Note to Disclaimers: As always, I don't own Kingdom Hearts because Disney and Squaresoft do, ok? Oh and the lyrics for chapter one belong to Mandy Moore and dear Ella Fitzgerald so please, please don't sue me!

Thoughts Of Zephyr

"Are you going to talk to me at all?" I ask him, my voice barely above a whisper as I watch Tidus, Selphie, Wakka, and Riku paddle far ahead of us. I glance at him. "Sora, please, say something."

"No." He says stoically. "Just be quiet."

"Sora," I feel anger welling up inside me, "You can't ignore me forever! We are going to be stuck together on this boat for the next three hours so either you talk to me or I toss you overboard, hear?" I really will toss you overboard Sora, without a moments hesitation for the way you're acting you thickheaded hunk! I scold myself mercilessly for that last thought of mine. Stupid Kairi.

"No you won't." Sora still looks straight ahead. "I won't let you."

"The hell you won't!" I lose my temper, which is highly unusual for I have always been the calmer of us three or us two in this instance. I lunge at him, my arms outstretched to push him over. Whether I go with him or not, I don't care. I crash into his chest, catching him off guard, sending us both hurtling over the edge-until he shoves me back. I land flat on my back, flat against the cold wood of the boat, Sora atop me in an inappropriate position. He is breathing heavily, his eyes closed while his hands are on either side of my arms, his knees straddling my legs. He has me pinned underneath him, and by the looks of it; he isn't going to let up either. I twitch beneath him, which brings him from his stupor. He gazes at me, his eyes lustful like they had been last night. I watch steadily, nervously, as he leans into me, stopping inches away from my face. I feel my heartbeat quicken as it pounds painfully within my chest as my breathing becomes labored in an effort to ward off Sora's intoxicating scent. I turn my head as he comes closer, but look back right before he stops. His eyes are unreadable for a moment, but when I exhale a slow shaky breath, his eyebrows arch and his lips twitch.

"Don't do that again, Kairi." His tone is dangerously sexy like his smirk. He starts to push off me but I moan against my own accord. He stops immediately and I blush deeply. "Kairi...is there something you'd like to tell me?"

"N...no!" I say forcefully as I struggle to sit but find it hard since he hasn't exactly moved from atop me, his knees still holding my legs down. I don't have enough strength to resist him, yet I push myself up anyway. "Move."

He grabs my shoulder, tenderly but with a force I don't know he posses, holding me at bay in his desired position. "No. I rather like it here. How about you?" He settles himself back, leaning against nothing but the wind and yanks me forward where I land on him, straddling his hips with my legs. "Comfortable enough? After all, it is a long trip before we get to the desired destination, Kairi."

DAMN YOU SORA! Why are you doing this to me? My mind screams at him as I stare at him in a mindless stupor. "Oh..." I find that I cannot answer him coherently in my current location and state of mind. It is not right.

He wraps his arms around my waist, running one hand through my hair while the other pulls me forward. I can't bring myself to resist him. He leans next to my ear, nipping it before whispering, "You feel good, Kairi." He places a soft, gentle kiss on my neck; an extremely sensitive spot on my body. I gasp and throw my head back slightly. DAMN YOU SORA! I let out a few quick breaths before I hear him again. "You taste good too." DAMN YOU SORA YOU MANIPULATOR! I trail my hands to his chest and start to push him away when he nips my neck. My hands fall. I hear him again. "Tsk-Tsk Kairi. I wouldn't try that if I were you."

"So-Sora!" I say breathlessly as he continues to litter my neck and collarbone with chaste kisses, fiery kisses that burn on contact. "You...you have to stop this!" I know now that I don't and won't have the strength to push him away if he goes any further. I attempt to tell him again. "SORA!" He slides my sweater from my skin, leaving it bare and exposed to his soft lips. Magical lips, I'd say! Stupid Kairi. Good Sora. Bad Sora. "SORA!" I say again, this time a bit louder than before as he pushes the strap to my tank top off, the shirt falling halfway off. This is so indecent! I feel my control slipping as he gently kisses my shoulder, sucking the exposed skin gently as his hand travels to my skirt. I gasp again, wrapping my legs tighter about waist, subconsciously grinding my hips into his. This elicits a moan from him and he stops his ministrations momentarily to say my name, which sounds heavenly rolling off his tongue.

