at the sensation of it all. "Winry… let me make love to you, now, I want you right now…" I almost yelled regretting it as I did. She halted her movement and instantly took this as an opportunity. I grabbed her hands, pushing her down, pinning her to the bed. I was now on top of her and I saw the fear run through her eyes at my sudden movement. I dug into her neck running kisses right down to her chest. She moaned slightly and struggled underneath me, but I kept her hands firmly pinned to the bed.

"Ed I'm not ready." She gulped as I kissed down her stomach gently, making her moan with absolute pleasure. She began to squirm and rubbed her thighs together as I pulled off the dress, resting my head delicately on her black underwear. I puffed slightly. Her squirming legs coming into contact much too often with my member. I tried to endure the temptation as she wriggled and squirmed, but it wasn't adding up to much, where is my willpower tonight?

"No, no, no, no, no, no, no." She said firmly, bringing my hands up to her chest. "Ed……" She let out an angry scream as I removed my hands from her chest and brought them down to hold either side of her hips. I dug my head into her crotch and moaned as her leg rubbed against the already aroused member for the last time.

"Winry goddamn stop moving around, you're sending me insane!" I yelled angrily. "If you don't want to do this, fine… but you got me to this state." I said heatedly. I kissed her stomach again feeling the pounding need for her in my body. "God… Winry… what can you do to me?" I cried finding her lips once again.

"Ed, if I don't do this tonight, I may never get the chance to do it with you again." Winry said with frustration, she raised her lower body against my thigh and moaned.

"Is that why you're doing this? Winry that's not a good reason." I groaned. "I want you so bad now." I saw her hands travel down to her private area and immediately stopped them. I placed her hand on her stomach. "No Winry you're going to let me take care of that." I said to her, trying to keep my voice strong. She nodded her head and shut her eyes.

"Just give me a few minutes; I swear I can do this." She played with her fingers over her stomach and I pulled her black underwear down. She gasped, while I made the boldest move I think I ever had made. I touched her.

She moaned hysterically through the process, turning me on even more. She squirmed and wriggled and made it extremely difficult for me. But eventually she did succumb and she started to move her body to the rhythm of my touches and called for more. "How did you know to touch there?" She moaned raising her body; she arched her back and cried my name, begging me to keep going.

"I know about your body." I grinned.

"I know about yours too." She said with anger after a gasp.

"Obviously… the way you have been rubbing yourself against me all night, you tease."

"Edward… I really want you to do this, I do." She clenched her eyes shut as I stopped and let out a growl of frustration. "Okay… I'm doing this for you." She parted her legs slightly and I glanced down at her eyes. They seemed sure, they seemed ready. But Winry was a great actress.

"I really want you." I cried running my hands over her soft thighs. "I want to make you feel good, I love you."

She shook as I ran my fingers over her thighs delicately. "Oh just do it already, I can't wait anymore." I chuckled as she sat up to remove my boxers.

"Before it was, 'I'm not ready' now it's 'I can't wait'" I mused.

"Edward NOW!" She said angrily. I leaned over her to place a soft kiss on her lips and held her hands. While we were kissing passionately, I entered her. She broke the kiss and gasped arching her back. I ceased further action inside her and held her body close.

"Winry… I won't move I promise." I told her, despite the fact I could feel her warmness all around me. It was sending me insane with desire and want but I held onto her firmly.

Before I knew it she was trying to sit up. I pulled her up with me, onto my lap and closed my eyes as she wrapped her arms around my neck. She kissed my head softly and removed the plait, without me even noticing she began to move up and down on me, rubbing her wet glistening body against mine.

"Winry…" I moaned as she did so, I held onto her behind to steady her, and rolled my head back with pleasure.

"I love you so much." She whispered into my ear. I wanted to repeat the same to her, my face was however shoved in between her breasts. But I did anyway, whether she heard me or not was another thing. "Ed… from now on… lets do this 3 times a day." She moaned as I pushed into her slowly. Our slow tender movements really bringing us closer together.

"Winry…" Was she trying to make me stay? This cause my face to screw up with numb pain.

"And… Ed… you… ah" She buried her head into my neck, bending her back a little so she could. I could finally breathe easier.

The love making was slow and passionate. I wanted to speed up, I was tempted to. But what we were doing was perfect. Human contact, love between two people. I wasn't aiming for the pleasure; I was aiming to show Winry how much I loved her. How much her touch halted my breathing, stopped my heart, and had me crazy. I encircled my arms around her waist and entwined my fingers together over her back.

