(a/n ok here is chapter 5, changes are being made and Mia is understanding them. she wil soon well so will you very soon)

At Grechin's in her room, listening to the delights of The Dears.

I needed to go somewhere so i came to Grechin's, she listens and doesnt judge, and she tells me things i need to know if i am in a rut like i am, but guess what she doesnt know what to do. Go with it.

Go with it? he looked like and idiot.

What happend i said a few changes not that, i left his bathroom, which was when he shoved past me with a chemist bag in his hand.

i asked him if he wanted me to stay and he said yeas so i can see the changes sure i was cuious.

I stayed, like an idiot half an hour of washing hair and blow drying Michael came out.

I was lost for words and everything else i had, he walked out of the bathroom in his Ramones top, he's nicely crinkled jeans and BLOND HAIR!

NO NO NO NO!

I didnt know what to do, so i did what i, Mia Thermopolis would do, i cried.

He just looked at me crying, blank expression. "Well is this what you want? i have changed is it not good enough Mia, because to be honest i dont know how much you want me to change, im completly clueless?"

With which i cried more.

He looked aweful, with his hair blond and his dark brown eyesbrows. He looked just like Josh Richer did when he went to high school, only Josh had the worst fashion ever.

"Michael!" i screamed obviously loud enough for a reaction, i stood and walked out of his dorm, he followed m to the exit of the building, then left me.

I can't stop crying, and it's just all wrong, his just taking this too personally. I need to go home, maybe i can catch him online.

My room, STILL CRYING.

I'm such a freak, how could i do this to him, and i cant have a boyfriend looking like that, maybe i should just finish it with him, to stop us going through more pain.

STOP IT! you love him you accepted his proposal, you have school tomorrow. go and sleep girl.

Lunch, with Grechin, Mario, Greg, and Lilani.

God this IS depressing, im the only one here who isnt partnered off, well that i know off. I need to see Michael, something has to give, i dont want to loose him, i cant.

God i need some music, and alcohol, im going out tonight. i dont care.

The girls are up for it so are the guys, so im going out. yay.

Ladies room in Jabberjaw.

I think i have grown a custom to this cubicle, its niceand comforting, and well all i can here is Mellowdrone, which is superb.

Tonight is really boringme, i must admit i look stunning, i have nice pastel green top on with my fave par of jeans and the guys are falling over my feet, but no matter how hard i try i alway look at them and say no, point out that im engaged and they get the message, one creep wouldnt, surprise surprise, he wouldnt leave me alone, he drooled and drooled. When i tried to walk away he grabed my wrist as to hold me close, so i swung my right arm straight into his face, the whole club cheered me. It was weird, but i had to get out, so i am here. All i want to do is watch a star wars movie. Im going to see Michael.

Michael's Dorm Room, he's moaning at me for writing but how can i not tell you this.

I walked in here and well he looked at me dumstruck, with his tounge hanging out.

I walked to him and placed my hand on his jaw as to pick it up, in the process i smiled and kissed him, i then cuddled him and kissed him furiously after seeing is hair is brown again, i cant do anything but play with it, he filled me in on what he did, used one of those not so permanant ones, we had a talk and he just wanted to freak me out like i did him, anpparantly me saying yes, but then saying he needed to change freaked him out, it did me too.

He has stopped being so gooey, but i needto stop being harsh and refusing his kisses and well being such a horrible person.