"Kai...Kairi."He trails off, his eyes half lidded with passion and lust. I feel faint. He gazes at me before retuning to his previous task: the sweet torture of my being. His mouth moves lower and lower till he reaches the hem above him shirt. He stops before looking up at me. I peer down at him between hooded eyelids, so lost in the passion that I don't bother to refuse him at all. He kisses down the valley between my breasts until he reaches my bra. I feel his arms go under my shirt and slip it off, exposing my bra and skin to his eyes, his eyes alone. I shiver involuntarily from the cold and from embarrassment of being so scantily clothed in front of him. He smiles lightly before going for my bra clasp. I gasp as he unclasps it; my arms immediately cover me, for I am afraid of him seeing me. He gives me a questioning look, his navy eyes wondering why I reacted the way I just did. I turn away, ashamed.

"Sora...I can't." I regain a sense of where I am. "What are we doing?" I feel tears spring to my eyes though I will not let them fall. "This isn't right." Oh god Sora, but I need it from you! Please don't let me win this round! Please reclaim me!

I tense a bit when I feel his arms encircle me. "I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me. Kairi...I'm so sorry."

I turn my back to him and grab my shirt, quickly replacing it over my skin. My body racks with unshed sobs as I stare out into the ocean underneath us. Sora is quiet. This is going to be a long ride.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"You're awfully quiet today, Kairi." Selphie shouts at me.

I nod to her, avoiding Sora's gaze. She nudges me affectionately. I smile. "Selphie," I start cautiously, eyeing Sora form the corner of my eyes. He seems slightly perturbed, but it talking animatedly with Riku who is making odd hand gestures. "Would you come with me for a while?"

"Sure. Where to?" She asks brightly.

"I don't know, anywhere but here though." I state as I drag her with me. I have to be anywhere away from you Sora, at least for now.

Once we arrive far from our male friends, I sit Selphie down and look straight at her. "Selphie."

"I know what happened between you two was bad, I don't exactly what, but I know it was bad in some way." Selphie said right away. She really doesn't waste time. She sighs. "Kairi, you love him and you know it. Whatever it is, you can deal with it."

"But I don't know if he loves me or is just attracted to me, Selphie." I say in despair. "What do I do?" I wring my hands.

Selphie appears exasperated. "He loves you Kairi. What would make you think differently?"

I think back to what occurred hours before in the boat. I feel tingly all over, but don't believe it means he loves me. I don't feel dirty, and if he wanted me simply for sex, wouldn't I feel dirty? As the questions run through my mind, I nod at Selphie so that she will not suspect my inner thoughts. "You're right Selphie. I'll.I'll tell him later today!" Yeah right, like hell I will!

"That's the spirit, Kairi!" She cheers before we head back to where Sora and Riku are sitting, deep in conversation. Selphie looks around for Tidus. She spots him admiring some swords in a store window. She runs over and I turn away. "We'll be back later!"

I search around for Wakka and see him talking to some woman who I suspect is interested in him because they are talking enthusiastically to each other. I roll my eyes. And I have Riku and Sora, who both ignore me when they are with each other. I walk over to them, debating whom I will sit next to at the bar. Before I can choose though, Riku turns to me. He pats the seat between Sora and himself. I sigh mentally as I take the seat, very aware of Sora's closeness. The tension is so thick someone could cut it like a blanket. I put on my façade to hide anything I can get away with from both of them. "Hey guys! Don't leave me in the dark! What are you talking about? Anything I'd know about? Anything I'd like?"

"Just stuff." Sora says rather grumpily, his left eye twitching.

"Oh you know, the usual. Sword fighting, racing, making things." Riku grins at me. "Isn't that right Sora?" Sora's eye twitches again. Riku arches an eyebrow at our sienna haired friend. "Is something the matter, Sora?"

"Oh, no!" His smile is forced. "Everything is A-OK here Riku, my man!"

Liar Sora! I glare at his back as he orders sodas for all of us. Riku grabs his drink and bows politely. "Well, then, I'll leave you two alone. I've got errands to run with someone. Catch you two later!"

RIKU! DON'T LEAVE ME HERE ALONE WITH HIM! NOT NOW! What someone? "Who is this someone, Riku?" I shout after his disappearing form. He shouts back "someone" and I'm satisfied by that answer since he won't elaborate more. I look at Sora. He is sipping his coke stolidly; his eyes far away from his drink. I feel my blood boiling at his attitude and poke him hard on the arm. He spits out his coke and glares at me. "Well, what did you expect? I'm not invisible! Oh, excuse me! Have I bothered the GREAT SORA? Master of the--"

"Not here, Kairi." He growls. I quiet a moment, but start up again when he resumes drinking.

