Disclaimer: Me at group therapy "Hello my name is KT" group: Hi Kt "I don't own Phantom of the Opera" Group of phans: Awwwwww "I sometimes pretend I do though and write stories and put them on the internet, making the characters do what I want."
A/N: There is real E/Cness here (Hopes Amanda won't hurt her for last chapter... or anyone else)
Christine's life...
I woke up and looked about the large master bedroom. Raoul was still sleeping beside
me, it felt so wrong.
I don't belong here.
I got up and tried not to wake him. I wished for Erik's warm embrace. I went over the calendar, marked off another day.
It's been an entire week. It seems like so long.
I tried to forget that face, of pleading and love,
Yet in his eyes, all the of sadness the world...
I went wandering through the large mansion. Raoul had insisted we get married soon.
I refused, why should I marry a man I wasn't even sure I loved? I past many rooms I had
not entered, I spent the past week wandering around, singing, Raoul hated it, I sang
when he was out though. He never wanted me to go to back to the opera house again.
He wouldn't even let me sing! I felt the need to have music in my life. I craved it, but not
just any music.
Erik's music.
I knew I missed it. I wanted to run back and find him, though I didn't. I wasn't sure why, but I
didn't.
It was like that for several weeks. I couldn't get the angel of music to stop singing songs in
my head. It felt like I was cursed, and at the same time, blessed. I often dreamt of him, but
could never recall what I had dreamt in the morning. One time I must have mentioned Erik's
name in my sleep and the next morning Raoul had been enraged.
"You still dream of him, that monster"
Those words were like daggers. I tried to rebel.
"Well wouldn't you if you knew that someone you loved was alone and miserable!"
I could have expected came next.
"Did you think I could stop thinking of you, all those sleepless nights, knowing you were with him!'"
"You just can't stand the fact that I still love the man you hate! Can you?"
I was usually such a kind gentle girl, but this was beginning to make my blood boil. Then
he left. He just walked out. I had no clue where but he left. I was in no mood to follow him,
like some dog. Though he might have expected me to come running to his side and ask his forgiveness. I needed forgiveness but not from him. I wrote Raoul a note and taking his ring off my finger, left the large estate.
I hoped I had chosen the right words.
Raoul,
Our childhood together was one of the happiest of my life. Yet I cannot go on
pretending that I love you like I had when we were children. A lot has changed, I know you
wanted this to end differently but I cannot live this way. I need him with me. When I was
with him my voice and my soul soared to unimaginable heights. I love you and always will,
but not in the same way. You have given me far more than I deserve, And the whole time
I had been longing for something even you cannot provide. Do not try to follow me. I
have chosen. I will enjoy the memories of our childhood, and I always will, but I need to
return to where my soul wants to be. I have enjoyed these few months but not loving
them. You should know where I'm going, though don't go. You have a place in my heart,
but it is an empty one. I know you want me to be happy Raoul so let me be happy, let
me go.
Sincerely,
Christine Daae.
I had hoped he wouldn't dare follow, for I'm sure it would only hurt himmore to come and
see me return to him than for him to stay and have only memories. He was a rich charming
man, he should have no trouble finding someone else.
What if he no longer wants you? Why are you doing this?
I could not answer my questions but I tried.
I love him. Him and no one else. He will understand.
Or would he. What if he can't forgive? What if he can't love her?
What if...
There were far too many unanswered questions. I picked up a newspaper as it floated by.
I read the headline and almost fainted:
Erik is dead.
A/N: Woo hoo. two chapters in one night. There see she was only with him for less then a
chapter. I have the rest planned out and Raoul might just go against the one he loves. But
that's for another time.