Fake it for him
By the time all of Mum's guests left, and I was out of my dress, I was to upset, angry, confused, and all the other teenage feelings there was nothing else to do but cry it all out.
To make matters worse, Mum did just as I thought she would and yelled at me for coming between her and her friends and that she was just in the middle of some important top secret discussion.
I ran into my room, slammed the door, and locked it. Tears were streaming out of my eyes. The water ran with my well-massacred lashes and down my face with the hot drops of rain.
Throwing myself on my bed, I buried my head into my pillow and screamed. No one bothered to come running to see if I was okay, I wasn't expecting anyone to.
I must have been in my room for hours. Moping around and feeling sorry for myself since I couldn't seem to have gotten the boy I wanted. During my session of mellow dramatics I caught site of myself in the mirror.
Horrible.
My face was red and blotchy. My hair was knotted and in need of a good brushing. I felt pathetic. The story of my life, you could say. This sort of thing always happened to me.
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"No way!" Cay said to me, it was early July, and I was at her house with intentions to say there for a while, "That low down scum!"
I couldn't write what had happened to her by owl, it was too painful.
"I know." I was lying on my stomach on her bed. She was sitting on her bean bag chair. Don't bother to ask how I got here. I told my Mum I was going over to some equal pureblood's house. Just another little white lie, she still has no idea.
"So how are you going to get him back?" She asked.
"Dunno" I respond.
"Well you still like him, don't you?"
I took one of her pillows and hide my face behind it.
Cay laughed either at my stupidity or my action for covering up my stupidity. I'm in love with this guy, who doesn't even like me back, and there I was still fawning over his old pictures. I really don't know how I could even hold up so long.
"Well that answers my questions." Cay said mocking me.
I sighed, "So what am I going to do about it? You always seem to have the answers to this sort of thing."
She picked up a magazine that was laying by her feet. It was "Wild Witch" that showed all the newest fashion trends, some not ready to be in style until a few more years.
"Well, you'll just have to win him back with your charm. Be more modern and make him jealous,"
I flicked my hand. "How first year!"
"Yea, but according to this article," she flipped threw some pages, "it does work. Hell, what's the worse that could happen? Its not like you can make any more of a fool of yourself."
I grinded threw my teeth, "That game was your idea,"
"Actually I just wanted an excuse to do something with Remus. He's a great guy and all, but so romantically slow! Do you know when he asked me out he said that he liked me since first year? What took him nearly three years?"
I gave a small smile, "And how did your man ask you out again?"
Her favorite topic, it would give me another second to rethink if I should bring up the idea of making Sirius jealous again, or just leave it as it was.
"Well," She light up, "We were by the lake, and it was right before the sun was going to set, so the aroma was very romantic. I was by myself for once. That hardly ever happens. You know, sometimes you just wanna sit down and think about what's going on and stuff. I was so engrossed in though I didn't even hear him come up behind me. I jumped as he tapped me on the shoulder. Once I was it was him, I laughed 'Hey Lupin.'. See we were made partners that day for the final potions lesson of the years, so I thought it had something to do with the assessment. Did I ever mention how he had the loveliest eyes? They were so full, and round. A nice chocolate brown,"
"Yea, you said it once or so," I said empty mindedly.
"Yea and he was all, "Hi," like really shy and kinda in a rush. It was so cute! He was turning all red and blushing. I was like 'this so can't be just for the essay.' Then he spoke up, he said 'You're really pretty and extremely nice for a Slytherin.' I got mad at him but then I saw this as a complement so I was all 'Thank you.' Then he just blurt it out, 'Would you go out with me?' and I was like in awe for a good second. Once I came back to my senses instead of just saying yes like any other normal person would I stepped closer and gave him a short kiss on the lips," Gazing into space she said, "And we've been going together ever since."
I didn't hear much of what she said, but I did make up my mind. "Great! So how do I make Black jealous?"
She stopped, "What? You actually want to rake one of my ideas and do this? Belle this isn't like you at all! Normally you just let this pass, and go back to daydreaming,"
"Yea, normally. I'm sick of the way I am. Take out every magazine you have. I'm going to make him wish that he begged to make me stay with him."
"Girl, are you feeling okay?" she asked.
"No. That's why I want you to do it. Give me the works. I want to be someone completely different that you could never recognize me."
Cay was getting excited. She loves to re-do people. She was begging me for years if she could give me a make-over (after you do it on yourself so many times, it does get boring).
She ran over to her desk draw, and after under her bed. Spilling out clips of fashion articles, and pictures. Then running to her dresser and reliving her make-up kit containing every sort of make-up in every color imaginable.
Thankfully I was sure that I wanted this done. If not it would have been to late anyway, she grabbed a chair and pushed me back into it.
Her room is more like a dressing room. There is a sink, but no toilet. The bed was hardly needed since she preferred to sleep down in her basement more then up in her room, so stakes of music were balanced there as a rack. She had a large mirror, and the whole impression was like a mini salon. Then her closet was like a different room entirely. So many clothes and pieces that you would be amazed that it was only for one person.
