Disclaimer: If I owned PotO I would have Michael Crawford and Sarah Brightman locked in my basement and would be forcing them to sing. However I don't.
A/N: At this point I would like to thank AmandaTheVampireLove for giving me the best review of my life and so this chapter is dedicated to her.
Christine's thoughts...
Down once more to the dungeons of my black despair
Down we plunge to the prison of my mind
Down that path into darkness,
deep as hell
I hurried down that path which she had come to know far too well. I knew that
there
had to be a purpose for this trip down to the house on the lake, to a place where
sunlight
dies. Something inside told me told me I belonged there, with him. I had been
listening to
this voice for a while, then shut it out and did something stupid, like the rooftop. I
could feel
his presence and knew that he was there and yet I kissed him, I kissed Raoul. I
was now
realizing, for the first time, that those words, that song I had sang with him just
moments ago,
was for me. This was my Point of no Return. Then chaos turned to madness,
everything
went upside down. I looked away from Erik who was sitting at his organ, and like
usual there
was the cat. Oh how I despised that cat! I thought that maybe the cat would be
forced
to love me if I lived with Erik. No that cat was as stubborn as he was. I looked
over and
saw Raoul. No this can't happen. He can't be here. Why is he here? I knew he
wanted to
save me, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to be saved.
Wait! I think, my dear, we have a guest
Sir this is indeed an unparalleled delight
I had rather hoped that you would come
And now my wish comes true
You have truly made my night!
Oh god why won't this living nightmare come to an end, I knew Raoul and could
see where this was going next.
Free her
Do what you like, only free her
Have you no pity?
Why do the two men I love have to fight. But I did not love love them both in the
same sense. Raoul I only loved because she was trying to get back her childhood.
I missed the
carefree sense of happiness which was seldomly to be found without him, Erik I
gave him my soul and now was ready to give him my heart, but did I really love him
or did I love his music?
Your lover makes a passionate plea
I knew he could not escape him.
Please, Raoul, it's useless
I wanted this all to end.
I love her
Does that mean nothing?
I love her
Show some compassion
I watched and knew there was more to come.
The world showed no compassion to me!
I knew that this was all thought out and it could mean death for Raoul. He was
there when they were on the roof it murdered him and if I wasn't with him it would
continue to.
Christine . . .
Christine . . .
Let me see her
Oh why was he here? Why couldn't he just stay above ground? I felt like a child
again when I was in his presence and I liked it, no I loved it .
Be my guest, sir...
Monsieur, I bid you welcome
Did you think that I would harm her?
Why would I make her pay
for the sins which are yours?
Order your fine horses now
Raise up your hand to the level of your eyes
Nothing can save you now, except perhaps Christine
I watched and wished this were a dream, no a nightmare. He looked at me with
such a face I felt threatened as though it was my head in the lasso, not Raoul's.
Start a new life with me
Buy his freedom with your love!
Refuse me, and you send your lover to his death!
This is the choice,
This is the point of no return!
I couldn't bear this. I had been debating this and I must choose. Erik the musician,
architect, magian, genius, and of course Angel, ghost, and at times like now,
phantom.
Or Raoul, the rich fop. The friend and lover. He let me be a child around her. What
was I to do?
Christine, forgive me, please forgive me
I did it all
for you, and all for
nothing . . .
I wished at that moment more than ever before that my father was still alive. I could
hear his violin in my head, well I could have but instead I heard the angel that took
his place.
Too late for turning back, Too late for prayers and useless pity
It was like he read my mind for that what was I planed to do next but I needed a
new plan.
Say you love him, and my life is over!
If I picked one the other would die.
All hope of cries of help,
No point in fighting
For either way you choose, You cannot win
I cannot win and in a sense I can, but that would never work
Either way you choose, he has to win
I wanted to cry but nether of them seemed to care about my feelings, just as long as
I picked them.
So do you end your days with me
Or do you send him to his grave?
Oh why is my angel doing this. I should have left the mask on and performed. Isn't
that what he wanted? Or had he known that I would take off the mask? I felt so
helpless and confused.
Why make her lie to you to save me?
I just wanted to be free from there grasp, Raoul's ring was in my hand, he had a
physical grasp, but Erik had a mental one, one that could not be matched.
(A/N at this time Raoul's singing will be italicized )
Past the point of no return...
For pity's sake, Christine say no!
The final threshold . . .
Don't throw your life away for my sake!
His life is now the prize which you must earn!
I fought so hard to free you . .
You've passed the point of no return!
I can't decide, Erik betrayed me and now wants me to love him or lose Raoul who
wants to free me from my angel is willing to die right now for me. Why must I be
forced to suffer due to their intolerable hate!
You dirve my patience,
Make your choice!
What was I to do?
A/N: Erik's thoughts will be posted in the next chapter. I would put Raouls but no one likes him so there. Reveiw and I'll give you some of AmandaTheVampireLove's smores bar that she gave me for updating.