I ran my metal arm across her back slowly, as she moved gradually with me digging her head into my shoulder. Soft moans escaped her mouth. "More, touch me more." I presumed she meant with the metal arm in which she put so much of her soul into. I grinned cockily and placed my hands on her hips, stroking her softly. "Edward… it tingles, it tingles…" She rolled her head back for a second and dug it back into my neck with a frustrated groan. "Edward your doing something to me." She bit my shoulder slightly and screamed quietly with pleasure, trying to muffle her noises in my neck.

I became confused for a second, as to why she was reacting that much to my touch. Then I looked down at my hands to see a soft light eliciting from them. God damn I'm using alchemy on her. I had made a circle earlier around her back and I was causing an alchemic reaction without even realising. I grinned evilly and began to run my hands up her back, knowing exactly the effect it would have on her.

She screamed once again and grabbed fists full of my hair. I was speeding up the reaction in her body. Changing particles in her skin momentarily causing a pleasure one should not be able to take, they say there is a fine line between pleasure and pain, I think Winry was having a difficult time deciding which was which. I made sure not to take it too far, while I played with her nerves, but I wanted to send her absolutely insane.

When her body began to tremble, and she had gotten to the stage where she couldn't even make any noise, I released my hands from her with a chuckle. She let out a loud moan and fell into me, resting for a few minutes while I continued movement inside her. "Do it again." She said instantly, she moved up to my lips. It was my turn to be frozen and I cringed slightly trying not to clap my hands together. Once my hands were on her, my head, obviously had a mind of its own, and did stuff to her body without me even realising. "Edward…" She whined, continuing to moan from our love making.

"What are you going to do for me?" I whispered into her ear with a soft chuckle. Of course I was joking.

We were silent for a moment, nothing but our pleasured noises to keep us company. But then another noise could be heard through the darkness, and a new sensation could be felt running down my chest, Winry's sobs and tears…

"Don't cry." I said quickly. "I'll do it, I'll do it, here look!" I said frantically and clapped my hands together creating a light that filled the room. I pressed my hands down onto Winry's stomach and back. But it only caused her to cry out with anguish.

"Don't make me feel good." She sobbed as I removed my hands from her over a deep fear.

"But I thought you wanted me to…" I became terribly confused and let my arms fall to my sides.

"Yes I do! Idiot, idiot, IDIOT!" She yelled, pounding on my chest with her fists. Her force was so strong I fell backwards, she then landed on top of me, and her tears landed on my face. I cringed and looked up at her with pained eyes. "Don't you realise why we're making love right now?" She yelled, falling onto my body. Our love making ceased as she cried and sobbed on my chest, shaking furiously upon me.

"Because we love each other…?" I told her, hoping it was the answer she was looking for. I felt my stomach turn as the most horrible thought crossed my mind. She regrets it, she regrets it, she regrets letting me enter her. I inhaled sharply as she began to speak, wanting desperately to get my say in before her.

"DON'TSAYYOUREGRETIT!" I said so quick it took her a few seconds to understand, another tear fell onto my chest, and with that tear I fell. "I won't be able to handle it…" I said bringing my hands up to my ears. I blocked them and shut my eyes. "Please don't say it, don't say it… it will kill me." It was a few long moments where I laid there in that state. But finally I felt her soft hands run over my eyelids and I opened them slowly.

She pulled my hands away from my ears and smiled gently at me. "Ed… I'm crying because this love making means goodbye."

I stared up at her with confusion. "What? no it doesn't."

"By letting you make love to me, I'm basically saying it's alright for you to go chasing your brother beyond the gate, I'm letting you get away with it. I may never see you again, yet here I am making love to you." She cried, screwing up her face with pain.

I smiled softly and reached my hand up to her face, I gently wiped her tears. "That's why it's beautiful." She leant her face on my hand and sobbed gently. "We never know when we are going to loose each other, one night were making love, the next one of us is gone." She brought her own hands up to wipe her tears.

"I don't think that's beautiful." She whined.

"You're beautiful." I said in reply, knowing perfectly well that I was changing the subject.

"Ed, I try to be strong, I understand you need to do this for your brother… but Ed I can't… I can't… if you want to do this; you're going to have to fight me!" She said firmly.

I smiled once again. "Winry, we never know when we are going to be lost from the world as we know it, that's why we have to treasure every moment of our time together, everyday, just like I never did with mum, with Al. I have learnt my lesson now with you." I whispered to her sitting up slightly. I leaned on my elbows as I smiled at her lovingly. She cried desperately and couldn't find the courage to look me in the eye. "I promise you this; I will do everything in my power to return to you, you will be in my thoughts constantly." I grabbed her hand and kissed it gently then slipped the diamond ring from her finger. "This ring, will stay with me, it will lead me back to you."

She looked down at me. I nodded at her then grinned, slipping it onto my pinkie (The only finger it would fit)

The night lived on, we lived on in each other.

Saturn Stars