That was the last time I ever looked like myself, fizzy long black hair, small eyes, simple fingers, and lost look. I was no longer just Belle.
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"What do you think?" Cay asked me. I was standing in front of her over 6 foot tall mirror, looking at my new self for the first time.
"Merlin," I whispered.
Calyin appeared worried, "What no good?"
My long black hair was cut shorter to a bit above my neck and sprayed back giving it a wilder look. My once bitten nails now had tips to it, every other green, sliver. Eyebrows now waxed and controlled, making my eyes stand out a lot more. Even my figure looked different in the clothes that I was wearing. Cay gave (she said it would be pointless to ever ask for them back. And if she ever desperately needed them she could borrow them from me at Hogwarts) me many new shirts but the one I was wearing was a simple black tank-top, and for bottoms, my knickers were a pair of demon jeans. Plain but very likely to stand out. The robes were also black, but the clung to my body better, making me look more mature. The make-up, a fairy pale purple lip gloss, with mascara on my eyes, right by the blue/green eye shadow and black eyeliner. No blush, but cover up. I didn't even know it was me at first.
I turned to Cay. I could berly make out my thank yous. I was in love with my new self already.
"That's all good and all. But you can't just look like a new person. You have to act like her. You must fill the role in."
She was a confusing child.
"What are you talking about?"
"Well," She tried to explain. "You can't go around looking like your new. You got to be new. Like what do you want your name to be?"
"It's Belle, Cay."
"Yea, but what do you want you're nickname to be?"
"It's Belle, Cay."
"I know that! But what name fits the new look?"
I turned to myself in the mirror again. It looked more like how I pictured a Bellatrix then Belle.
"Bellatrix," I said.
"Okay…and what's her attitude towards life? Once you get this bases down you'll be able to build from this making the new you."
"She gets what she wants, and can control the people around her. No second thoughts. Just what she wants."
"Very rebel."
"Not really a rebel, but sure as anything not just the normal stick."
"You know how you want to be, don't you?" she said jokingly.
What she doesn't know was that I used to spend ours pretending to be Bellatrix.
Even as I spoke I slowly forgot about Belle.
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"Are you ready?"
"No."
"What do ya mean 'no'?"
"I mean I'm not ready."
"Well you made me doll you up for nothing! The least you could do as a away to thank me is show yourself off a little."
"How about no? I'm having second thoughts about this and-"
"Come on Bellatrix! You look great, now just walk in front of him like he isn't even there."
"But he is there."
"GR! Go NOW!"
With that Calyin pushed me. Summer was over and once again it was September first, we were back on to the Express, midway into our journey back to school. But this year was going to be different. I wasn't going to be the sap, he was. I swore it.
I was wearing a similar kind of make-up that I was the day that Cay originally did it. And like everyone else I was in the uniform. But Cay said she looked it up in every rule book that they say nothing about changing around the uniform, just to spice it up. Knowing her, she skimmed one book and didn't see it, making it impossible to find anywhere else.
So now I was in a shorter skirt, though same styled as the school, with chains connected to where the belt was supposed to be. I was in the Slytherin vest, but the shirt under it was a thin black one with a collar, and once again my robes were tighter fitting.
I could see Sirius just a few compartments away from mine. The heels I wore made a nice clinking noise down the corridor. I made sure that my posture was pin-straight.
Appearing the feeling that I knew what I was doing I knocked on his compartment door and stumbled in, trying not to look at him.
"Excuse me have you seen a purse laying around here" Good! So far playing dumb was going fine.
"Belle?" Sirius spoke, "Belle is that you?" he sounded like he hadn't seen me since we were two years old. Perfect!
"Oh Sirius I'm sorry. I thought that I was in the right compartment." I made sure to look him in the eye now. Let him get a good look at me.
"Well if we find something, we'll give it to ya. Right boys?" he choked.
That sounded so wrong at that second. The Maurdar burst out laughing leaving him blushing. I gave a grin and turned to Lupin.
"Remember to wait for Calyin when we get off the train," I reminded him, just as I promised Cay.
"Sure." He said, peering wide-eyed at my skirt.
I turned back to everyone, "Okay, well I'll see you later." And I walked out trying not to let my emotion show.
"Belle wait!"
"Huh?" I spun around, to see Sirius chase after me. "Hi"
"Hey. Belle what, um, happened?"
"First of all it's not 'Belle', it's Bellatrix. What do you mean what happened?"
"You look, really great."
Don't blush! "Well thank you."
We stood in silence for a minute. I was about to continue back to Cay, but he stopped me again.
"I hope that we could, well, forget about this summer. Maybe make a clean start?"
I shot him a smile, brushing my new bangs out of my eyes, really exposing my eyes, "Maybe."
Step one to getting what I wanted: Complete.
A/N: Haven't updated for a while. Sorry. I'll post my next chapter as soon as possible.
Oh, and don't worry, Voldie will also start appearing in it too, just not for a few more chaps (mwhaahahahahahahaha)
Thankx to everyone who reviewed and all that will :cough:
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