"Tell me then, Sora, great master of the thing I shall not mention, what makes you so great that you don't have to acknowledge your friends? Is there something that is blocking that channel in that great big head of yours? Or is your hair covering the antennas?" I spit angrily, my voice low. I know I am in deep water by the resentful look he is shooting my way. "Or maybe it's that now that you become some GREAT master, you think you're better than the rest of us! Maybe it's that you're just a stuck up asshole who needs an attitude adjustment or a good kick in the ass or a good--"

"I said quit it Kairi." He grabs my elbow and drags me to a murky part of the bar where there are less people. "What is your problem?"

"YOU!" I say without thinking. Tears flow from my eyes, over my cheeks, staining my pale skin. "YOU ARE MY PROBLEM SORA, YOU BIG DUMMY!" God Sora! Can't you see how much I'm in love with you? I slap him so he'll get the point. "YOU ARE DRIVING ME INSANE!"

"THEN WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?" He questions, rightfully too.

"Because I'm your friend." God I am stupid.

"Then why are you so angry? He asks, his eyes burning holes through me when I meet his gaze. He is very close.

"Because--"

I never finish as I feel his lips on mine, harshly prying my mouth open. At first I refuse him entrance for I am stubborn and never go down without a fight, but I finally give into the wonder sensation of his lips on mine. He parts my lips with his tongue, exploring the crevices of my mouth before pressing me against the wall. I tangle one hand in his hair and the other rests curled around his neck, keeping him from pulling away, though I doubt at this point that he would. I am enjoying this more than he can imagine. After he lets up for air, I feel the stinging sensation of cold air against my now bruised lips from his harsh kissing, not that I cared in particular. He stares at me, sapphire eyes wide and curious, probably to my reaction. And I can only stare back, equally confused, my amethyst eyes trying to read his to no avail. I open my mouth to say something but he seals it with his again, this time letting his hand travel up my skirt as the other grasps my head tightly. I gasp into his mouth. Not here Sora, there are too many people, my mind shouts at him. He doesn't' seem to care too much, but at my silent plea and hand that slaps his away, he stops. Not his kiss though, which he only proceeds to press his lips even harder upon mine that are now tender and puffy. Our tongues duel within our passion for I am not about to let Sora win this battle over me, not just yet anyway. I am relishing it too much. I move to deepen it more than it already is when he pulls away suddenly. I give him a furiously questioning glare to which he responds by smirking. "Maybe some other time, Kairi." And just like nothing happened, he begins to strut away. That is definitely not the Sora I know! He's too shy even now! Or is he?

I am beyond fury as he walks away from me, his copper toned hair fluttering in the breeze of the outside bar area. I clench my fists tightly, willing them to fly after him and beat him senseless. I readjust my skirt before letting out and indignant huff and walking toward the hotel. That jerk, I think venomously as I check in. I choose not to get teary eyes-though I feel this way at the moment-and instead fume and head for the pool area. When I enter the area, I see Riku laid out on a sun chair, his platinum hair splayed around his head like a halo of silver silk. I smile at him as he waves then quickly dive into the water. It is deserted, which is slightly strange-save for Tidus, Riku, and Selphie-but I guess no one likes to swim much around here. The water feels extraordinary as it flows over my skin, refreshing and cleansing at the same time. I think it to rid myself of Sora's touch, but it doesn't-and the feeling worsens when he enters the pool area. He seems oblivious to me but waves good-naturedly to Tidus and Selphie. This bothers me for a moment but my fury resurfaces and I dive underwater again, my auburn hair creating a curtain to hide my facial expressions from Sora. I hear him jump in the water as I step out to dive from the board; I dive. I float a few moments after my dive as the cool water soothes my aching legs, relaxing me though my muscles tense with the knowledge that Sora is very near. And then I feel him near me.

"GOTCHA!" I shriek loudly as his arms encircle my waist. It becomes more of a struggle to get away than a playful game between us. He is stunned when I shove him off roughly before swimming hurriedly to the stairs. "Hey Kairi, where are you going?"

I don't answer him while I wrap my towel around myself. I nod to Riku once then dash madly in frenzy to my room on the third floor, far from Sora's on the first. I don't exactly remember why I asked to stay on the third floor while Selphie, Tidus, Riku, Wakka, and Sora stay on the first. Hm.must have been important to be that far away from all of them. I go to the bathroom and turn the shower on right away, making the water a bit hotter than lukewarm. I let it flow over me, the hot beads of water cascading over my skin, soothing me. Once done, I step out, get dressed in my nightgown and slip on my fuzzy slippers before settling down in front of the window with my fuzzy blanket. The window of my room is fairly large, overlooking the islands shore where there are still people walking along the beach even though the sun is setting. Then I see him, standing desolately on the seashore, his lean figure a beautiful contrast against the bright suns rays that are now, as I watch, fading. The setting behind him of blues, oranges, reds, and purples is almost unimaginable. It goes along with him so well, with his copper colored locks, smooth creamy skin like ivory tusks and azure eyes that bear his soul, if I could ever get near enough. His lithe fingers, long toned legs, moderate muscles arms, and broad shoulders were a main focus of mien lately. I shift my gaze to the sun for a moment, the rays surely would be illuminating Sora's beautiful face, perfect lips of a soft pink that I have longed to kiss, and have kissed, but not the way I would like to kiss. I look back and he is gone. When did that happen? I didn't even see him disappear! I search for him desperately outside the window on the shore. He isn't there, Kairi.

I practically jump out of my skin at the soft knock on my door. It must be room service coming to serve dinner and boy I am hungry! I rush over to the door in anticipation of dinner to come, and I throw the door open. What comes at me is something VERY unsuspected. I Fell myself being thrown back- not literally-back on the bed by someone. Once person comes to mind. Sora. I sit up just in time to meet his lips as he crawls over me and pushes me back on the bed. I struggle beneath him to free myself from his grasp, which I know I will be unable to refuse once again. I shove him off quickly. "Stop this!"

"How can I?" He asks huskily as he pulls me toward him again, sliding my nightgown straps from my shoulder, and I let them fall, covering myself with my arms once again.

"Because this is wrong Sora. Because this isn't something that-that..." I turn to look at him. Mistake Kairi. His lips crush mine again as he lays me beneath him for the second time. His hands touch my stomach and I shiver at the contact; it's heated almost. God Sora, you have no idea what this does to me! I lose myself and rake my hands down his now bare back. When did he shed his shirt or was it already shed? I care not for the answer to that as he slips my nightgown completely off. I take in a sharp breath as his lips leave mine to trail down my skin, sucking on it and creating moist circular motions with his tongue along my stomach. God Sora, that feels good! I cry out as he removes my bra, the black satin falling to the side somewhere, forgotten and useless to me now. I am completely exposed. I feel numb for a moment until I feel Sora kiss me again on the lips. I moan into him, my legs circling his wait tightly. He groans in ecstasy and I smile into his mouth, running my fingers through his hair. And I thought this was forbidden? Who cares! All sensible thoughts leave my mind when I feel Sora's lips around my breasts, slowly suckling each bud sending me through a spiral of surprise and aching. "SORA!" I cry out his name as he drags his tongue along my other breast, kneading them with his expert hands, creating the most wonderful sensations to spread throughout my body.

"Kairi..." His breathing is labored for his voice is breathy as well. "What...what do you want?" He runs his fingers up and down my thighs, my legs still around his waist. I writhe against him, begging for something I cannot voice. I reach out to him, sliding my hands up his chest as I peer at him through hooded eyes. His eyes are closed as well, tongue running along his lips sensually as he lets his head fall back. I push myself forward, causing him to fall back so that I am now straddling him, rendering him kind of helpless beneath me.

"Sora...tell me..."I start but never finish as he pulls me in for another searing kiss. I press myself against him, grinding my hips against him. I can feel him, his arousal digging into me. He is clearly hard and in need, but will I relieve it? I smirk knowingly as I continue to torture him, reveling in the feeling, but also getting revenge for what he did to me in the boat and in the bar. He cries out my name and I smile again before getting off him completely, replacing my bra where it belongs. I feel an ache inside me, one of physical nature, but I do not allow it to distract me. It takes all my control not to go back to him for he looks heavenly. He is sprawled across the bed, panting heavily. His chest is rising and falling while beads of sweat roll down his skin. His hooded eyes plead with me and I want to jump back where I was, but I control myself. I cannot do it. I have to make him wait. If he wants me that much, then he will wait. He sits up slowly, his eyes puzzled and confused. "Kairi, where are you going?"

I turn to him slightly, trying to act suave. I smirk. "Maybe some other time, Sora."

TBC.

(Hey people! now that was just strange! I'm not really good at this lemon stuff so I'm not going to write one. That is the closest I'll probably ever get! Anyway, this was mainly a slightly more passionately physical part of the story, but I don't think I'll be doing too much of that. I like the characters to have personality so Kairi will go back to describing things and thinking. This was just a happening, as you'll see later on. Well, I hope some of you enjoyed my chapter! And really sorry if it disappoints some of you! Please R&R and as always, constructive criticism is welcome, but no flames please cause that's rude! Chao!)

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